A/N - Thanks so much for the reviews you guys! I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday, wordpad wasn't working again. So this time I can't thank y'all individually because I'm afraid if I open another window my computer will go nuts..it's surprising it even let me get this far. But once again thanks so much, you have no idea what your reviews mean to me:) Hope you enjoy the chapter.
Disclaimer - I do not own Instant Star..I do own this song.
Chapter 7 - Living on this memory
Eight O'clock came way too soon. I am wearing my dress and my hair is down, straightened, though. No waves..It looks kind of nice. They put just a dab of lip gloss on me and I have white eyeshadow. Black eyeliner..and I have to admit..these people work miracles.
"Jude.." Portia gasped, playing with the back of my hair.
"Yeah?" I gasp back. I actually like how I look.. This is crazy.
"You look amazing." She said, smiling down at me.
"Thanks." I say, smiling back. She was wearing a long red dress that fit her snug, but it looked good.
"You ready to get this over with?" She asks, opening the door of her office. Yes, this party is at G-major again..Darius fixed it up nice though. And I mean really nice..he really is a big spender. Only Portia has seen me so far.
I nod and follow, not being able to hide my incredibly huge smile.
She's the one who escorted me down the steps.
"You start off with the song." She whispers to me as we reach the last steps. I could barely hear her over the loud music that was already blaring-Songs from my new album. There are more people here than I even know..
"Okay." I breathe out, picking up my guitar and smiling at Kat, Jamie, Mason, and Speid, who were all crowded in the front watching me.
The music started to quiet a bit and a mic was already set up in front of me.
"Hey everyone," I say. Wow..sure are alot of people here tonight. No shay..good sign.
"Thanks for coming." There's Tommy..bad sign. I swallow hard and regain focus on everyone else.
"This is a song that will be on my senior album..It's called reality." I say. Yes, I am still with G-major. Darius had me sign a new contract a few months back.
Everyone starts to quiet even more and I take a few deep breaths before closing my eyes and I start strumming on the guitar.
"My heart bleeds the misery
Of which is never ending
You're just a lost puzzle peice
Or a hook to another song
And I'm just the girl..you love to lead on
No reason to pretend
We knew from the beginning
There's nothing left to say
No explanation of the way you left me
You and I were never meant to be
Two worlds collided in misery
Finally breaking from this fantasy
This is our reality
Living on this memory
clinging to my sanity
You're just so lost to me
And unwilling to find your way
You and I were never meant to be
Two wolds collided in misery
Finally breaking from this fantasy
This is our reality
I finally open my eyes and automatically find Tommy glaring at me. His fiance was standing next to him like a prize..I feel so wrong. He's happy. She's happy. I don't want to stand in the way of that..if he loves her then I am all for it. Does she know how lucky she is?
My eyes begin to water and I take a few deep breaths before closing my eyes again and finishing the song..
This is our reality
I step from my pride
You know I can't deny..
I'll never forget that you and I
We had our chance..
We don't belong..
It's Just another song..
Another bro-ken heart
And I hate you.."
I stop strumming the guitar and my hands rest on the smooth edge of it. Finally opening my eyes I see everyone looking at me. Most were clapping, but some..Tommy being one, were just staring at me. I don't know how to describe the looks on their faces. The only word that comes to mind is 'shocked'.
I smile and wave at everyone while placing my guitar in it's original position and then I hop off the little stage-thing Darius had at the bottom of the staircase.
"Jude," Someone's hand was on my shoulder and I couldn't tell by the voice who it was because the music was turned back on. So I turned and met eyes with my dad.
"Honey, that was beautiful." He said..he even had tears in his eyes. Oh jeez.. here we go.
"Thanks dad." I smile as he hugs me.
"My little girl is finally eighteen. I'm so proud of you, Jude." He says, now looking me straight in the eyes.
"Thanks dad." I repeat. He nods and pushes me towards my friends. I sigh in relief, not wanting him to get all emotional on me. And then I feel another hand on my shoulder, thinking it was him I spun around with a smile.
"Dad, come o-.." It wasn't my dad.
