A/N: I can't stop writing this story now, hence I'm already on the fifth chapter. I already had this chapter written out, but I didn't like the direction the story was taking, so I decided to put the girls through a little more angst first. Enjoy!

Chapter Five – Catherine's POV

Actions are definitely better than words. Her lips are full, soft and demanding. I struggle to gain composure for a moment, but then give into both of our need. I want to explore every part of this incredible woman's body, I want to know all the places that make her gasp. I tangle my hands in her hair and pull her even closer than before, deepening the kiss even more. Her hands find their way under my shirt and caress my stomach. I moan into her mouth and feel her smile against my lips. Eventually we break apart, completely breathless. I wrap my arms around her waist and hold her close to me. She rests her chin on the top of my head and I snuggle even closer to her, soaking up the warmth from her body. Eventually, despite my protests, Sara pulls away. I pout, earning me another one of her smiles. That gap in her teeth is just too cute. She cups my chin and lifts my head slightly so she can look into my eyes.

"Now now Catherine, you can't have it all your own way," She teases me.

I'm really starting to like this side of Sara. She traces my lips with her index finger and I kiss it. She laughs and I grab her hand and lead her into the living room. I make my way over to the couch and she sits down. Before she gets a chance to say anything else, I've straddled her lap and we engage in another kiss. My lips find their way to her neck, and I kiss all the way down to the top of her shirt. I unbutton it and run my fingers across her toned stomach, slowly making my way towards her breasts. She squirms and captures my lips again, her kisses becoming more demanding. I cup her breast and she gasps, then puts her hand underneath my shirt, lightly scratching my back. Before I can react, she's pulled my top over my head then pushed me backwards onto the couch. I push her shirt off her shoulders then pull her on top of me for another kiss. We stay like this for what feels like hours, kissing and exploring each other. Just as I'm considering taking things further, the phone rings. I roll my eyes and sigh.

"Ignore it," Sara suggests, kissing me again. I'm distracted now though, so I get up and answer it. It's my mother. She pulls me into a conversation about Lindsey and by the time I turn round, Sara has put her shirt back on. I know what she's going to say, and I don't like it.

"I should go."

I pout.

"Do you have to?"

"I need some sleep Cath, I'm exhausted. We'll talk tomorrow after shift, ok?"

I nod. She kisses me on the cheek then leaves. I go upstairs to bed, suddenly exhausted. I feel exhilarated and excited about what happened between us, but also lonely now she's gone. It's stupid. Half an hour of making out and I'm acting like a love sick teenager. It was pretty amazing though. I smirk, thinking of the next time we're alone.

Sara's POV

Once I arrive home, I grab a beer from the fridge, and then lie down on the couch. Already I'm confused. And out of my depth. I had feelings for Catherine before, but it was safe then because no one knew about them. Now they're out in the open, and real, and it frightens me how much I already feel for Catherine. Before, my feelings for her were more sexual than anything else.

But I've seen a more vulnerable side of her that I feel drawn to. It makes me want to protect her, stay by her side all the time to make sure no one hurts her. But I can't. I don't want to be in a relationship. I'm not ready for all the pain that comes with it. Catherine is amazing, and if I'm honest with myself, I'd love to be in relationship with her. But it can't happen. It just can't. With love only comes pain. I've had my heart broken before, and I don't want to set myself up for more hurt. I have to end this. Its not that I don't trust Catherine, I just don't trust relationships, and I definitely don't trust love. You're blissfully happy one minute, then something happens and your world shatters before your eyes.

I don't know what I'm going to say to Catherine. I don't want to hurt her. Also I really don't want to end what's barely begun. But I can't fall in love again. Last time was bad enough. In the long run, it'll be better for me and Catherine. It'll save us a lot of pain. How could I have even considered a relationship with her? She needs someone strong and reliable, two things I'm not. I feel terrible. I should never have let this happen.

She deserves better than this.

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