LUCID: Hey ya'll! Wow, I haven't updated in FOREVER, no na da? And…man I shouldn't even be saying this but…I've actually had this update ready on my computer for over three weeks….I just….never got to typo checking so I could put it up –winces- but I got another review about it and I felt so guilty I got right to it! So here it is! Please review
WARNING: boy on boy luuuuuv'n read or leave folks.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own digimon…………-sobs-..
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Taichi was sitting in his car, the engine still running and giving him comforting vibrations as he rested his forehead against the cool leather-encased wheel.
Yesterday had been a nightmare. Sora and his mother had come over sooner than was sane for any normal, nice person and disrupted his life with tales of lace and roses.
Why the hell did they want him there anyway? Even when he came out of his bored daze to suggest something that HE actually thought would be nice, he was only met with a silence and cold stares before they continued their conversation. They probably only wanted him their as tradition, not to see his feelings on the matter or whether this or that would make HIM happy.
Damn! It made him so ANGRY! Was it not his wedding as well? Didn't he get a say in anything?
He laughed inwardly at that, scornfully. Of course not. The very wedding itself wasn't even his choice. It had only been his fathers pushing, His mothers wheedling, Sora's cold expectations that had brought it on. He really had no say. Not in this. Not in anything.
A long, dizzying sigh whooshed from his lips as he sat up, eyes tiered and hazy, due to little sleep and many nightmares.
The only thing that had been any real enjoyment of the past two days was his shopping trip with Kairi. Now, it HAD been rather…frustrating, at times…Especially when she kept trying to get him into thing that were just not DECENT for any person with shame!
But she had made him laugh, made him feel normal, like he wasn't just some puppet in another person's plans, but a human being with a life of his own. They had chatted, laughed, talked. Not with just him having to listen to her, but her actually listening to HIM. Asking him questions, worrying about him, thinking of him. Instead of him always just having to sit their looking interested, being disapproved of if he ventured forth his own word.
It had felt great to be free of those slowly suffocating bonds…Even the actually shopping part hadn't dampened his spirits. Just being with Kairi, someone he knew would love him no matter what, made it worthwhile.
But the visit with his soon-to-be wife and supposedly 'caring' mother had brought it all down in one fatal swing. He had been forced back to reality, back to his prison of a life.
Wednesday had ended up with him in bed, trying to fall asleep at three-o'clock and not have to think about it for the rest of the day.
Now it was Thursday, time for dancing lessons once again.
He was parked in front of the building, he only had to turn the car off and step out. Go up those steps and down the hall…
But he was scared.
Why?
Because even thought he couldn't acknowledge it, he knew he liked the carefree, golden eyes teacher. More than was appropriate, for a student and his teacher, for a man engaged, for the world.
It was wrong, He knew that. So many cons to the pro's…why did he even dare to think what it would be like?…but that was the thing…he had. He had dreamed about his honey-eyed teacher….in ways…that he should defiantly have not.
Now he was afraid to face him…afraid to feel happy in his arms….So very,very afraid of what would happen when they touched.
Because that was when…he forgot about everything…and when he forgot about everything…there were no cons or pros. There was only him.
What would happen then?
Yes…that was the question…
He thought on it wryly as he finally turned the key and shut off the engine, unbuckling his seatbelt and pushing the car door-open with one leg.
Standing up, he shut the door gently and locked it, then turned to stare blankly up at the looming building.
More like my doom…He thought nastily to himself, walking purposefully up the stairs and through the huge double doors.
Well, might as well get it over with.
So with a forcibly carefree smile, and inwardly shaking insides, he smiled at the unfamiliar attendee, who blushed madly and went back to her typing hurredly, and leisurely walked down the halls.
After all, might as well be elegant now, for he knew once he came within range with his darling teacher, he would lose all smoothness like a bag filled with rocks thrown into the tumbling tide.
Ohohoh, this was the day alright. Taichi Yagami being taught to dance by a MALE, and he LIKED it! Too much infact.