"Is this really how you want it to be Jude?" Tommy looked so angry. I've never seen him this angry..not even the time I screwed up at the event where I had to sing 'Stupid girl' yet instead I sang 'My sweet time' Nope this is alot worse.
"Because I have news for you. I'm back with G-major and I'm not leaving." He spit.
I couldn't say anything. I feel so bad..I said I hated him. He knew it was about him. Why should he care anyway? he's the one who left me. I shouldn't feel guilty. He should be the guilty feeling one.
"Well I have news for you Tommy. You and barbie can stay where ever you want. Do whatever you want, I don't care anymore." I say, crossing my arms over my chest.
"My god Jude, you just had to bring up Destany. She didn't do anything, don't bring her into this." He said with equal frustration. He's right she didn't do anything..
"That's it, isn't it? You're jealous." He says. Me? Jealous? I'm not jealous!
"You're so full of yourself Quincy. I've said it before and I'll say it again- Not everything is about you." I say scoffing and walking away from him.
The nerve of that guy..his ego is bigger than his freakin head..
"That didn't sound too good," Mason commented, looking over at Tommy.
"It's fine. No big deal." I insist.
"That song was deep." Jamie said, looking at me concerned.
"It's fine Jamie, don't worry about it." I smile, trying to lighten the mood.
"So birthday girl, you look hot," Speid says, looking me over. I just smile and roll my eyes, pushing his shoulder.
"Thanks." And then I spot Kwest over by Darius so I walked over to them and took Kwest in a huge comfy hug.
"Thank you." I say, breaking away from him. He's like my support group...except it's just him.
"No need to thank me. You did this on your own." He says. I shake my head and turn to Darius.
"What did you think about the song?" I ask, hopefully.
"Definitely going on the next album..and we need to talk about Tom and his services at G-major. But right now I want you to enjoy your birthday." He says, patting my shoulder and then walking off. I don't know what he means by that and I'm not sure I want to know..
"You did great, Jude." Kwest says, smiling down at me.
Just then Tommy comes up to Darius with Destany at his side. Ah..so she did come. They were both soaking wet and their hair was matted to their faces. Ha..she didn't look so pretty wet.
He was whispering something in Darius' ear and I could tell by Darius' expression that whatever he was saying wasn't something good.
"What do you think he's saying?" I ask Kwest, keeping my eyes on Darius and Tommy.
"Who knows?" He says.
After a few minutes Darius and Tommy walked off into another room. Um, whats going on? Oh well..can't be that important.
"Thanks so much." I say once again before leaving Kwest with a now approaching Sadie. I walked back over to my friends and Speid and I started a very interesting conversation about gummy bears and which flavor tastes the best..it quickly turned into a humorous argument. In other words..we had Jamie, Kat, and Mason cracking up. But it wasn't before long that Tommy and Darius reapeared. Darius had a mic and started hushing people.
"Everyone, It was just on the news that theres a hurricane hitting Toronto. Why we are just finding this out? I don't know and I'm pissed about it. Tom checked outside earlier and said it wasn't driving condition. It looks like everyone is going to have to stay here tonight unless you want to take the chance..I advise you stay." He says, receiving everyones attention and almost everyone was outraged.
A hurricane? On my birthday? Why me? How come we didn't know about this? I mean I knew it was going to storm..but no one said anything about a hurricane.
"Looks like we're stuck here." Kat says, half-smiling.
"Wonderful." Mason sarcastically states.
"You know what that means?" Kat asks me.
"What?" I ask, confused.
"Tommy's staying." She says, trying not to smile. Why would she smile? About something like that? That was horrible..I might end up killing him and I really don't want to be sent to prison any time soon.
"Why me?" I groan, looking up and then looking around the room and finding Tommy on the other side with Destany. He had his arm around her and I couldn't help but wince at the sight.
Kwest then announced that they had to turn the music and some of the lights off because of the lightning going on outside. Well..this was going to be fun..
A/N - Ok I just want to say first off that most of you probably have read the story "The blackout"..and if you haven't then you should because it's awesome. But anyway, for those of you who have, I am NOT stealing that idea. This is going to be nothing like that..I just wanted you to know that. Thanks again for the reviews and please review this chappy:)