Remembrance
chapter 5. Rukia
Hisana, I found her.
How could I not, when she looks just like you.
I heard her voice in the practice fields that day, while on inspection. I almost dropped to my knees from the pain of remembering your voice. I never realize I miss you so much.
You are truly cruel, Hisana.
Every time I see her, I see your shadow in the air.
She is younger than you were, when you told me to step away from the pile of dead leaves.
Her eyes look like you, she thinks a lot, like you did.
She walks awkwardly, the feminine steps stolen by the trainings. Those steps tread on my mind, turning up old tracks you once walked with fluid grace.
You do differ, but that difference starts to grow thin, as she takes on the grace of adulthood. I let her toughen like a shinigami should, watching her forsake the demure smile you once had. Yet I long to see that smile again, alive on a face I can touch.
"Find her, and take her in. Adopt her into the Kuchiki clan, and protect her well"
So that I will see her every day, and you will never be forgotten.
"Be her brother, as I can never be her sister"
So that I would never love again, for the only one that is so much like you, calls me "nii-sama".
You never wished for anything, except this. You know I will do whatever you want me to.
You are so cruel, Hisana, but I miss you, and I would cling on, to even your cruelty.
One moonless night the shidarezakura bloomed. She was there under the flowing branches. Memories drowned me.
She heard my steps and said to no one in particular, "The sakura dance and die, even on a moonless night."
Hisana, were you the one, who gave her those words that I will never escaped from?
"I wonder…"
Hisana, you danced, and I watched. Now I am forever entrapped, so there will be no regret for you.
"Rukia." Hisana.
"Byakuya-nii-sama?" Kuchiki-dono…
"Sorry, I… " Hanami. The shidarezakura blooms tonight.
She stumbles, the slight clumsiness so far from your grace. I turned and walked away. It was a moonless night then, no one saw my smiles. It is a moonless night now, no one sees my tears too.
"It's a cold night, don't stay out too long." I said to the trees. "Hisana."
Hisana. Don't ever let me go.
I can't think of anything more to write about at the moment... So consider this fic closed for the time being. I'll be working on another fic with the same storyline from the perspective of Hisana, so there is possibility I will come back to this one later though. - Thanks everyone for reading.