Kate wasn't the only one who couldn't get to sleep that night. She didn't know that yet.
Nightmares, guilt and anger were the words that could best describe the last eight hours for Sawyer. He had never thought he could feel that way. Sawyer had done so many bad things in his life that he had learned not to feel sorry for anybody. Or at least he couldn't say those words. From his point of view they were useless.
And he was right. Would it hurt less? Could those words change anything? Were we allowed to think that we deserved forgiveness only because we had said "I am sorry! " Negative.
He wanted to talk to her, wanted to say something, anything. Sawyer knew what she would tell him. At that moment he could see himself through her eyes. He could feel all the pain inside her heart.
Sawyer was trying to find an excuse. He couldn't say that he wasn't responsible because he was. Sawyer could imagine the whole conversation. No answers for No questions asked. It would be that.
He wished he had said something. But he hadn't. Although he had passed Kate's words over in silence, Sawyer actually wanted to say that he loved her.
So many things were left unspoken because he didn't want to hurt her anymore. He didn't want to make the same mistake again. Sawyer wanted to tell Kate that he couldn't live without her but he wasn't strong enough to admit that.
If only he could turn back Time…there was no use. He couldn't change anything.
On the other hand Kate wasn't even his girlfriend. A friend - yes but still not a girlfriend. After he couldn't find an appropriate excuse he tried to wash his hands.
Sawyer had never asked Kate about Jack. He repeated that name.
Jack…that guy…he and his need always to be honest…
Sawyer failed to recognize the enemy within. Or was that on purpose?
Sawyer was angry. Most of all because he knew that jack would take advantage of the situation.
Time had stopped for Sawyer. He realized that he could only blame himself.
He just wanted to know the answer of one question: 'Does she still love me?"
He decided to fall away from Kate for a while. The reason- he was only making one step forward and two steps back.
When you really love something you should let it go. If it comes back you can keep it forever. If it doesn't come back - it has never been yours.
Was Sawyer ready to do that? Was Kate able to swallow her pride?
No answers for No questions asked.