Saviour
Chapter Two
Demons
Slits of light filled her eyes as she slowly opened them, still dazed by the anaesthetic. She was immense pain both physically and emotionally and to make it worse Gina was sat beside her. As she rolled her head to the side both of them said nothing instead she looked Gina in the eyes and started to cry silent tears. Embarrassed by what she was doing she closed her eyes and faced the other way. As she pulled her hand up to her face she saw the bandage wound round her hand, seeing what she had done to herself dug deep into the pit of her stomach and those silent tears turned into a sea.
"I'll leave you alone" Gina said, tapping Kerry gently on the leg to notify her that she was going.
Kerry's eyes followed her out of the room and once out of the door her gaze fell onto her wrists. Rotating one hand round slowly she carefully undone her bandage; underneath lay a deep wound still bleeding but stitched up. Again she repeated the pattern with the other hand carefully unravelling the bandage avoiding the stitches.
Just then a nurse came in to check her condition, seeing what Kerry had done she fussed around her re-bandaging her hand. She appeared annoyed towards Kerry, which only made her feel worse.
"Your wounds need time to heel, they won't recover if you keep taking the bandages off," She said while writing down on the obs sheet.
Seeing Kerry's face the nurse softened her tone and looked down at Kerry in order to get her attention.
"A midwife will be down soon" She said to her with a wan smile.
Looking confused Kerry asked the one question that sprang to mind,
"Why do I need a midwife, I'm not pregnant".
"Your blood and bodily fluid results have come back and they show that you are. But don't worry I'm sure the baby is ok. Is there anybody you would like me to contact? Boyfriend, Husband?" She asked.
"No" she replied bluntly.
She didn't have a boyfriend, not since Cameron anyway. Her love life was completely doomed since Gabriel stepped foot in her life and now it appeared that because of him the rest of her life was doomed as well. She just wanted a cuddle and to be shown some love, everybody needs to be shown some love throughout his or her life.
The midwife walked into the room while dragging an ultrasound machine in behind her. While setting it up she made small talk to Kerry. She could sense that everyone was dodging the issue of Kerry committing suicide and it annoyed her, why does everyone bury their head in the sand. It was clear that she wasn't going to get the help she needed if the root of the matter wasn't dug up.
The gel hit her stomach and she flinched at its coldness, this felt so weird she thought as she looked at the screen. She couldn't work out what the screen was showing but that suited her, as she had no reason to get emotionally attached to it. She could hear the midwife babbling on about its arms and heart but there was only one thing she was prepared to talk about regarding the 'foetus'.
"And when can I have the foetus aborted?" She asked, without showing any emotion towards the life that was growing inside her womb.
"Having an abortion is a big deal, you need to think it through before you make a decision" the midwife stressed.
"I've made my decision thank you, so if you don't help me get an abortion ill find my own way." Kerry protested.
"I'm going to give you some time to think about it because I think you need to get used to everything." The midwife replied back as she packed away.
As soon as she left the room Kerry looked down at her stomach, remembering the pain and suffering Gabriel had brought to her life she curled her fingers in to make a fist and started hitting her abdomen randomly with all off the strength she could muster.
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Two chapters in one day!! You can tell I've done no coursework today oh well! Enjoy
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