Disclaimer: Don't own Degrassi, whatever. Sean is hot, yeah, yeah yeah. Can't tell you what you already know.

Chapter 6

The rest of the summer went by pretty uneventful. My Father decided he was getting his life together. Without my Mother, who was wallowing in self-pity. And gallon jugs of vodka.

Em still wasn't speaking to me, and El was still mad too, so Jen and I got even closer as I grew more and more attached to smoking her weed. Sometimes I'd go to her house, but mostly she'd come to mine and we'd spend hours locked in my room, watching TV, listening to CDs, talking, and of course, getting high. My nightmares seemed to subside after I started smoking, making me want to keep doing it. Even though I knew in the back of my mind that it wasn't a real answer to my problems. Fuck it. It wasn't like I was stupid enough to get involved in any real hard stuff, and I definitely wasn't going to be an alcoholic.

Soon it came time for Steve to leave for University. Class hadn't started yet, but he needed to get settled in his dorm. So he was throwing this insanely huge, kick ass party at his parents' beach house. We, his crew, wouldbe there, as well as most of his classmates.

I had no plans on coming home that night. And hell, it's not like my Mom would notice. My Dad was the one who attempted to care about child rearing these days, and he had been on night shift all week. I packed a duffle bag, and waited for Steve to pick me up in his parent's car.

He showed up late, of course, right before I was about to light my blunt (a/n-Yeah. Sean has graduated to blunts cause saying "joint" over and over seemed so...old school.).

"Sup Cameron?" "You're late." I teased, grinning at my buddy. "What else is new?"

He said back and I shook my head. "So, what's up tonight?" "Oh, man. It's gonna be great.

Open bar. Chicks dancing, spaced out on E. Plenty of hot tub action." "I guess you and Jen..."

"Me and Jen are over now. She knows I can't promise things will be the same once I get to school. Besides man, it's college. No sane, red-blooded male enters University with a clingy, high school girlfriend. That's a recipe for disaster." I got quiet. That meant Jen would be heartbroken. If she even showed at all.

As soon as we turned into the drive that led to the house, I could see how huge it was.

Stephen showed me to the room I was crashing in. It was the first room I've ever stayed in with it's own bathroom. The walls were painted ocean blue, with cherry oak wood furniture and queen sized poster bed with dark blue sheets and comforter. This house was the type of place you'd never want to leave.

I went back downstairs and found Steve in the kitchen. "Dude, I thought you said your parents were normal." "They are. This is my Grandparents' place. Nana and Pawpaw pay for everything here, and come to stay in the summer. They live in the states. Pawpaw is a doctor, and Nana was his nurse. She's a doctor now too though. They're the ones sending me to university." He explained. "They aren't here now are they?" "No. They're gone home." "Oh, cool." "Yeah, expecially since I have free run of the place." "Then can I spark this up inside?"

I held up the blunt I had tucked in my pocket earlier. "Hell yeah! And here's a chaser!" He tossed me a beer.

A few beers later, Bryce, Jen and Nessa all arrived together. Steve and I were watching 'sportscenter'. "Hey guys!" Nessa yelled. "Hey." "Welcome to PARTY CENTRAL!"

Steve said giving Bryce a high five. "WooooooHooooo!" I laughed along with them, but saw the look on Jen's face. She excused herself and went out back by the pool. I waited a few minutes before I went after her. I walked outside and was amazed. The backyard was huge, with a rectangular shaped pool and a jacuzzi with a, what do you call it? Canopy? No. Gazebo?

I dunno. But it covered the jacuzzi and had chairs on the inside. Then, there was a fence with a private gate, leading to the beach behind it.

That's where I found Jen. I could smell the herb before I found her. The smoke snaked in and around my nose. I sat down beside her. "Getting high won't solve your problems." "Oh yeah? You're a fine one to talk." She passed the blunt to me. I took a few tokes. "I guess he told you." "About you two breaking up? Yeah." "I'm trying not to get all emo and shit." "Yeah," I took another puff. "Plenty of fish and all that bullshit." I said, passing the weed back to her. I felt her watching me. You know how you just get that feeling? I shouldn't have turned to look at her cause I knew what was coming. As soon as I turned, she kissed me. All of a sudden, I didn't know what I was doing. Maybe I was just horny, but I kissed back. She ran one hand through my hair while still holding the blunt with the other.

The kiss was one full of passion and hunger cause Ispent my whole summer alone. I was pent up. Too pent up to feel guilty about making out with my friend's ex-girl, my smoking partner, and wanting to lean her back onto the sand, lift up her skirt...

'What are you thinking? Get off her!' I screamed in my head. But she was so sweet. Sweet and vulnerable, like Emma, with a mysterious and dangerous side like Ellie. She was also at this very moment, reaching inside the zipper on my pants, and I jumped back. "Jen. No."

She looked hurt. Then she looked angry. Then hurt again. "Why Sean? Is it me? What did I do?" "No. Nothing. it's just..." I trailed off. Thank God I heard Steve calling me. "Later ok?"

She nodded. I kissed her forehead and jumped up to head back into the house.

A/N- Okay, Please review! I want to say thanks to Semma4life for the ideas, and you may be pleasantly surprised a little later. I haven't finished writing this yet, so I can change whatever I want, whenever. Everyone please continue to send me ideas, I really enjoy reading them. Thanks!

Kris