A/N - Hey you guys..I know I am horrible..beyond horrible..I'm..I'm..words can't describe..BUT I do kind of have some excuses..I had to go to the hospital and to a few doctors last week because of my "allergies" and now asthma as well :(..and in a few weeks I have to get a skin test done to see what I'm "allergic" to. Besides that I missed two days of school because of that and had alot of homework to make up, etc. I am really sorry y'all..please don't hate me? and I know you guys deserve a longer chapter than this but I still have homework to catch up on and I had my friends birthday to go to last night..not to mention my birthday is in 11 days. (sigh) Okay I will stop rambling now..hope you guys like the chapter. Oh! and thanks for the reviews as always guys! y'all are awesome:)
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Chapter 21 - Babysitting
Jude's Pov -
So now we're all inside and it's sun down..time sure flies by when your watching Mason and Jason argue about soap operas and music styles. Who knew Jason watched soaps? I would've never guessed. And he was worried about Tommy being in a boyband ruining his family's name or reputation? Heh..okay.
Tommy has spent the last few hours out by the horses. He seems to really like them.
"Hey Jude..there's nothing in the fridge." Mason says from the kitchen. Oh yeah..oops.
"About that..the closest gas station is an hour away and the closest fast food place is an hour and a half away..I forgot about that." I say.
Suddenly Jason appears from in the hallway with a sly smile on his face.
"An hour? Hm..I guess Tommy could go and Mason, you wouldn't mind going with him, right?" He asks with a huge grin on his face. Haha..that's really smooth.
Mason shoots me a questioning look before shaking his head.
"Actually, I don't think that's a good idea." He says. Thank you Mason!..what would I do without him? really..when we get back home I am so getting him a new hat.
"Aw come on cowboy, she'll be fine here with me..I won't bite..not hard anyway." Jason says. Oh god..what is up with the cheezy one liners?
"What are you guys talking about?" Tommy asks, closing the front door behind him.
"Food." Mason replies.
"Doesn't sound like food." Tommy responds.
"I simply suggested that Jude and I stay here while you and cowboy go get us something to eat, that's all." Jason says with an innocent smile. With that angellic face, who wouldn't believe him? I mean he's got the same facial structure as Tommy..you know..perfect.
"How far is this place?" Tommy asks, now looking at me.
"Almost two hours from here.." I say quietly. Oh..he doesn't look happy about that.
"Two hours? It's already eight now." He says.
"It's fine. You and Mason can go now and Jude and I can catch up." Jason says.
"Catch up? you have nothing to catch up on. y'all have no history whatsoever." Mason butts in.
Jason shoots Mason a look.
"Jude and I will go." Tommy says in an aggravated tone.
"Come on Tom-" Jason pleads.
"I said Jude and I will go. You two stay here and..whatever." Tommy says, heading toward the door. I gulp. I hate it when he's like this.
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So finally..just to get a conversation going..I do it. I touch his...radio. And it does it.
"Jude what the hell did I tell you about touching the radio?"
I shrug.
"So you are alive and able to talk? you had me wondering." I say in a monotone. He ignores my comment and decides to just leave the radio station on the station I put it on. That's weird even for Tommy..I mean, him not keeping this meaningless conversation going?..I thought he actually waited for something like this to come about so he could take out his anger on me because I know he is mad...hurt..and probably everything else that revolves around those categories at/with me. Sad part is..I can't blame him. I messed up big time.
It's completely dark outside and we've been been riding for atleast a half hour. I can barely see the road because it's foggy and did I mention the parts that I do see don't look familiar? I mean..I haven't been here since I was a kid. I'm kind of scared to tell Tommy, though. So I continue to stay quiet and he continues to drive down this lonely, broken road.
About twenty minutes have passed, still silence, and I can't take this anymore.
"So..When are you guys having the wedding?" I ask.
I can see a small sarcastic grin make it's way across his lips.
"Well since plans have changed and my ex spoiled artist didn't want me to produce her anymore, we're headed back to the states. Who knows? It'll happen eventually."
