by PsychodelicS (Ruby)
His head felt like exploding. It was like every little sound put pressure on his head.
What if I lost her? What if I don't get a second chance? He brought his hands to his head and yelled – hoping to drive the pain away. But it stayed. He knew it wouldn't go away, untill the pain in his heart stopped too.
The last thing Sawyer could remember, was darkness, followed by light and a sharp pain in the back of his head. He tried to open his eyes, but somehow things remained dark.
"So you decided to join us again?" he heared someone say. Zeke. Or Tom, as that woman called him. He knew it was him. He remembered his voice. He remembered the vibe he got when he was around him. He reminded him of someone, but he couldn't quit put his finger to it.
"Where is she!" Sawyer tried to scream. He realised all they heared was murmering.
Suddenly there was light again, and he repeated. "Where is she!".
"Oh Kate? She's fine. So is our good ol' doctor." he replied.
"You didn't answer my question" Sawyer said – hate in his eyes. "Where is she."
"She's around" Tom said, reaching to Sawyer to put the sack – which he apparently had over his head befor – back on.
In a fraction of a second, Sawyer reacted and moved forward. He bit Tom in his hand.
Tom yelled, took a step back and took a gun.
Next thing, he shot Sawyer, with the same gun the others had used to capture them befor. Sawyer started moving uncontrolable, then couldn't move at all. He heared voices around him – faint, like an echo. Next thing he knew he got lifted up and thrown into some kind of hole. His back hit the floor, which was hard and cold, and for a moment it felt like every bone in his body was broken. Then everything got black again.
He looked at the sand. He knew it was still warm from the sun, even though it had set about an hour ago. Why did it feel cold?
He looked around to see if she was around. She wasn't. So he started walking into the jungle.
Finally he found her – the waterfall. "Kate.." he said.
Kate turned around, as if she was interrupted by his voice.
"What are you doing here Sawyer?" she asked.
"Look Kate. Just listen to me ok." he said.
She looked at him – not saying a word – looking frustrated, frightened of what Sawyer wanted to say.
"I don't know why I did it. I can't say I'm sorry. And even if I did say it – what difference would it make, right." he continiued.
"It would –"
Sawyer interrupted her – again. "Kate."
She looked down, pushed her tongue against the side of her teeth, to keep her from continuing.
"Nomather what I say – It happened. There's nothing I can do to turn it back. It happened, and I let it happen. So if you want to be mad at me, that's fine." he said.
He looked at her for a moment, doubted, and continiued. "You know what? It's not fine. I know I betrayed your trust Kate – but for all I know you and the doc did get friendly in that net back then. For all I know – "
"My heart was with you Sawyer. It was there the whole time. I care for Jack. But I love you. You even had me thinking for a while that you felt the same way, but then you go around pulling a stunt like this. Guess I was wrong after all."
She stood up, looked at him – angry, and walked away.
"I love you too." Sawyer whispered. If only I could say that to you.