Summary: Veronica must decide whether to stand by her husband, the sheriff, or her first love, and brother, Duncan Kane as history repeats itself. Slightly AU future fic.

Spoilers: Anything in season 1 is fair.

Rating: PG-13/R for incest, mainly in later chapters.

Pairings: Veronica/Duncan, Veronica/Leo

Disclaimer: I don't own VM, and am in no way affiliated with those who do.

Chapter 1- Veronica

I sank weakly into a chair. I knew I should go into the office and work with Dad on the latest case, but I couldn't. I couldn't make my legs work. I couldn't keep my mind from playing through all the times I had spent with Lilly. Which lead into all the times I had spent with Duncan. The day I realized I had developed a crush on him, the day he asked me out, our first kiss. I knew that if the results of that paternity test had been different, I would most likely be Veronica Kane instead of Veronica D'Amato. It was ironic, that the test said I was a Kane, but I never called myself that. And if the test declared me Veronica Mars, the chances were good that I would become a Kane.

Leo is at the station, questioning Duncan. The first sign of the inevitable: Lilly's death pulling Duncan into our lives. The last place I want him, especially under circumstances that have me thinking of the way things were before our Lilly died. I had done so much to keep him far out of my life. I named my daughter Elinor Lillian instead of Lillian Elinor, because he told me that he and Meg wanted a baby. I thought he would want to name his daughter Lilly, and it would be too confusing to have two Lillies. I drifted away from Meg, so that I wouldn't have to see him.

The one thing I hadn't done to keep Duncan out of my life was keep Elly from him. Elly, my precious daughter, whom I couldn't deny anything. I couldn't deny her the chance to know the first man I loved, besides Dad. Or one of the few truly decent people in Neptune, his wife Meg. Meg, who had died just a year after her long-awaited daughter was born.

I barely heard the door creak open, and Elly come over to me.

"Mom?" she asked. I snapped my head up, and raised my teary eyes to her grey-blue ones, so like Duncan's, so unlike Leo's.

"Yes," I replied, trying to keep the tremor out of my voice. I needed to, at the very least, pretend to be strong for her.

"Can we go see Dad and Uncle Duncan at the station?" I hesitated, then nodded reluctantly.

Elly and I slipped into the police station like we have done so many times before.

"Mrs. D'Amato, your husband is questioning your brother," the new woman at the front desk informed me coldly. I don't know how she knew who I was, or what I'd done to deserve such a harsh tone. I'd never even seen her before. I nodded, and ushered Elly over to a bench where we could collapse. We leaned back against the wall, my arm around her, to get lost in our own sorrows.

"God, Veronica, why do you keep staring at my brother?" Lilly asked, following her best friend's gaze as they lounged by the pool.

"Please, I am not staring at Duncan," Veronica protested weakly.

"Oh my god, do you like him?" Lilly exclaimed. "You do! You like Donut!"

"Why would you say that?"

"Please, you've been staring at him, like, constantly for the past couple weeks. I can't believe I hadn't picked up on it before now! Well, he's tagging along on my date with Logan tonight. You can come too. It'll be like a double date."

"Really?"

"Of course. Donut really needs a girlfriend, and even if you could do, like, a million times better than him, if he's who you want, then he is who you shall have," she declared grandly, causing both of them to dissolve into giggles.

Even with the sick feeling that accompanies it, that is one of my favorite memories of Lilly. She was so alive, so determined to have fun, and make everyone around her have fun, too. It was the good side of her, the only side I liked to think about. Even the churning feeling I get when I remember how in love with Duncan I was doesn't compare to the gut-wrenching feeling I get when I think of my best friend having sex with her boyfriend's father and stealing the tapes.

"Veronica," Leo said, snapping me out of my reverie as he ran to me, followed by a ghostlike Duncan. I ran to him, and threw myself into his arms, sobbing into his shoulder. I was vaguely aware of Elly going to Duncan.