I create awkward situations. I create stupid misunderstandings that destroy my frame of mind. As I sit here in my own world I reanalyze the sadness surging through my heart. It was my fault that I started to like him. It was my fault that I let myself be too... What's the word Jackie. I can't explain why I act the way I do when someone new enters my heart. It's my inner mistakes. Maybe I'm too nice? I don't know what it is but somehow I always end up unhappy. I feel my friendship with two great people declining. I don't know why I feel the way I do I just do. I get very emotional, very sensitive and most of all very paranoid. I loved this world I was in, where I made no real friendship commitments, only to those who were truly loyal. But, that is my weakness. I try too hard to have a normal life, with normal friendships. I can't protect my innerself from those who don't deserve to see it. Although I have friends, although I know people, I feel this emptiness I can't seem to control. Emptiness which I cannot help but feel. Why is that? Why is that my heart always tries reaching out to others for affection and aknowledgement I truly don't know. Maybe my heart is my imperfection...