A/N - This probably doesn't make up for all the time I didn't post..I can't say how sorry I am you guys..It's just been hectic and writer's block and school and god..I'm really sorry. But you guys have been great, like always. Thanks so much for the reviews and I'm happy you're still with me and with the story..I hope it's not getting too boring or predictable...or even ooc. Please continue to let me know what you think and I hope you enjoy this chappy.

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Chapter 24 - Just fantasy

Tommy's Pov -

"Jude please..try to understand." I plead, going closer to her. I take hold of her shoulders, trying to keep her calm, knowing that it was probably only making it worse and then brush her tears away.

She trembles underneath my touch and that's it. I lose control of everything..my thoughts, my beliefs, my sanity and everything I just said means nothing.

She opens her eyes and her blue orbs stare directly into mine. They're shimmering with unshed tears and we both know what's coming.

I feel myself being pulled closer..closer..so close that it's uncomfortable.

I watch ler lips quiver and I know she's about to do it. Make that one mistake. I won't let her.
"I lo-" I capture her lips in mine and I'm complete..so is she. I can feel it. She can feel it. If only this was always so simple. So easy. So perfect. It can't be.

I pull away and rest my head on hers, thinking of how I am going to explain that kiss.

"Don't waste it on me, Jude." I say, out of breath. She shouldn't say it. I shouldn't have said it..I shouldn't have forced her to feel obligated to say something back. To admit something that could possibly be false, which most likely is false.

"But-"

"Jude!" Jude and I both turn to see Jason and Mason standing in the yard. They're both giving us questioning looks.

I, Tom quincy..admitted something I never thought possible. I told her I loved her. I once, long ago, made a promise to myself that I'd never tell her that. Never screw her up like that. I broke that promise and I feel guilty. Guilty for everything. Cheating, Loving, Hoping, Believing, everything. I am a guilty man.

As we walk up to the two boys..I hold my arm around her to try to calm her. She's so tense and I know I screwed up again. But that's not hard to believe. My name is Thomas Quincy afterall. - Ex boybander screw up, Womanizing sex symbol. I should be punnished for these sins. I should be punnished for everything I am. But I am being punnished. I fell for a girl who I can never be with. If that's not punnishment..I don't know what is.

Jude's Pov -

We walk passed Jason and Mason who are totally oblivious to everything that had happened in the past few hours. I don't want to see them. I don't want to talk to them. I want to be alone..and I want to greive. I want to learn to cope. I want to learn to unlove if that makes sense? Can you unlove someone?

We walk inside and without letting Tommy hold me back, I head into my room without looking back. Without thinking twice I grab my guitar and strum fastly.

"Who was I to say everything was gonna be okay

And who I was to say that you could do no wrong

Now it's like a nightmare that keeps occuring

Or a wound kept open, burning

And I keep fading, dripping from this life

And it's a terrible feeling

Though I refused to cry

You took a piece of my heart and threw it away

And never even said good bye

You were the one to recreate

All those tears that turned to hate

I was given false hope, losing grip

Hanging on this short rope..they call innocence"

No one's Pov -

Tommy walked into the kitchen and splashed some water on his face, basically trying to wake himself up..even though he knew it wasn't a dream. He kissed Jude. He confessed. He messed up for the zillionth time.

"Where's the food?" Jason asked, walking into the kitchen.

"Where's the car?" Mason asked, coming in behind Jason.

Tommy didn't say anything. He just stared down at the sink.

"What took you guys so long? something happen?" Mason asked, concern clearly showing through his voice.

Tommy still said nothing, instead he walked out of the kitchen and walked outside.

"What's eating him?" Jason asked, a puzzled look on his face.

"I don't know..I'm going to talk to Jude." Mason said, walking down the hall and on his way to Jude's room.

Jason nodded and went in the opposite direction, heading outside to where Tommy was.

-With Jude -

Mason walked slowly to Jude's door and heard the loud strumming echoing throughout the hallway. He bit his lip, knowing that something happened between her and Quincy. She got this way whenever they fought or something.

Mason tapped the door lightly.

"Jude? Can I come in?"

No answer. Only the guitar was heard. No words.

He decided to open the door anyway. Once he did he noticed Jude's hair covering her eyes and she was sitting down on the floor, leaning against the bed with guitar in hand. Strumming some chords that didn't even go together, but obviously she didn't care.

Mason walked over and slid down to her level.

"Jude?" He asked again. She didn't look up. Only kept strumming.

"What happened?" He tried again.

She slowed down the chords and developed a steady rhythm.

"Tom Quincy happened."

Mason nodded, listening to Jude explain everything.

-With Tommy and Jason-

"What is your problem?" Jason asked, closing the door behind him. Tommy glanced towards his brother for a few minutes before focusing once more on the road before him where him and Jude had just shared something he'd never forget.

"What did you do? Kiss her or something?" Jason asked in a joking tone. Tommy shot a look of horror at Jason and Jason's jaw nearly hit the floor.

He started to laugh, "You kissed her," He said over and over.

Tommy ignored it the first few times but quickly grew annoyed with it.

"It wasn't like that!" He protested.

Jason continued to chuckle.

"Right..like you really love her and it wasn't at all the fact that she's too young for you and you can't have one girl. Come on Tom we both know that's what it really was about."

Jason said, his laughter subsiding and his voice growing more serious.

"You have no idea what you're talking about." Tommy said, voice mono.

"Don't play that with me Tom. She's the one thing you can't have and it kills you. You get everything you want and it just kills you. Face it- if you ever did have a chance with her, you'd screw it up..or better yet, screw her and leave her. Not that I'm blaming you, I wouldn't mind hittin' that either." Jason finished.

Tommy stared at his brother.

"She's different." He said.

"Right Tom, regardless, you need to either back off or call off the wedding. This game you're playing is getting old." Jason said.

Tommy didn't say anything. Just kept looking down. His mind was working overtime and his heart was pounding with everything. He was fighting emotions and holding back tears. Everything that ever meant anything to him was so close..so touchable..so real..and he couldn't see it. Couldn't touch it. It was just fantasy, and what he needed was reality.

A/N - It's pretty short, I know..and again, sorry about that.