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Chapter 5 - Reunion
Kwest had his arm around my shoulder, I'm guessing he was trying to comfort me. For some part it was helping..until Tommy's eyes met mine.
"Tom." Kwest finally spoke, breaking all of us from the awkward silence that had seemed to consume the room when Kwest and I approached. Tommy smiled and held out his hand for Kwest to take.
"It's good to see you man." Tommy said. He sounded pretty sincere.
I couldn't say anything..after seeing his eyes..being in his presence after almost a year. I just stared down at my shoes and waited for Darius to tell me to go somewhere and do something. Just my luck..Darius did no such thing.
"Kwest, Jude, This is Destany..my fiance." His tone dropped on fiance and I could have sworn I heard his voice quiver. When I looked up I saw the girl smiling at me. Jeez..I want to hate her, how can I hate her with her smiling at me like that? She had blue eyes and long brown hair. She looked like a model..perfect figure..Ugh, this was making me sick.
"Hi Destany." I say, smiling. I couldn't help it. She was just too nice not to like.
"I've heard alot about you, Jude." She said, holding out her hand. Ha! Quincy actually said something about me? Wow.
"Oh yeah? Wish I could say the same about you." Okay I didn't mean for that to come out so harshly, but I take her hand and continue to smile. I could see Tommy nodding. Ha, he knew that comment was meant for him. Good.
Destany smiled sadly as if she understood what I was talking about.
"I heard your birthday was tomorrow? eighteen right? Congrats." She says after a while..after the room went silent again. She must have felt as uncomfortable as me.
"Yeah..thanks." I say.
Finally Lord Darius decides to say something.
"Well Jude..Portia is in her office. Go run things with her about tomorrow." He says, motioning towards Portia's office. He couldn't have said that like ten minutes ago? Wonderful timing D.
"Gladly." I bite out. Yeah the chick probably hates me, but whatever. And the nerve of Quincy. He said nothing to me. Oh excuse me, he introduced me to the fiance. He said one thing.
Once I reached Portia's office my mind was already going in circles and Portia must have noticed the aggravated expression on my face. Was it really that obvious?
"So ya saw Tom, huh?" Portia asks, smiling.
"What makes you think that?" I say, sitting across from her and crossing my arms.
"Come on Jude, you might be able to lie to Kwest, maybe even Darius, but I know you." She said. Dang it..
"Yeah..I saw Tommy." I say, bitterly.
"Still the same Tom." She says, knowingly. I smile weakly and nod my head. She understands..I know she understands..she was married to the man for christs sake
"It's just so.."
"Hard to hate him?" Portia offered. I raised my brow and nodded. Yep, she knew how I felt.
"Well, about the brithday arrangements." And after that we worked on how everything would go tomorrow.
My mind was only partially with Portia. I couldn't help but think of Tommy and his fiance. Tommy just got back. Just got back and I already can't get my mind off of him. Ugh. He hadn't changed..still was the cutest thing I've ever layed eyes on. Still had the sweetest voice and still had my heart. Heart? No Jude..he doesn't. He is taken. Taken!
After I confirmed everything with Portia and we came to an agreement on everything..I had to face everyone again. I opened the door to exit Portia's office and my eyes immediately scoped the lobby. I didn't see anyone in there except Sadie at the front desk. Okay..maybe I didn't have to face them yet.
"Hey Sadie." I say, walking by her desk.
"Shes pretty." Sadie says as if reading my mind. Sometimes I wish we weren't sisters.
"Yeah. She is." I agree.
"Alright..I'm gonna be in the studio..I'll talk to you later," I say, walking into the studio and grabbing my guitar. After seeing all of the crap I had to see..I needed to get my emotions out. Last night I didn't only write one song..I actually wrote another. Well, I worked on another that I started when Tommy first left. Now it was time to test it..I don't want anyone to hear it though..
I started to strum lightly with my eyes closed, remembering the first time we kissed..my sixteenth birthday.
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights
When I held you beside me..
Unbreak my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Uncry these tears
I cried so many nights
Unbreak my heart, my heart.
Now was the most intense part..the most heartbreaking part..our goodbye. His goodbye.
Take back that sad word goodbye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel
Without you here beside me.
Unbreak my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Uncry these tears
I cried so many nights
Unbreak my heart, my heart
And thats when I was brought from my tearful singing. I heard a grunt which startled me so I quickly looked up and spotted him in the door way. Good going Jude..
"Jude, can we talk?" He asks. Here it comes..he's going to try to make everything between us okay again..maybe. Or maybe he's going to lecture me about the song. It don't take a genius to figure out that that song is about him.
"Sure. Talk." I say, placing my guitar next to me, but holding a strong grip on the neck. He nods and closes the door behind him. Ooo, we need privacy? Must be important! Heh, yeah..right.
Now somehow in the last few minutes I made it across the room and I'm leaning against the studio door, just incase I need to make a quick exit. Tommy's standing across from me and I can feel his burning gaze on me. No, I'm not looking up at him..I've actually found a very interesting spot on the floor. Okay okay..I just can't handle looking at him. I'll fall for whatever he has to say and I don't want things to go that way. Not this time.
"Jude..you look good." He says. What? What is that? After all of the crap he put me through and the best thing he can come up with to say is I look good?
"Tommy you wanted to talk. I know you didn't come in here to talk about how good I look." I say. Now I'm looking at him and watching him nod. He doesn't say anything for a long time..he just sits there and stares at me. I know I'm not that fascinating so he must be thinking.
"I'm sorry." He finally says. I could hear the sincerity but..I can't accept that that easily.
"About what?" I'm trying to play it cool now..heh. A girl needs a little composure, you know?
He smiles weakly at me and nods, biting his lip. Oh god..that is hot..why does he have to do those kind of things?
"I can't say I know how you feel and I can't take back anything I've ever done to you, Girl. I never intended to hurt you." He said. Why does he have to be so..sincere?
"Why'd you do it Tommy?" Dang it! That slipped! So much for staying strong. Might as well let it all out now..
"You asked me out on a date. A date. Then you leave me?" The tears were swelling in my eyes but I wouldn't allow them to come. Not in front of him.
"You just left..no explanations. No reasons. Why Tommy? That's all I want to know." I say. He's finally broken eye contact with me. I think I finally got through to him. He's brushing his hand through his hair and I can tell he's trying to think of what to say.
"I couldn't stay." He says. Oh god..that is so not an explanation.
"Why? Was I that repulsive? You were my producer Tommy. You left me with nothing. I couldn't sing. I couldn't write. I was nothing." I can't help it..I have to get it all out. Make him realize the hell he has put me through.
"I know, and I'm sorry." He says again. Once again..nothing. No explanations. Okay well if he's not gonna tell me then I don't want to hear it!
"She's pretty." I say, sniffling back my tears. I hadn't shed one yet. Surprising.
"Don't." He says, looking up at me. Don't? Don't what? She is pretty..
"Never knew you went for models." I must have pushed him over the edge then..he narrowed his eyes and stepped closer to me. Now he's just staring at me..
"Congratulations by the way." I say, grabbing his hand and running my fingers over his ring finger.
"Jude.." He says, tensing under my touch.
"Welcome to hell, Quincy." And with that I drop his hand and walk out of the studio, leaving him shocked and confused.
A/N - So? What did ya think? And once again, I do not own the song.."Unbreak my heart" It's by Toni Braxton..but I thought it fit SO well, think so? Please review you guys! and thanks for the reviews so far!