Chapter 19

A few hours later John makes one last stop before he headed home. He knew this stop would be the most unpleasant one because now he had to have a chat with his step-daughter…Sami. He knocked on the door lightly as he heard Sami's voice from the other side of the door.

"Come on in."

John opens the door to Sami's "office" most of it was in disarray but it didn't surprise him at all. Sami looked up to see her guest and mumbles something John couldn't quite make out beneath her breath.

"John I really don't have time to talk to you I'm very busy with the new clients."

"I don't really care Samantha we need to talk…now."

"John really I have so many clients I have to interview for the new line models couldn't we talk later."

"No Sami this is important we need to talk about your behavior towards your mother and I especially about the twins."

"My behavior, excuse me John but didn't I already apologize for my "behavior" as you call it?"

"You did but you didn't mean it. Now I'm not blind to your little tantrums and though your mother is, most of the time, she knows you didn't mean it. Tell me why you're so upset about the twins?"

"What makes you think I'm upset with the twins?"

Sami says going back to the paper scattered across her desk not looking at John. John puts his hand down on the paper Sami is viewing getting her attention.

"Gee I don't know Sami maybe the way you acted when we told you Doc was pregnant? Or maybe it was what you said about us? I can't quite remember maybe you can help me out with that?"

"I didn't mean anything by it I was just surprised that's all."

"Surprised? Is that all you can say. Now I know you don't like me and you still blame me for your parents divorce. That was nearly twenty years ago are you ever going to get over it? Your mother and I are married and your father and Kate are married there isn't anything you can do about it so you just have to accept it."

"My parents belong together and if it weren't for you John they would still be together. This little "thing" mom and dad have with you and Kate is just to pass the time someday they will get back together."

"Samantha! Your mother and father are never getting back together they are both happily married to someone else you have to get out of this dream world you created as your perfect family it isn't that way."

"It will be John my mom and dad belong together. Why don't you just leave us alone and find your own family?"

John buried the anger he was feeling with Sami's response. A part of him just wanted to slap some sense into her but the other part of him still loved Sami as a daughter.

"Sami your mother, Brady and Belle are my family now. What Roman and Marlena had is dead and buried. When are you going to accept that it's over between them?"

"I will never accept that John because I know they love each other they have a family together and you can't take that away."

"I never claimed I would take your family but this is the way it is now."

"You took my family away from me when you had that affair with mom. Your ruined my life and you ruined my father's life. Do you even know how much you hurt him being with mom the way you were?"

"I know how much I hurt your father all those years ago. But I wasn't the only one there Sami your mother hurt him too. By keeping the truth about Belle from them you hurt them too. How long did you expect to keep that kind of secret anyway?"

"If Stefano hadn't interfered the way he did mom and dad would still be together and mom would be pregnant with his baby and not yours!"

John is shocked by her response but he didn't expect anything less from her. After all she was very bitter towards him and she never did quite get over their affair. Sami turns away from John and pulls the sheets of paper from beneath his hand.

"I can't believe what I just heard from you. You hate having Belle as a sister don't you? Every time you look at her you remember that day?"

Sami turns around toward John again and throws the papers back on her desk.

"I don't hate Belle I hate you. You ruined my life John and I will never forgive you for that."

"I didn't ruin anyone's life Sami you keep blaming your mother and me for your constant unhappiness. Well you listen to me "little girl" I may not be able to throw you over my knee anymore but we didn't ruin your chances with Austin, Franco, Brandon, or Lucas you did that on you own. You have to learn to take responsibility for your own actions and stop blaming other's for your carelessness. Did you ever think that maybe because of your actions you feel the way you do? Have you? If you would just stop scheming against everyone you "loved" you would be happy now?"

"Well you may not be responsible for my breakups in the past but you started it. If you and mom wouldn't have cheated on dad then maybe I wouldn't be as screwed up as I am now. That's when it all started and I still detest you."

"Sami how many times do I have to tell you that I didn't do it alone your mother wanted to be with me just as much as I wanted to be with her. If she were honest with her feelings then maybe our affair never would have happened but I don't regret being with her I never will. Now because of our affair we share a beautiful daughter and we both love her very much and I know she loves you."

"When mom slept with you it the biggest mistake she ever made."

"Do you hear yourself Sami? You just called your sister a mistake. She is our daughter and you have to accept that and get on with your life. Just like the twins are our children the sooner you accept that the better you'll be."

"Mom shouldn't even be pregnant at her age. Al l her children are in their twenties she's a grandmother she should start acting like one and not returning to her youth."

"Your mother and I have wanted another baby for a very long time. Now finally after all this time we got our baby. Why does that make you so angry?"

"Because mom shouldn't have another baby at her age and now that she's pregnant again you just signed her death certificate yourself."

"We know the risks of this pregnancy Sami it wasn't as if we planned it. We didn't think she could get pregnant again. It just did and we couldn't be happier."

"How can you be happy knowing that mom could die with this pregnancy? Do you care about anyone but yourself?"

"I care about your mother very much just like I care about Carrie you and your brother. Your mother is being carefully monitored by her doctor and everything looks fine."

"Sure now everything is fine but what about six months later? What about the delivery you know how dangerous it is to have a child at her age and yet you encourage mom to have these babies."

"Your mother made the decision to have these babies on her own. I had nothing to do with it."

"Well you could have been more careful then her life wouldn't be in so much danger."

"Every pregnancy can be dangerous you know that yourself. We both want these babies more then anything and we know what risks there are but we will get through them together as a family. Nothing is more important then our family and you mother needs to know that you are happy about the babies. She knows you are upset about them and she also knows that you would be happier if the twins were your father's but they aren't. You mom is under so much stress right now that her blood pressure is high. That isn't good for her or the babies she needs your support on this issue. If you keep fighting her the way you are those twins won't make it and that's going to kill your mom. Do you want that on your conscious?"

"I'm not happy about the twins but I don't want them to die either. I didn't know mom suspected that I wasn't happy with them. I mean how was I supposed to know?"

"She's you mom Sami she knows everything about you even when you bury your feelings. She can sense you aren't happy and she also knows that your "apology" wasn't from the heart. She wants nothing more then you to be happy about the new babies and she needs to hear that and you need to let her know that."

"I'm not going to lie to mom John. I don't think she should have the twins but not because they are yours but because it's so dangerous for her to have a baby now. I don't want to loose my mom."

"Then show her you care Samantha."

John exits' the office leaving Sami thinking about what he just said.

TBC…Chapter 20

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