Yup. The world is full of crazy things.
And their it was. That lovely, cranberry red door. The only thing keeping him, from HIM.
With a resigned sigh, and a curse towards destiny for always screwing with his life, he opened the door and stepped inside, only to once again be stopped in his tracks.
Dressed in thin baggy black pants with so many holes that their was barely anything to imagine, and a snug white-t-shirt with a bleeding heart image printed on the front, Yamato was stretching farther and more then flexible possible in a most tantalizing way.
The shirt was so tight, and so very short that it practically went past his stomach as he turned and stretched towards the sky, head thrown back carelessly, lashes fluttering closed over pale pink cheeks as he hummed along with the song the CD player was giving out.
Suddenly he seemed to sense that someone was watching him and snapped his eyes open to turn and gaze with those huge, incredibly warm and golden eyes in Taichi's direction.
A gorgeous smile spread across his face and his arms dropped to his sides with a soft slap.
"Oh, I was wondering when you would get here. Traffic?" He asked teasingly, one golden eyebrow rising in a fearfully knowing way.
"Y-yea, Traffic." Taichi agreed, mentally searching for where his stomach had gone, as it seemed to have dropped from its place into somewhere else entirely, and changed into a pile of gooey mush.
Oh great…
"I-Im sorry I'm late." He ventured unsurely, running a hand through his hair, as was his nervous habit.
"Oh that's alright, I was just warming up." He flashed another of those oh-so-freely given smiles and stretched once again, making Taichi gulp as the blond gave a grunt of satisfaction before halting his exorcizes and walking over to the CD player.
As he bent down to flick it off, Taichi quickly turning his gaze elsewhere.
"Well then, I see you have better suited clothes today, went shopping?" The blond asked with a friendly smile, standing up and turning around smoothly.
"Uh…Yea. With my sister."
After a dozen of fights over trying to fit him into a pair of tights and ETC, they had finally decided on a loose pair or dark red sweatpants and a plain black T-shirt that was tighter than he was comfortable with…but Kairi had insisted that if he wouldn't wear the tights, at least wear something more…whatever the word she used had been. It was very long.
He felt his face heat up as he felt those soft golden eyes travel up and down his body.
"Hmm. Yes, that will do. You'll have to wash it after every lesson of course, otherwise you'll start smelling like a pig." He gave a friendly wink, at which Taichi blushed even darker and smiled weakly back.
"I'll do that…umm…should I take off my socks and shoes then?"
"Oh, yes, right away please. We'll get right into it."
Taichi sat down ungracefully and started to unlace his soft-leather shoes, trying not to glance at Yamato's pale, shapely legs that seemed to glare out for attention from the extra holey pants.
Finally he pulled off the last sock and stood up, giving a thankful sigh at no longer being level with Yamato's lower half and steeling himself for whatever was to come.
Yamato didn't disappoint him.
With an excited twinkle in his eyes and a slowly widened smile, the blond exclaimed with flourish, "Today we are going to do an Austrian Folk Dance!"
Taichi stared at him with blank doe brown eyes.
"Oh…ah…what's that?"
Yamato laughed and spun around, leaning over and pressing a button on the CD player, then switching it on, filling the air with the sounds of a softly playing orchestra.
"It's harder than the waltz, as it isn't just in circles, you see." He turned back to Taichi with dancing eyes, and asked with a smile," Have you ever seen the movie "Sound of Music"?"
"Um…no, I don't think so." Taichi instantly regretted saying so, as he saw some of the shining light in Yamato's eyes dim down some.
"Oh, well…It's an American movie…I suppose you wouldn't have then... Anyways!" He moved over to the center of the room and gestured for him to fallow. "Come on then, lets get started."
Taichi fallowed reluctantly, putting a hand on the back of his neck as he watched Yamato stretch to touch his toes.
The blond looked up with both eyebrows raised." Well? You have to stretch before you start any exorcise."
