Hey peoples!
Here it is, the end of my little fic. Thank you so much to those who favourited and reviewed etc. I can't thank you enough! My Beta twilightmenrhot thanks so much for the quick turn around on this, you seriously rock my world! To my prereader, whitegurl2013, thanks for all your encouragement and I will definitely have a think about your idea!
Disclaimer: I own nothing! I just get to play with Carlisle every now and again...but for now he goes back in the toy box.
Enjoy the last chapter!
BPOV
Monday night at The Dive was usually a quiet affair. Basically, after the Need You Now Fiasco (that's what I am calling it anyways), I sing every night to start off the show. Tonight I have chosen one of my favourite songs, Ironic by Alanis Morisette. This is the way my life runs and I am feeling slightly maudlin.
While on stage I notice a big group of people come in. I groan inwardly and my song choice is now appropriate. Sitting in one of the booths facing the stage are most of the bar staff from The Bourbon. I finish my song and slyly look over to the booth. I see Big, B.A., Pixie, Jazz, Smirks and Es easily. Es smiles and waves me over but I just shake my head and move to the bar to see Dennis nod at the group. I notice there are 7 drinks on the table and panic when I think Doc might be there. However, the dude next to Big is way too short and thin to be Doc. He seems to shrink behind Big completely, poor fucker. Fancy standing in that shadow?
I do my bit at the bar and notice that B.A. gets up to the microphone. The music starts and I chuckle to myself. Cher's Turn Back Time belts out of the speakers.
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way I'd take back those words that hurt you and you'd stay
I don't know why I did the things I did I don't know why I said the things I said
Pride's like a knife it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons they wound sometimes.
I didn't really mean to hurt you I didn't wanna see you go I know I made you cry, but baby
If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back time
I giggle to myself and she sends me a smirk. I know she is trying to interfere in my life, I can feel it from where she is and how she is singing. I shake my head and go into the back to change the barrel of Sam Adams. I need to distract myself, seeing as they are the biggest group in the bar tonight.
After what feels like forever, I get back out to the bar and realise the Pixie is taking her turn on the karaoke. I stand mesmerised for a minute as I realise what song she is singing. Hard To Say I'm Sorry by Chicago.
Hold me now
It's hard for me
To say I'm sorry
I just want you to stayAli looks me straight in the eye and I can't tear my eyes away. She sings so beautifully and hauntingly.
After all that
We've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's
Been said and done
You're just the part of me
I can't let go
I eventually turn around and continue my jobs, with unshed tears in my eyes. A few regulars get up to sing and then I notice Big get up and walk to Drew. He takes the mike, nods in the direction of the booth and then seeks out my eyes.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
He sings it well. I feel the tears running down my cheeks. Why are they doing this to me? Are they saying sorry for a reason? I have never had beef with Big, B.A. or Pixie. I don't understand. I am even more confused when twenty minutes later Smirks gets up to sing. I know now that they are up to something. Es is sat quietly talking to the other dude with them. I assume my replacement? Good luck to him! I huff when I hear the first few bars of the song Smirks is singing.
What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there
What do I do to make you want me
What have I gotta do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
Sorry seems to be the hardest word
It's sad, it's so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Always seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
I grip the bar. I can't do any more. Dennis comes up behind me and turns me into his embrace. He shakes his head at Smirks, I presume as I am not looking at him. I make my apologies and dash out the back to sort myself out.
I look into the mirror in the staff toilet. "Look at the fucking state of you Isabella Swan! What the fuck happened to 'you can take on the world'?" I ask myself in the mirror.
"Everyone needs to be told sorry at some point. Everyone needs to be forgiven too," says Lonny from the doorway. "The reason your friends are here might have something to do with Den and me. We noticed how sad you were and Den, well he is the ultimate romantic, he videoed your Lady Antebellum song on his phone. That video somehow got to your friends. They are clearly here to make amends. So, babygirl, let them?" he asks hopefully. I turn and look at him. I have fixed my make up as best I can.
"I don't know whether to punch you or kiss you!" This is the truth, I am so rattled by their presence that I don't know what to do. Lonny reaches for my hand and makes the decision for me. He hesitates as we approach the bar, I nod and he pulls me into a hug. Time to pull on my big girl panties, as Daddy would say. I walk out to the bar and see someone with their back to me talking to Drew on stage.
I notice the black DM's first with the jeans. Then the black signature t-shirt. The tattoos popping out from under the sleeves. The same tattoos that have been licked by me on more than one occasion. Fuck! The long dark hair that my fingers ache to grab onto. Doc. DOC. Bollocks!
I try to leave the bar but see both Dennis and Lonny blocking my path. Those two bastards have been in on it from the start. I notice that the bar has gone deathly quiet and I wait for the song to start.
It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss
It's getting better baby
No one can better this
Still holding on
You're still the one
First time our eyes met
Same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger
I want to love you longer
Do you still turn the fire on?
He is looking straight at me at this point and I can't draw my eyes away from him. He looks so sad. He looks so sorry for everything he has done.
So if you're feeling lonely, don't
You're the only one I'll ever want
I only want to make it good
So if I love you, a little more than I should
Doc looks me in the eye and doesn't break contact. I try to look away but his gaze has me in place. His voice is so gravelly and sexy. It does amazing things to my insides.
Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me, every word I say is true
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you
I now realise what has happened tonight. They are all helping him apologise to me. I nod at him and he nods back and finishes the rest of the song. He hesitates as he hands the microphone back to Drew. I can see he doesn't know what to do. Smirks hands him a shot before he turns around to leave the stage. I am pushed in front of the bar by an unseen hand.
Doc comes to meet me and sings the last line of the song, "I can't stop loving you." I see him take a breath and the nervous look in his eye before he speaks again. "Iz, I can't say sorry enough. What I did was wrong and if I could change that by turning back time I would. You are my reason for getting through the day, even if I try to deny it. It is really hard to say sorry, I didn't know what you would do. I thought I would be kicked out so I have hidden in shadow all night. Only daring to look at you when you were busy. Iz, I want you back. I have never wanted something so much in my life. I have seen what I have done to you and I need to fix this, fix us. Will you take me back?"
I bite my lip. I can't give an answer, not just like that, I look to Lonny and he comes over. I ask him to set up the karaoke. Two can play this game. I make my way toward the stage and ask Dennis to sit Doc at the bar so he can see me sing.
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
I make a point to state into Doc's eyes. I see nothing else around me.
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died every day
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I smile at him as I sing so he knows that I mean it with all of my heart. I love him so much. He has been a colossal prick but we can fix that!
I'll love you for a
Thousand more
Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
Doc moves towards me. He jumps up on stage and pulls me into the fiercest kiss of my life. I hear the song continue behind me and I don't have it in me to care.
Doc is mine.
Mine.
Songs used in this chapter:
Ironic - Alanis Morissette
Turn back time - Cher
Hard to say I'm sorry - Chicago
The reason - Hoobastank
Sorry seems to be the hardest word - Elton John
Please Forgive me - Bryan Adams
Thousand Trees - Christina Perri
So my little fic is all finished. Thanks again!
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Cat xx