Hey Peoples!As promised here is the next chapter, I told you I would keep my promise!
This is the last of the Beta'd chapters that I have. By the end of tonight I will have sent the next (probably last) chapter to my Beta! My Beta, twilightmenrhot, and my prereader, whitegurl2013, totally rock my world! Thanks for joining me on this journey ladies without you this would be total tosh!
As always: I own nothing, just playing with the characters for a little bit ;O)
CPOV
So, it's been about 6 weeks since I cut all ties with the Little Girl. I am moping around like a 'god damn teenager' according to Jazz. He came to visit last night and explained to me that I had to 'shape the fuck up' and clean my house as it is 'frigging disgusting'. Yeh, we had a lovely chat. He wasn't wrong on any point that he made. I have been a selfish prick and I need to sort myself out.
So, I dragged my ass to bed, instead of sleeping on the couch with Mads, and got a decent night's sleep for the first time in weeks. This morning I got up and got dressed and started on the war zone that is my house. I have cleaned like a demon and taken Maddy for the first decent walk she has had since coming back from Es' house. I think she was pleased to see me acting my usual self, well more so than the past few weeks.
As I walk through the woods I realise that Jazz said something that really hit home;
God damn it C! You are as much of a fucking mess as she is! Swallow your damn pride and go speak to her. It is clear you feel something for her, I am pretty sure that this reaction means you most probably love her. Fix it C! If you don't we will lose the light that is Izzy from all our lives.
It was the first time that I had heard Jazz speak like that. He is usually a calm and collected kind of guy. Ed on the other hand has chewed me out loads of times over the past 6 weeks. I seem to be his favourite chew toy at the minute.
I sit at my computer, doing some work for Es that has been neglected and think about what I can do to apologise to Iz. I have been told by Ali and Rose that the dude was her brother, that I am an insensitive jealous prick and have to do something to fix it. I open my email and find an anonymous email with a video attached. It is labelled Izzy Swan so obviously I am going to open it.
I take a deep breath and open the video. Its hazy but then all of a sudden it comes into focus and I see her for the first time in 6 weeks.
Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before
She looks thin. The light that usually dances in her eyes when she sings is replaced by unshed tears. I have never heard so much emotion in her voice. I really want to turn off the video but can't bring myself to do it.
And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
Yes. Every minute of every day.
It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now
And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all
She looks miserable. What have I done? More to the point, how do I fix this? I look at the video and try to work out which karaoke bar she is in. Hopefully she works there or is a regular, I see Lonny in the background and instantly know she is at The Dive.
It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now
Oh baby, I need you now
She looks towards the video and she looks haunted. I need to fix this and fix it quickly. I love that girl and I can't just leave her like this. If my love will help her then I need to tell her that she has it.
I spend the rest of the night thinking about what I can do. I know I need to get the gang involved somehow. Ed will be completely against it but he can kiss my ass. So, against my better judgement I ring Ali and we decide on an action plan.
We are to stage a Bourbon Room night out and head into The Dive, this will be done on a Monday night as it is the quietest night and we can close if needed, which we will have to do. We will take turns on the Karaoke and hopefully I won't be noticed instantly. I will probably have to pretend to be Em's shadow for part of the night but, if it works then I will do it. I have decided that I will sing something; fuck knows what, to Iz. I am hoping the grand gesture will go down well. I don't know but my thoughts are, if I do something publicly she can't kill me, right?
'Bout time Doc! So let me know what you think...just 1 chap and maybe an Epilogue to go. Not sure if I want to do one though?
Give me your ideas...
What song should Doc sing to Iz?
Cat x x