A/N - Hey you guys! I'm baaaaaack lol..I didn't get to write as much as I'd like to have, but I did write some..and well..yeah. God..Georgia is HOT..and I live in Florida..I thought it was hot here, but boy was I mistaken. Anyway I will stop babbling now so yall can read already. OH but one more thing - I'm going to my grandmas for a few days to do some work for her..to help out..so I might have another update before I go over there but after that it might be a few days before I can again. Sorry. Well..review you guys:)
Disclaimer - I do not own Instant star
Chapter 17 - From every tear I'd shed..to every word you spoke
Jude's Pov -
Buzz Buzz Buzz
I roll over and hit the snooze button on the alarm clock for the third time in the past half hour.
"Jude come on we have to go!" Sadie's voice pierced through the shallow hallway as she stomps towards my room.
"We have a meeting at eight Jude! We can't miss it!" Sadie warned before pounding her fist against the door.
I groan and pull my blanket over my head. I barely got any sleep last night because of all the comotion with Jason.
"You have two minutes or else I'm leaving without you." Sadie once again warned before heading downstairs.
Does she really think I care? So what..I miss one staff meeting. I'm sure the meeting will go on without me.
And then I hear the door close. Yes, freedom! Besides, I don't want to face Tommy today..what if Jason is there? I mean, I don't mind Tommy but Jason is another story.
-One hour later-
Buzz Buzz Buzz
So I finally get up and tap the snooze button lightly..okay okay I threw the stupid thing against the wall..it was getting annoying. I have Sadie's screeching voice in the morning. I don't need an alarm clock too.
After taking a quick shower and grabbing my notebook and guitar, I stuff everything in the car and drive slowly to G-major. I know Darius is going to have a fit..it's my own fault for not getting up when Sadie told me to but still.
When I pull in the parking lot I only see two cars parked..one being Tommy's. He didn't go to the meeting? And better yet- The meeting wasn't over yet?
I take a deep breath before grabbing my stuff and walking slowly into the lobby.
As soon as I approached studio C I heard yelling. The door was open.
Neither of the two people in there seemed to notice me standing outside so..I decided to listen.
"Not today. This is my job, don't you get that?"
"Sure Tom..I get this is your job. I get that she's your artist but I don't get that you have to spend all your spare time with her!"
"Spare time? I don't have spare time. We just got here."
"And like I said last night- Ever since we got here you've been chasing her like some pervert. God Tommy she just turned eighteen."
"She's my artist. We're close..we have to be close. I'm her producer. That doesn't mean I have feelings for her and it doesn't mean I'm chasing her."
Chasing who? Me?..
"Eaves dropping?" A husky voice came from behind me and caused me to jump.
"You're jumpy pop star." He chuckled. I glare and walk passed him.
"Hey..is something wrong?" He says, making his way in front of me and cocking his head to the side.
"You should know." I hiss.
"What are you talking about?" He asks.
"Last night. You..Me..you trying to get into my pants." I growl, pushing him aside and sitting on the lobby's couch where my guitar was.
His eyes softened and his mouth was a-gape.
"Jude..I'm so sorry. I didn't know..I didn't mean-"
"It's fine, just don't get drunk and come to me anymore. Why'd you get drunk anyway?" I ask, taking the guitar out of it's case.
He sits across from me and rests his elbows on his knees.
"I don't know.. Jude..answer something for me?" He asks. It sounded like he had to strain that out..like it was hard for him to say that. And wow..can you believe he's said my name a few times instead of pop star?
I raise my brow at him.
"Shoot." I say.
He nods and lowers his head before clearing his throat.
"Do you love him?" He asks. Woah..where did that come from? Who is he talking about?
"Love who?" I ask. Maybe I know who but..do you really think I want to answer that question?
"You know who." He says. Oh boy..
I look down at my shoes for a few minutes before letting out a breath.
"Jason..I-"
"Whatever Tommy if you want the kid..you can have the kid..I'll be at the hotel!" Destany screams, running out of the studio.
I hear a loud bang in studio C so once again I make my way over to it, Jason followed.