"Oh, yea." Taichi crouched and did something that could have passed for a feeble attempt at trying to touch the ground, trying to keep his cheeks from turning scarlet as he felt Yamato's laughing eyes watching him.
Suddenly, just as he stood up, cold, soft hands came to rest one on his hip, the other on his forearm, the blond pressed up tight to his back.
"Taichi, you have to relax." The brunette closed his eyes and shuddered, the blond's hot breath tickling his ear and sending shivers throughout his body.
"Are you cold?" The blond asked almost teasingly, leaning even closer if possible.
"N-no." Taichi muttered huskily, clearing his throat needlessly.
"Ok, good. Now I want you to take a long, deep breath. Okay?" Taichi did as asked, though his breath came in shaky as a rattlesnakes tail and left in one long shudder.
Yamato laughed softly, but didn't say anything, only to loosen his grip slightly. "Alright, now close your eyes. Yes, that's it. Now I'm going to move your body, slowly, so you'll be able to remember how to do it yourself next time. For now just fallow me, ok? Let me guide you."
Taichi nodded, gulping as silken gold strands touched his neck in a soft caress.
"Alright, here we go."
For a moment, all was silent except for each other's breathing.
Taichi was in a world of darkness, nothing but the warmth of the body pressed against him, and the hands that guided his own arms and body to move existed.
He was pressed to the side, and then made to stretch towards the ceiling. Each movement was somehow easier and smoother than when he was by himself, it was like he was unable to do anything wrong with Yamato's touch on his.
He took in a sharp breath as Yamato made him bend forward, a soft cheek was pressed to his only a moment before they stood back up.
Then just as suddenly as it started, Yamato stepped away and he was alone.
He opened his eyes and turned to see Yamato smiling softly, eyes flickering.
"That was good." His voice was soft, making Taichi itch to pull him back into a true embrace and never let go. "Lets get started for real now."
Taichi nodded, shaking his head of such thoughts and breathing in the first full breath he'd taken in while.
"Alright, come here."
Taichi lifted his head to glance at the blond, standing their waiting expectantly with his arms now folded.
With a sigh the brunette tried to push back down his turmoil of emotions, stepping up lightly before Yamato and trying to put a blank expression on.
"Alright, do you remember how to put your hands?"
Taichi did, and put them there, hoping Yamato didn't notice how they trembled.
"Ok, good. I just wanted to make sure. But actually, one hand will hold mine in this dance." As he said the words, Yamato reached up to grasp the hand that rested on his shoulder, and fold it in his own powder soft white hand.
Taichi stared at their enfolded fingers, noting how his suddenly looked tanned compared to Yamato's utter paleness. So, so, soft…skin that soft should be illegal!
He wondered briefly if it was that soft everywhere…but quickly threw that thought away as if poisoned, face glowing a soft pink.
Yamato c0cked his head cutely at him, then smiled, a knowing twinkle in his eyes.
"Okay then, ready?" Taichi felt the grip on his hand tighten. "Some of it is a three step motion like the waltz, but slightly different. We'll start with that part."
Yamato shifted in Taichi's grasp and sidled his body a little farther away, and more to the side.
"Alright, now, the first step is the same, but the second one is more of a hope then a step. Not a big one, just a slight jump, a very small one, ok? So it will be step, hop, step, okay? And this part is in a straight line, not a circle like the waltz, got it?"
Taichi nodded, trying to remember his words, yet finding it hard not to lose himself in the other's eyes.
"Okay, here we go. One, and hop and-whoa!"
They stumbled, Taichi having lost his footing in the hop part, forgetting that it would be a jump instead of a step and thus reacting too late.
"OH! I'm sorry." He blustered, face red, feeling like an idiot once again.
Yamato just shook his head and laughed, helping Taichi right himself and putting their hands back in the right places.
"Ok, once again, one and hop and one-Good! Just like that!- "
They did that for a few rounds, going back and forth across the room, with Taichi actually trying to concentrate on his next move instead of Yamato. It was hard (very very hard)…but with Yamato guiding, it was…well…fun!
