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Chapter 9 - Pop star wannabe
"Tommy has a younger brother?" I ask, breathlessly. No way..how come I didn't know that? Maybe because I never asked..yeah that might be why.
"Actually, he has two brothers. One older, one younger." Sadie interrupted, drawing everyones attention.
"What? you are looking at a former Boyz Attacker." Sadie defended. I just shook my head and looked back at the boy.
"God, I haven't seen Ace since he was..what..fourteen?" Kwest says. We're both still eyeing this boy. He resembles Tommy so much..except he has more of a bad boy look to him. Ha, hard to imagine, isn't it? More than Tommy. But man was he cute..
"Ace?" I ask. Weird name.
"Nick name. His name is Jason." He says.
"Are we going to continue the game?" Patsy asks, impatiently. I turn back to her and shrug.
"Kwest, dude, It's your turn." Kyle reminds and then the rest of them started the game back..me on the other hand, I keep my eyes glued to the sight below me.
-No one's Pov -
Jason stood in the middle of the lobby with his hair matted to his face. He was dripping wet and he was breathing hard from the rain and wind that went on outside.
"I told you to wait at the hotel." Tommy barked, walking up to his younger brother and looking down at him as if trying to intimidate him.
"I was sight seeing and I got lost. So sorry." Jason stated, sarcastically. Tommy gave him a look and Jason rolled his eyes.
"Look, I've been walking for the past hour..I'm not walking back. In case you haven't noticed theres some pretty strong winds out there and I almost had to swim over here." Ace says, receiving a sigh from Tommy.
"What is this anyway?" He continues, looking around at the streamers and banners.
"A party?" He says, hopefulness in his voice.
"Yeah, and you weren't invited." Tommy said, coldly.
"Look 'Lil' Tommy Q'.." Jason started, coming closer to Tommy.
"Jason." A deep voice erupted from behind Tommy.
"Long time no see." Darius said, doing a little hand shake thing with Jason.
"Good to see ya, man." Jason said in response, his tone becoming more friendly.
Jude's Pov -
Oh man..he even talks like Tommy.
"I dare you to kiss Jamie." Sadie said. Who was she talking to? I turn my head to see whats going on.
"Um, he's going out with Patsy you know." Kat says, biting her lip.
"It's just a kiss." Sadie mocked. Kat glared at her and then looked at Jamie.
"Jamie?"
"Just kiss her," Patsy said, looking at Sadie with a 'Just wait' look. Oh boy..that didn't look good.
Jamie did as instructed and the kiss quickly intensified. Ha! I knew they still liked eachother! I think Jamie is scared to break up with Patsy..I mean..I would be too.
"Okay enough liplocking Andrews." Pastsy said, pulling Jamie away by his shoulder.
Haha..Patsy does get jealous. Jamie let go of Kat and looked down at his hands without meeting eye contact with his girlfriend. That didn't look good..and Patsy definitely didn't look happy.
"Whoa, okay..Kat, it's your turn." Speid said. God..that boy is such an instagator.
"Um..I think I've had enough." Kat timidly responded, getting up.
"Aww come on." Speid said, frowning. Kat ignored his plea and walked off..so I decided to follow.
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I found her walking down the steps on her way to the lobby.
"Kat." I say, stopping her. She looks up at me with tears in her eyes.
"Hey, are you okay?" I wish her and Jamie would just work out thier problems and get together already.
"Yeah..yeah I'm fine. I just don't want to play anymore." She says. That was so not convincing.
"Alright then we wont play." I say, smiling at her reassuringly. She smiles and nods.
"Good..'cause I'm starving." She says and we both laugh, walking down the rest of the steps and heading over to where the adults were. I immediately spotted Jason, Tommy, and Barbie together. Ugh.
"What do you want?" Kat says, grabbing two plates off of the table and handing me one. What did I want? haha..good question.
"Actually..I'm not that hungry. You go ahead." I say and she gives me a weird look.
"Really..go on." I assure and she finally continues to fill up her plate.
Now I see Mason coming over.
"Hey..is that really Tommy's brother?" He asks.
"That's what Kwest said." I shrug and we both look over at Jason who is surprisingly looking at me. Oh my god..he's looking at me! Whoa..No..Chill Jude. He's related to Tommy..Tommy equals trouble. Trouble equals Jason.
"He's cute." Mason whispers in my ear and I can't help but laugh. He cracks me up. Oh my..What's he doing? He's coming over..No..Stay..
"You Jude?" He asks, finally reaching me. Uh, what kind of question is that?
"Yeah..who are you?" I ask, acting clueless. He doesn't say anything though, just stands there staring at me. Why is he looking at me like that?
"So you're Jude Harrison? The one my brother is producing?" He asks, almost laughing. He sounded disgusted and amused at the same time. What's his deal?
