Remembrance
chapter 4. Hisana

Hisana. Just Hisana.
Without the burden of a family name.

Yet, you carry yourself like royalty, dignity so still and perfect that everything you do becomes a deed self-righteous on its own.

You are not cold, it is just that you are not warm either.

Your smiles are warm, but mild like the spring breezes. You never cried, until your first and last tear slid down your cheeks turning lifelessly cold. Not once, amides the passions of the night, your eyes lose their clarity to kisses. I still wonder if you really existed, when that emptiness called out to your absence.

I don't even know, if you ever loved me, or were it just sympathy.

I would give you anything, if you would ever ask.

You never ask for marriage, though you never rejected it.
You never ask me to reprimand the ones who slighted you, yet I made them apologize.
You never ask me to love you.

You never ask, because you never truely needed me. And you know that I need you, desperately so.

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In those last moments I held your hands, you just apologized.

"Gomennasai. I was so selfish."

So you are. I had five years of your life. You have the rest of mine.

You knew, Hisana, and you just apologized.

Thanks everyone for the reviews!

To lostxwords, not really, your fic is sweet :). I can't remember where exactly, but I did remember seeing Byakuya smile though, a smile so small I almost missed it. Or it could have been my imagination. I'd like to see him smile though.
To hafewolfdemon, - Shall work hard and update...
To lazycat8, Thanks for your compliment! Actually I imagined Byakuya to be rather informal when he is just by himself, another reason why his own inner courtyard is absolutely out of bounds to servants and such.
It's hard to keep up the Byakuya-tone----point one, I'm your normal brainlessly-happy girl; point two, my English is learnt, not picked up like you guys so there's going to be some inconsistencies.----and I think I'm losing it in this chapter...it's so hard to imagine what went through Byakuya's mind...

It's either fault or mine, but I can't figure out how to leave lines... I'm highly dependant on spacing so this is a real killer. Anyway, I've made use of the fullstop and hope that will stop the editor eating up my line spacings... so ignore the random dot here and there please.