There Tommy was..knuckles swollen and a dent in one of the file cabnets.
"Tommy, are you okay?" I ask, quickly walking over to him and grabbing his hand. He winces as my fingers brush against his.
No one's Pov -
Jude ran her fingers over his now very large knuckles and kept her eyes on his. Jason immediately felt the tension in the room..between the one he wanted to be with and his brother. He himself felt out of place.
"I'll uh..get some ice." Jason said, shaking his head as he walked out.
Jude continued to run her fingers over his knuckles and it managed to put him in a daze. Her eyes..her soft touch. It was just all too much.
"Jude..we-"
"Shh. It's okay." Jude says, smiling lightly.
Tommy also gave a weak and unsure smile and then rolled his chair back a bit to get a little space between them.
Jude bit her lip and then looked towards the switchboard.
"So..why didn't you go to the meeting?" She asked.
"I just got back from Montana. D said there was no need for me to go." He said, shrugging.
"Oh." Jude says.
"Are you okay?" He asks, concern written all over his face. Jude looked towards him and nodded silently.
"You sure? you're not looking so hot." Tommy said.
Jude couldn't help but laugh at that comment. Tommy rolled his eyes.
"Thanks Tommy..you sure know how to make a girl feel special." Jude says sarcastically.
"Ha ha..but seriously, You sure you're okay?" He asked.
"Yes..I'm fine." Jude said, putting on a forced smile that Tommy didn't fall for. Yet he decided to leave it alone.
"I thought Jason was getting ice?" Jude asked.
"He's probably screwing around somewhere." Tommy said with a roll of his eyes.
"You have any new material?" He asked. Jude raised her eyebrow.
"Kind of..but what about your hand?" She asked. He shruged.
"It'll be fine..growing up I had much worse than this." He said. Jude shakes her head and goes out in the lobby to grab her guitar. As soon as she reaches the couch she sees Jason in the kitchen..just standing there.
"Jason?"
"Just go Jude.." Is all he said in return. His back was faced towards her and he didn't even turn around but anger was very evident in his voice.
Jude didn't say anything else, instead she just grabbed her guitar and walked back into the studio where Tommy was.
"What do you have?" He asked as I sat down and situated the guitar in my lap.
"Don't hold me down
Just burn my name..
Don't keep me bound
You take everything in vain
I'm forced to love you
I'm forced to take everything back
You were destined to hurt me
And I keep falling,
Slipping through these cracks
But I'll never forget you
And I'll never tell a lie
For everything you put me through
I hang my head tonight
Conciousness means nothing
"Love" is some sick joke
From every tear I'd shed
To every word you spoke..
Tonight's about punishment
Tonight's about defeat
So here I lie broken, crying at your feet
You held everything in me
Though all that's happened..
All that's happened
We'll never be
'Cause..
For everything you put me through
I hang my head tonight
Conciousness means nothing
"Love" is some sick joke
From every tear I'd shed
To every word you spoke..
I'm forced to love you..
The hurt you can't take back
I'm..drawn to hate you
For everything..everything
For everything you put me through
I hang my head tonight
Conciousness means nothing
"Love" is some sick joke
From every tear I'd shed
To every word you spoke..
Tonight's about giving in
I was forced to love you.."
Jude strummed the guitar lightly and finally looked up at Tommy who had complete hurt illuminating in his eyes.
"What did you think?" She asked, hopeful.
He nodded slowly.
"I liked it." He says.
"..but?" She asks, clearly catching on to the longing in his words.
"Was the song about me?" Tommy asked.
Jude looked down at her feet not knowing how to respond to that.
"Jude..I don't know how else to say it..I'm running out of apologies." Tommy says, leaning over and trying to meet her eyes again.
"I don't want apologies. I just..I wrote the song a while back." Jude shrugs. Yes, that was a lie..but still.
Tommy nodded.
"It's good." He says. I smile and nod.
"Tommy?" Jude finally asks.
"Yeah?"
"..do you love her?" She continues.
Tommy stares at her for a long time before finally giving in.
"No."
A/N - Alright well..what did you guys think? Horrible? Worth the wait? Give me something :)