"Was producing." I correct in the same tone he used with me.
"Same difference. I can't believe he wasted his time on someone like you."
"Someone like me?" I ask, breathlessly. Okay..I'm starting not to like this kid.
"Yeah. Some untalented popstar wannabe." He says. And he's using that tone..you know that tone that makes you feel stupid, small, and defenseless? Yeah, that one.
"Popstar wannabe?" I ask, my voice rising a bit. And I didn't care at the moment.
"Look..I think you should leave her alone." Mason stepped in. Jason laughed and hit Mason's cowboy hat down over his eyes.
"Don't get your panies in a bunch there partner." He said with an attempt of a southern accent. Mason started towards him but I held my arm out to stop him. Jason laughed and shook his head, walking back over to Tommy and Barbie. Once the kid got over there Tommy immediately looked over at me and I'm guessing he figured out what had happened. He gave me a look that basically said sorry but..you know he really wasn't.
Oh yes..this was going to be a very long night.
After all that happened me, Kat, and Mason decided to head into studio C where I had talked to Barbie earlier. We were in there for a little while just talking about anything and everything..but mostly we listened to Kat and how much she missed Jamie. I feel so bad for her..she loves him so much. They tried to get me to talk about Tommy but..I couldn't.
"I'm fine you guys." I say, smiling a huge fake smile that Kat and Mason both saw through. But before either of the two could say anything, the studio door opened and well..my nightmare walked in.
"Hey guys, could I talk to Jude alone for a few minutes?" He asked, softly. Kat smiled at me and then walked passed him and out of the room. Mason gave him a look before saying "I don't like your brother." And then he left. Heh..funny..
Tommy walked all the way in and then closed the door again. Back to darkness..maybe it was good that it was dark. Crap, he had a candle and matches. Since when did G-Major have candles? As if reading my mind..he responds-
"Portia is obsessed with candles." And then he sits next to me and places the candle in between us. I just nod and watch the flame dance. For a long while we just sit there in silence. A nice comfortable...oh who am I kidding? You know how uncomofortable I am? I'm sitting next to the person who I want to hate so bad and I just can't. I can't hate him.
"Jude." He says in a low and husky voice. I don't say anything but I do look over and meet his eyes. His cloudy blue eyes..they were staring. Staring at me. Seeing me..through me. He knows I don't hate him..
"I'm sorry." He says. No..
I look away and my eyes meet the candle. I will not cry. Don't do it Jude!
"I'm so sorry girl." He repeats. And I can't help it anymore. I close my eyes as I feel them fill with unshed tears. My back starts to shake and the tears slowly and harshly escape my eyes. Just when I think I'm breaking the most..I feel two strong arms wrap around me and I can't handle it anymore. I melt into his chest and cry into the softness of his T-shirt. Slowly whispering 'Why' over and over again, my fist pounds softly against his shoulder. Not enough to hurt him..but enough to show him the pain that I've been through. The pain that he put me through. But he just sits there, stroking my hair softly and letting me cry. Why? This irritates me. After I regain my mind I push against his chest and wipe my eyes.
"You did this to me Tommy." I say, in between sobs. He justs sits there nodding. No! Don't freakin nod! Don't agree with me! I need you to disagree! I need to hate you.
He reaches out again, trying to bring me closer to him but I push his hand away.
"Don't Tommy..Just don't." I sob, still trying to regain power in this situation.
"What do you want me to do Jude?" He asks, his voice still as soft as ever. I swear..he's going to be the death of me.
"I don't know." I say, finally regaining my voice. Kind of..
"You want to know why I left?" He asks. His voice was so calm...so different. Do I want to know why he left? No..no I don't. Not anymore. I shake my head and he just stares at me.
"What do you want then Jude?" He asks. I don't know anymore. So I just continue to shake my head..and he stays silent. After a few minutes I break out laughing and he stares at me like i'm retarded.
"Your. Brother. Hates me." I manage to get out inbetween laughs. He just smiles and shakes his head.
"Jason's a moron." He says. Runs in the family I guess..oh that was mean. I take that back. Heh.
"No..he's right. Have you heard my new stuff? It's crap." I say. Which is true..
"Jude..I know this is soon and I know you probably still hate me, but..I want to be your producer again." He says. Once again...can you believe the nerve of this guy? Yet I just sit here speechless. And let me tell you..I don't want to be speechless. I want to yell and scream and strangle him. But I can't.
"You don't have to answer now. It was really Darius' idea..but I definitely agree with him. I miss you girl." He says. Girl...I miss him calling me that.
"You hurt me Tommy." I say. Thank god..you know how hard it was for me to say that? It's not easy to admit something like that.
"I know." He said.
"As long as you know.." I say, getting up and kicking his leg. Not hard, though. He just smiles up at me and I leave him in there. I left my heart in there..once again.
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