A/N - I don't know what I can say to make you guys forgive me..because I know I've been horrible. I've just had the hardest time writing and not very much spare time to do it. I hope yall can understand that..and forgive me? I also hope you don't hate this chapter too much..it's not long at all..but it's all I could come up with. The end should be coming soon..in a few chapters..and the next one should be out pretty soon because I'm going to MAKE myself write..but don't hate me if it's crappy..:(..alright you guys thanks so much for the reviews from last chapter and I hope you'll leave one for this one. Love yall.

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Chapter 25 - We're done

Jude's Pov -

"Tom Quincy happened." I say, lightly playing with the strings of the guitar. Gently and calmly.

"Things are always so complicated with us..we couldn't leave it at that." I say. It's true. It's us. We're Jude and Tommy. We are destined to be apart..but drawn together. We can never leave it simple. Why? because it's not simple. It's anything but simple and I Jude Harrison..love him. No matter how much he makes me hate and despise him..I love him. And you can't help who you love.

"What happened out there?" Mason started, scooting closer to me.

"Something definitely happened because when we walked out there..you could cut the tension with a knife." He continued. Is it that noticable?..are we that obvious? I don't try to be. I don't intend to be.

"He kissed me." I say, almost choking on my words. Those poisonous words.

Mason's eyes widen.

"Again?" He asks, shock straining his voice. I nod.

"He has some nerve!" Mason says, getting all worked up. I smile weakly and continue to strum the guitar.

"I love him..you know." I say.

Mason doesn't say anything, but he does attempt to calm himself down..for me.

"I have to say goodbye to him.." I continue, tears swelling in my eyes. It's true. If I ever want to move on and have a normal life..I have to let him go. Either he has to go for good..or I have to. The only person I can depend on is myself. I have to leave.

"Jude..you know he loves you." Mason says.

I nod.

"I know..but love isn't enough anymore." I say. Can you believe I'm saying this? Me?

"You can't mean that." Mason protests.

I stop playing the guitar and look up at him. I can feel my face warming and my eyes burn with unshed tears.

"I have to." I say..setting the guitar aside and crossing my arms to my chest.

Before I am able to control what is happening, Mason's arm is around me and my eyes are wet, pressed against his shoulder.

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The next morning I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in. Cuddled up against Mason and my guitar. It was comforting, really.

I slowly slip from his grip without waking him up and exit the room quietly.

The place is so silent in the morning. You can hear the birds chirping..and feel the sun on your face through the window. I miss this.

I look out the door and spot him outside. Sitting in the chair on the porch facing the horses. Had he been out there all night?

Should I go out there? If I do..will I be able to hold myself together? Or will I make a complete fool out of myself and start blubbering again?..I guess there's only one way to find out..and if I don't get it over with now..then I never will.

I slowly open the door and it makes no sound, surprisingly..considering how old this place is. After taking a few small steps I stop directly behind him and lean against one of the chairs.

"Ir's peaceful out here." Tommy says. I was hoping he didn't know I was out here..too late for that.

"Yeah," My voice cracks so I clear my throat, "It is." I agree.

"One more song..and we should be able to head back." He continues.

I nod..like he can see me. I'm so stupid.

And back to silence.

After a few minutes of unbarable silence he finally pushes himself off his chair and walks passed me but pauses before walking inside the house.

"Don't stress yourself Jude..after we get these songs finished and recorded I'm leaving for good..no more games." He says, causing my heart to stop beating. I want this..right? I've been waiting for this. I want this.

"You're..leaving." I say, shakily.

"Yeah, I'm leaving." He says, finalizing everything.

I freeze up and am suddenly paralized. I can't move..nor do I want to because I know me. If I move..I'll go closer to him. I'll make the biggest mistake of my life and tell him I love him and I can't do that. I can't let myself do that.

I hear him start to turn the door knob and something clicks. I close my eyes and bring my hand to my throat, slowly putting pieces together in my head..

"I can't keep letting myself do this

Keep getting tangled up in you..

Losing every ounce of dignity I once had

Everything I am is coming unglued..

I can't help but want to be with you

Put all obstacles aside

I want nothing more than to share with you

Everything I feel inside..

Wasting away to nothing

Why can't I just let go?"

I open my eyes to see him in the same position, standing at the door with his hand on the knob, eyes closed and listening. He is listening..listening to me. Hearing me. Once again, I close my eyes.

"Unravel every fantasy,

Not let my weakness show

It's unfair to her to say you love me

And It's unfair to you to say I love you too

This conversation keeps reoccuring

And I'm losing my mind, I no longer know what to do"

My eye's are still closed..but he's been so still..hasn't even blinked, yes, this I know. He knows it..I know it. This is it.

"Sometimes I wish I'd never met you

Not even time will tell..

Because you protect yourself with the same old line

And even though it's a lie, it works every time

Abandoning everything

surrounded by these broken things

Who are you to call her beautiful?

And who am I to disagree?"

This is it.

"Living on the razors edge

Captivated with so many regrets

She surrounds herself with memories

She refuses to forget

I am only an outsider in this perfect picture

I know I don't belong

But I can't stop caring...

And I know, you know, this always was and ever will be wrong."

I open my eyes and he is smiling at me. I know that smile..heh, only all too well.

"That's it girl. We're done." He says. Indeed we are..

A/N - Once again, sorry and I hope you liked this chapter..please review? tell me if you didn't like it :)