By Iselin
The hardest way to miss someone is standing right beside them and knowing it can never be.
Sawyer had heard that quote sometime in his past. He couldn't recall who said it or where he had heard it. But somehow the words came to him from the back of his mind as he tried to focus on the book he was reading. He had been reading the same three lines now for ten minutes.
Maybe it was something from a movie he'd seen? One of those sappy love movies?
He tried focusing on the book again. The words still didn't stick with him.
What difference does it make anyway?
He gave up, throwing the book to his side cursing out loud.
"Ouch!" he heard someone to his left say and turned around to realize he'd thrown the book right at hurley who was coming towards him.
"Dude... Whatever you're mad about... I promise it's not the books fault. Or mine." he said as he sat down beside Sawyer in the sand.
"Oh yeah Hoss? And how can you be so sure about that?" Sawyer said and couldn't help but feeling like his words came out more sad than angry. And it pissed him off.
"Cause I'm really super smart..." Hurley tried, "...and cause I saw Kate crying in the jungle an hour ago.
Sawyer felt like someone had twisted the knife in his heart. He felt like punching something. Or someone he thought and resisted the urge, deciding to himself that getting into a fight with Mutton Chop maybe wasn't the best idea. Besides... Hurley wasn't the bad guy here.
"And you think that has something to do with me?"
"Dude... You're not fooling anyone." Hurley said in a matter-of-factly way.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Sawyer said, more interested than he had thought he would be.
"You've fallen for that girl dude. You've fallen big time. So what I don't get is why she's alone in the jungle while you're here being mad at a novel in stead of being with the girl you love. If you love each other isn't that where you two should be? Together?"
Sawyer didn't answer him. Damn him, Sawyer thought. Coming here thinking he knows everything.
He stared out into the ocean. Hurley did the same.
"Maybe sometimes... Being together brings only pain. Maybe being alone is better in the long run." Sawyer said silently.
Hurley got up and reached out the book for Sawyer to take it back. Sawyer took it.
"Whatever you say dude. I just got the feeling that maybe neither one of you was really happy right now. But maybe it's just me?" Hurley said smiling a little to Sawyer and turned to walk away.
"Hey!" Sawyer yelled after him.
"Yeah?"
"Where... Where did you see her?"
Hurley pointed to one of the less used paths into the jungle.
"Thanx..." Sawyer said as Hurley once again turned to walk away.
Sawyer looked at his book. Unsure on what to do next. Continuing reading the same lines over and over again, never getting anywhere? Or going after her? Putting his heart out there to be broken again.
Was it his heart he was afraid of breaking? Or hers?