Hey peoples...*hides behind the sofa to avoid the throwing of sharp objects*
I can only apologise for this taking soooooooooooooooooooo long to get to you. It was a combination of things for which I can only say sorry and thank you for sticking with this story. I do have the next 2 chapters written after this so I can do a one a week schedule :) and hopefully the last 2 chapters will be done by then!
As always mahoosive thanks to my beta twilightmenrhot and my prereader whitegurl2013. You guys rock my world and without you my writing would stay garbage!
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BPOV
A fair few weeks has passed since the night where He-who-shall-not-be-thought-about pissed me off. I have tried, tried being the operative word, to get my life into some sort of normality. I didn't realise how much…..no. We will think about us Swan, no one else! My subconscious sounds a lot like B.A! She has been a great friend and so has the Pixie. Needless to say Smirks doesn't write and Es, well, I feel really bad that I dumped all my shit on her. Well, not on purpose, more like…..well it wasn't me.
Anyways, I managed to get my ass together and now I have another job, in a karaoke bar of all places, and remained friends with B.A., Big, Pixie and sometimes Jazzy. Jazzy is an odd bod. I do like him and he is awesome as Ali's other half but sometimes the way he looks at me is like he is looking through me. I reckon he is the only one who sees that I am not coping. I put on a great show, being the only girl in a family of men will do that for you. Gotta milk it as much as possible, whenever possible! But it seems that Jazzy is a little too perceptive for my liking. Ali has an inkling but I put her off topic with shoes whenever she mentions it. It's a lame thing to do but self-preservation is a skill I have.
Bear had to stay with me for two weeks after my birthday and it was only with the threat of Dad that made me shape up. That is one pissed off dude I didn't need on my case. He wants me to move back because I am pretty sure Jake has told him all about my brilliant decisions concerning the opposite sex. I really don't wanna move back. Salt Lake City is a big ass place and I don't need to bump into anyone I don't necessarily like.
So I drag my ass up and get ready for the shift at The Dive. I don't take half as long to get ready as I did for The Bourbon, but I have no one to dress for except myself. Even though, I still put on my electric blue Docs, a knee length denim skirt and a fitted Rocky Horror t-shirt. The t-shirt is an original that I found in a thrift shop and I love it!
I grab my keys and head out the door. I send a text to Jake, Rosie and Ali to say I am going to work. This has become a nightly routine, if I so much as deviate from my text time, between 5 and 5.30pm, then I will have three irate bitches on the line. Yes I just referred to my brother as a bitch, 'cause he is! I jump on the train and get to work in time to open up with Dennis and Lonny. They own the bar together and make a cute but very odd couple. Lonny is hilarious where Dennis is really sensible, mostly.
"Hey baby doll, you gonna do old Den a favour tonight?" he hoarsely says. This can't be good, Dennis normally opens the singing in the bar and he doesn't sound like he can. Lonny certainly can't 'cause that poor dude can't sing for shit! We would have an empty bar on a Friday night which just can't happen. As it is Friday, he needs someone to open the singing if he is unable. I shoot him the stink eye but it doesn't work, he just stands there looking at me with one eyebrow arched. I reluctantly agree to be the opening singer. At least none of my friends are in tonight, they are all working. Gotta love the bar business.
Well, 9pm rolls around, the bar is starting to fill and I notice some of the regulars giving me the eye. Den has clearly said I am going to sing. None of them have heard me sing before and clearly don't think I am up to it. Well time to show them what I am made of. I chose my song as soon as I had decided to sing. Lady Antebellum, Need You Now. I can't sing a happy song, not now. I hear the DJ, Drew, shout me over. He starts my music and I stand in the centre of the stage and begin the song.
Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore
I sway slightly as I sing the song and can't help but think that I don't have many pictures of Doc. This errant thought nearly makes me lose my place in the song but I continue all the same.
And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
Huh! As if he thinks of me. He told me he didn't want me.
It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now
And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I do need you Doc. I can feel the tears in my eyes and the emotion in my voice but can't bring myself to cut off all emotion.
Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before
Whiskey, that would be a good idea to get me through this shift!
And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now
And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all
I hurt anyways. Might see if I can get in touch. I know I won't.
It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Oh baby, I need you now
I finish the song and take a little bow and smile sadly at the crowd. I notice someone familiar in the crowd and curse my song choice. What on earth made me sing that god damn song?
Sorry for the cliffie, but I PROMISE the next one will be up by Saturday at the latest :O)
So let me know what you think...all comments greatly received ;O)
Cat xx