Yet again he felt himself caught up in a world of only the creature in his arms, as they stepped and hopped and spun around, adding on to the dance as they went, the room filled with bursts of laughter as one would make a mistake (Taichi) or just out of exhilaration.
Finally Yamato called for a rest and they both collapsed, though Taichi was much more tiered than Yamato, who only seemed a little bit sweaty, and that only brought more to his appeal anyway…
"T-that was-"Taichi gasped, sitting against the wall with his hand resting at his sides, "That was actually fun!"
"What, did you think dancing was some stuffy, boring act that only rich snobby people took part in?" Yamato asked with a raised eyebrow, just coming back from turning off the CD player.
Taichi blushed and looked down, fiddling with the strings on his waistband.
"N-no…..well…" He sighed and shook his head, looking back up at Yamato with uncertain eyes. " I guess…but Yamato-"He blushed slightly at using his name-" it's just that…everyone I know, of the crowd that dances…well, they ARE like that."
Yamato smiled softly, a sort of sad look in his eyes, but didn't say anything as Taichi continued.
"But Yamato…your different." Taichi pushed up off the floor and stood up slowly, giving a nervous laugh and dragging his hand through his hair.
"Your just different. And you make me laugh…you actually make me like dancing! You don't know what an accomplishment that is."
Yamato still hadn't said anything, just stood their watching as Taichi grew even more animated, eyes sparkling brightly in excitement.
"I mean, I've never felt so free!" Taichi spread his arms wide and laughed, a full rich laugh.
Then he seemed to come to his senses and his hands dropped to his sides. He stared down at the shiny floor, unable to look into Yamato's eyes for the moment.
"I…I'm sorry. I got carried away" He mumbled, disbelieving that he could have become so at ease in the other's presence.
"It's alright."
Taichi looked up quickly at how softly spoken the words had come, seeing Yamato looking off into the distance in a dreamy way. His expression nonchalant, almost even…sad…
Taichi had never seen the blond as anything more than carefree and seemingly happy. Now his throat tightened at the soft, gently sorrowful look that Yamato had on his heart shaped face.
"Yamato?" He took a step towards the blond, and then stopped when he turned, a small smile gracing his lips as he looked back at Taichi.
"Hmmm?
"You…you seemed distant." Taichi said slowly, not taking his eyes off this different Yamato.
"Oh? I'm sorry." He gave a soft, heart-achingly bitter laugh, shaking golden tendrils of hair from his eyes and giving a sigh. "Just lost in the past…"
Taichi didn't know what to say, thus leaving a gaping hole of silence in the large room.
Finally Yamato broke into that twinkling laugh that filled Taichi with relief and a heady warmth.
"Oh, look at us acting so serious. But really Taichi, I understand. And I'm glad I make you feel that way."
Taichi blushed at the warm smile directed towards him and ducked his head, not knowing how young and boyish it made him look.
Yamato laughed again, brushing the persistent strands of gold from his eyes and giving his hands a brisk clap.
"Alright then! Enough talk, more dancing! Shall we practice the waltz?"
"Uh…Yea, I think I remember it." Taichi mumbled uncertainly.
"Oh I'm sure you do." Yamato strolled up and gave his arm a gentle squeeze. "Muscle memory, you know."
Taichi desperately tried to ignore the jolts of heat and suggestion that simple touch shot throughout his body.
More importantly he made sure his eyes didn't meet with the molten honey pools that stared intently into his face now.
"I…Yea…"
Yamato smiled softly and let go, letting his hand fall harmlessly to his side and moving back to the CD player, his hips swaying in an alluring way that made Taichi's cheeks even redder.
Damn, he blushed more than a schoolgirl!
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Owari
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Lucid: Ohhhhh, forgive me for all my horrible typos. They make themselves invisible and I can't see them! I even check THRICE! So…-sniffle- please overlook them -sniff-
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