I can feel the burning in my mouth...the yearning..I need to speak, I need to say something..but he's right. He didn't do anything to deserve what I said to him. I'm the one who told him to stay out of my love life, right? and here I am butting into his again. God..I'm such an idiot.
"Oh.." I say. What else can I say?
"Destany know you guys are going back yet?" I ask. If you're wondering...this is hurting like hell for me to talk to him about this..knowing I've lost him again. Yes, I've lost him..he's already gone and I know it.
He laughs to himself a bit..not a good laugh..but a 'Are you seriously asking me that?' laugh.
"Heh, not yet. But when she finds out she'll be thrilled."
I nod. Such an idiot..
Before I can say anything else I feel something hit the tire of the car.
"What the hell?" Tommy asked, catching the steering wheel and holding one arm out in front of me. I fall against his arm which keeps me from hitting the dashboard and then fall back against my seat when the car comes to a complete hault...after the back tire also made it's way over whatever it was that hit the front one.
We sit there for a few seconds, me trying to recover from my heart attack and Tommy still holding his arm out.. When he finally realized what he was doing he dropped his arm and refused to look at me. I don't think he wants me to know that he cares anymore..and once again I don't blame him.
Tommy gets out of the car, as do I, and goes over to the passengers side to check the tires. Each are completely flat and huge ammounts of glass and some huge, sharp object was now laying on the side of the road. Looked like a blade of some kind. What are the odds?
"Damn it!" He curses, now kicking the glass.
I stand here and watch him without saying anything. I'm not that stupid.
"Now what? we're in the middle of nowhere.. Do you have your cell phone?" He asks, anger very evident in his voice. I nod and grab it from my pocket. Crap..
"No signal." I say slowly. He leans his head back slowly and looks up at the sky while taking a deep breath.
"We can just use the spare on the front and we should be able to get atleast to the gas station like that." I offer.
He smiles.
"That is the spare." He says, pointing to the front. Well...scratch that idea.
"I knew this was going to be a bad idea. You and me on a trip together..It's just not meant. It's a bad idea all together." He says. I bite my lip to keep from saying something stupid.
"I'm too old for this.. I don't need this." He continues. What the hell? Too old? Now he sounds like an old man.
"You're 25 Tommy, you're not fifty." I say..yeah yeah yeah, it slipped.
"I'm too old to be babysitting." He says under his breath..I heard. Babysitting? excuse me?
"Excuse me?" I mimick my thoughts.
"Your eighteen, Jude. This is your time to make stupid mistakes. I've been there, I've lived that. I was a kid, but I had to grow up pretty fast and without a choice. I'm not that kid anymore and I can't deal with small things like this."
"You're right Tommy. I am eighteen and whether you've noticed or not..I'm not a kid. I haven't been a kid since that night out in the rain. I stopped being a teenager the night my mother left Sadie and I to fend for ourselves. I'm not that fifteen year old girl anymore and if you're too wrapped up in your own oh so important life then screw it Tommy, I don't want you to go through things like this with me." I say, feeling the lump form in my throat. I know this lump way too well..now to keep the tears from falling.
"I'll go through it alone like usual. You walked out on me once..I learned to be strong on my own." I say softly and quivery. Now you see that was one of those statements that was suppose to be said independently and convincingly. I did just the opposite.
"You're the one who wants me gone, Jude. You are the one who told me it was a mistake for me to work with you again." He says, equal tone. In other words, he sounded hurt, less anger and more pain.
"Are you really that far away Tommy?" I ask. He stares at me.
"Do you really think I want you to leave?" I continue.
He stays quiet for a few minutes before breaking eye contact and walking down the edge of the road.
"I'll be back.." He says without looking at me and slowly fades into the fog.
A/N - So what did you think? Sorry for leaving it like that..I will definitely try to get the next chapter out before friday..if I don't I am really sorry I WILL seriously try. In the mean time..please review?