Thinking ahead

Part three: What left

Authoress' notes: For you to know why: this fic had to have been the oppositum to the fics like 'I will die for you! I'm your hero!', because during reading 'Somewhere to belong' I realized exactly what Shikamaru and there Iruka said: 'Life is more painful then death.' Thank you all.

Disclaimer: Yeah, I don't own Shikamaru, cuz he is forever possessed by Temari. And I don't own Temari, cuz she is dead already in this fic.

One month later

Shikamaru laid there, on the meadow near Konoha, watching clouds and thinking. Thinking about what had happened and what have left him.

Was it even worth it? I'm a coward... To think that I will become a hero because I thought that is more painful... Baka. I didn't have to let her die. Her brothers nearly killed me, although I haven't said them the whole truth... and I won't tell them...

How troublesome. I let her die, thinking that I'm the one who's right... But not she have chosen the easier path... I was afraid of death. She wasn't. She is a hero.

I told her she is a crybaby... But it's not her, who now lies in grass crying... She cried only when she had a good reason... I have ever been the one, who you can call 'crybaby'. Never she. She was strong.

And finally, it was her, who had a family! Dammit! Now I haven't anyone, anyone... She would have her brothers or other girls to offer her a shoulder to cry on... And she would pick up the pieces of her maybe shattered heart and end up as strong as she had ever been. Maybe she would have even found a new boyfriend for herself... And have a new family, her own family... And again; I am the one who scattered all these dreams of happiness... Only because she was strong while I was weak back then...

„NOOO! I didn't want it to end up this way, Temari... Please, forgive me..." he sobbed as he sat up. „K'so! K'SOOO!"

And you know, there wasn't anyone to help him... to calm him down... to wipe away his tears... And why? Because he thought that he is going to be able to stand through all this suffering... this regret... this insecurity... And again: why? Because he was right after all. He knew it, yet he can't believe it now. Life definitely was the hardest way to go. But if he would have to, he would have decided the same way again. His girlfriend didn't deserve all that sorrow. He neither though, but she have to be thankful for a good boy she had found. After all, he was a gentleman like this. Like 'don't ever make your Love suffer'.

The End

Authoress' notes II.: I'm sorry for it to be so short, but you maybe don't mind... Perhaps you're all like: 'Oh dude, here's finally the end! Hurray!' But I hope you're not... oh, my freakin' complexes...

Btw: My sister is still mockin' me for my ill throat. I don't deserve that.

And at last - chapters. First is named as 'Temari', 'cause Temari is the one who is 'Thinking ahead'. Second is named 'Shikamaru' then and the last - I bet you do understand.

Please leave me your review. Love you,

Sheltie

P. S.: Thanks for at least 3 reviews... --
P. S. II.: And you know what? My critical sis said it is very good, so I don't mind anymore though I feel insulted by you...
P. S. III.: I still love you! Bye for now!