A/N - Hey you guys..once again I am sorry for the long wait. Well first of all..I went to the doctor today to see what was wrong with me..Heh..I'm allergic to something in my house :(. I have no idea what I'm allergic to though..so that sucks. Anyway..this chapter is pretty short and it MIGHT be my last one before I go to Georgia..I will try to have another one out before then but if not then I wont be able to update again until like..next weekend :( sorry you guys. Send me some reviews though, alright? You know how much I love reading each and every one of them. Okay okay I'm done rambling..Love you guys! keep reviewing!

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Chapter 16 - She's not the one he loves

Jude's Pov - He doesn't love her

I bite my lip before settling my eyes on the floor and shutting the door. I'm kind of scared to turn around..I could have sworn I smelt alcohol on his breath. It's Tommy's brother though..he wouldn't hurt me..right?

I finally turn around and find him staring at me. His eyes are glazed over and he's smiling at me.

"Jason.." I start before walking toward him a little. I stop before getting too close because as I said before, I'm a little scared of what possibilities there are.

"Shh, come sit down with me." Jason says, holding out his hand. I stare at his hand, mouth a-gape. I can't believe I didn't notice this before.

"Oh my god..what happened?" I stutter. His hand is shaking and he stares down at it for a minute before pulling it back to his lap.

"Nothing." He says, barely above a whisper.

"Jason, Seriously, what happened?" I ask, now retreating to the kitchen to grab a towel or something. His hand was cut and some blood had made it's way down his arm and into the sleeve of his shirt.

I finally found a towel and held it under running cold water and then I heard something behind me so I accidently drop the towel and fall into the body behind me. He places his hands on my shoulders and rubs his warm palms against the soft of my neck. I can't help but close my eyes and allow him to continue.

"Jason." I manage to whisper as his mouth finds it's way to my neck and I can feel him trail kisses up and down it. Oh..so not good.

"Jason, please." That wasn't supposed to come out like that. It sounded like I was asking him to continue..I was actually trying to ask him to stop..I think. He didn't take it that way though.

His hands slowly slide down my arms and reach my hands and I can feel the blood against my thumb which brings me back to reality.

"Jason, Jason..your hand." I make an attempt to turn around but he tightens his grip on my hands and kisses me harder.

"What are you doing?" I ask breathlessly as he turns me around to face him.

"Shh." He cooes as he captures my lips in his. I don't know whether to struggle or not..I mean, It feels right. Is it wrong to say that? ..Yes, it is wrong. I need to get a grip on things. I pull away from him and lower my head so he has no access to my lips.

"Jason. We need to stop. I have to bandage your hand." I say quietly.

"My hand's fine. I want to be with you." He says, letting one of my hands go to bring his own to my chin and force my face up.

With my free hand I push against his chest and manage to back away from him.

"Your drunk..just leave and I won't ever bring this up, okay? It never happened." Oh boy those words strangled my tongue as they oozed out of my mouth. I hated those three words so badly.

"But I want it to happen." He objects, stepping closer to me.

"I may not be my brother, but I assure you..I can be just as good, if not better." He says. What the hell was that suppose to mean?

"What do you mean by that?" I ask, backing up some more and hitting the counter.

"You know..in bed. Don't tell me you never slept with him pop star. I see how you two look at each other." He says, eyes still glazed with emotion. Can you believe this?

"Look, I don't know what you think you see but it's not true. None of it." I say, eyes starting to cloud with unshed tears.

He laughs.

"Right." He says, bringing a finger to my cheek and actually catching a stray tear.

"Just go Jason..your making this harder on yourself." I say, voice quivering.

He smiles down at me and starts to lean in for another kiss when..

"You heard her." A voice came from behind him.

He dropped hold of me and turned around to face Sadie.

"You need to leave." She clarified.

This time he didn't object, he just shook his head angrily and walked out of the kitchen leaving me and Sadie.

"Thanks.." I say, now turning off the running water that I managed to forget about earlier. Hey..if you were in a room with Tommy or his brother you'd forget about anything and everything too.

"What did he want? Was he drunk?" Sadie asked. Iean against the sink and nod.

"Then why'd you let him in?" She asks.

"I didn't exactly let him in..he kind of made his way in." I say.

Sadie sighs and walks up to me.

"You okay?" She asks. I nod slowly before smiling assuringly at her.

Then theres a small silence before she decides to speak again.

"You shoud've seen Destany's face." Sadie said, her voice squeaking with ammusement.

"She's just so.." I start, now twisting the towel I had earlier.

"Frustrating?" Sadie offers. I shake my head.

"That's an understatement." I say on a laugh.

"I don't see what Tommy sees in her. I mean yeah..shes pretty and all but.." I start but Sadie interrupts me.

"There you go Jude. She's pretty and he's a guy.." She shrugs, "That's all there is to it." She finishes.

"Right.." I say, trailing off and staring at the counter before me.

"He doesn't love her." Sadie calls out as she starts to walk out of the kitchen.

I fluster my brows and watch her turn the corner.

"What do you mean?" I ask, walking out of the kitchen and following her down the hall.

She turns around smiling and winks at me.

"She's not the one he loves.." Sadie says in a sing song voice before walking into her room and closing the door behind her. How the hell can she leave me hanging like that? Thats just mean..but I am tired and a little freaked out right now so..I shall have a little talk with her tomorrow. As for right now..I am going to sleep.

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