OMG Kendel wrote a new story.

So this is a fairly standard fic, picking up where season 2 left off. And I know that everyone has one of these but I SWEAR TO GOD that mine is different. SERIOUSLY. I promise. It will just take me a few chapters to get them going in the direction that I want them, but OMG. Anyway, the chapters are rather short at the beginning so... it will move quickly.

Also I ma an Addek writer, but if they don't want to be together, they won't be. That's just the way it is.

This chapter is called...Ending Start and it is by Metric... if anyone cares.

Enjoy

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All this that is more than a wish is a memory

All this that is ceases to be

All is revealed

The obvious door opens nothing

Nothing, nothing, nothing left

Nothing left to chance

When you try to see, we'll watch you

When you try to leave, we'll keep you

When you should be dreaming, we'll wake you

But don't scream, we'll make you swallow your words

Gave them our explosions, our reactions, all that was ours

For graphs of passion and charts of stars

Fave them our reactions, our explosions all that we are

For graphs of passion and charts of stars

How ending starts

Ending starts with answers

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Meredith closed her eyes and braced herself. She was tired. More then anything she wanted this day to be over.

She opened her eyes, then blinked quickly to hold back the tears.

"I'm sorry," she began, "I'm sorry..." she grasped for something to say, "...about Doc. I know you loved him."

Derek's head fell forward.

Meredith took a few steps forward and kissed him lightly on the cheek, "He was a good dog," she whispered.

She turned to Finn, a watery smile on her face, " Can you take me home now?"

Meredith felt Finn's arm go around her waist as they walked. She had made the right decision. Finn made her happy. She could see herself with Finn, doing whatever he had planned. She still had those images of Derek, of being happy with Derek, but they were tainted now. They had become tainted the moment that Addison walked into the hospital, they had continued to disintegrate every time he picked his wife over her, every time she saw him look at his wife, every time something reaffirmed that they were working things out. Tonight was a mistake, she didn't want to be that person, that woman. The other woman.

She was better then second best.

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Addison stood in front of the mirror undoing her hair. If this day lasted much longer, well, she wasn't sure she could take it.

Derek walked into the room, their eyes met momentarily in the mirror before he walked quickly to the bank of lockers and grabbed both their coats.

"Let's go to Joe's."

Addison sighed, "Not tonight Derek."

"Addison," Derek voice was hard and cold, "I need a drink."

Addison leaned forward heavily on the sink, "Fine," she turned and walked briskly to him, grabbing her jacket and heading out the door.

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Meredith and Finn sat silently in his black pickup truck. She leaned her head against the head rest then rolled it towards Finn.

"Come in," she invited quietly.

"Nah," he smiled at her, "You go in and take care of your friend. I'll come pick you up in the morning and we'll have breakfast before work."

She sighed, "Now I want you to come in more,"

Finn laughed and leaned over to kiss her. She returned the kiss tentatively.

"I don't want to be alone tonight."

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Derek followed Addison into Joe's and headed straight to a back table while Addison headed to the bar.

Derek ran both hands through his hair then stared down at the table. Glancing up he saw Addison standing at the bar, her back to him waiting for their drinks. Her head was turned and she was watching something further down the bar. Derek followed her line of sight until he reached Callie Torres who was not so discreetly glaring at him.

His body stiffened and his eyes drifted back to his wife. Her body had turned slightly and she was now watching him. He looked back down to the table.

A few moments later Addison set a glass down in front of him, but he didn't look up. He picked up the glass and gulped down half it's contents. He expected some sort of comment from her, but she remained silent.

"Addison..." Derek began.

Addison just raised an eyebrow and glanced at her husband.

And he lost his nerve, draining the rest of his drink.

"Would you like another drink?"

Addison sighed, "I'll get them."

Addison made her way through the bar. It was crowded. Many of the hospital staff had decided to continue the prom party at Joe's. She arrived at the bar and stood beside Callie as she waited.

Callie glanced at Addison, then glared at Derek, before returning to her drink. Addison sighed and took a sip of her drink while she waited for Derek's. She glanced at Derek, then back at Callie who was watching her.

"I am not an idiot, Dr.Torres," Addison said picking up Derek's drink, "And I am not blind."

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Meredith, in her most comfortable pajama's, stood at the door way to Izzie's room. Izzie was curled up in the fetal position clutching a pillow. She had fallen asleep quickly, but Meredith didn't expect it to last long.

When they had arrived home Izzie was in a daze. She wouldn't respond when people spoke to her, and she just sat there and stared straight ahead as Meredith changed her into pajama's. As she had finished George had arrived in the doorway.

"I'll finish putting her to bed," he had said quietly.

Meredith nodded and moved to the doorway, intending to change out of her formal dress. She'd paused at the door and looked back. George was kneeling in front of Izzie with a warm washcloth, gently washing away the traces of tears and what was left of her make up.

How had they survived without him?

"Hey," Finn came up behind her and draped a blanket over her shoulders.

Meredith fought the urge to lean back against him. She didn't deserve a guy like Finn.

"She loved him so much," Meredith whispered, "And she barely even knew him."

Finn ran his hand up and down her arm, stopping at her elbow, "Sometimes it happens like that."

Meredith gave in and leaned back against him. He was solid and strong, and soft and comfy all that the same time.

"She'll be okay."

Meredith watched Izzie sleep, praying that she would sleep through the night. It was better then being awake. "How'd you get to be so smart?"

Finn chuckled and placed his hands on her shoulders and steered her towards her open bedroom door, "I'm not scary and damaged for nothing."

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Addison and Derek were still sitting in Joe's. Derek had gone through more drinks then he cared to think about. Addison had just sat there silently. Although the bar was crowded, no one really bothered them. People assumed that they wanted to be alone. They assumed right, but they assumed for the wrong reasons.

Callie had been watching them for over an hour. She knew what was going on, but she was confused by there actions. They were sitting close together, Callie attributed this to habit. That she could explain, kind of. What she couldn't explain was why Derek had reached over and wrapped his hand gently around Addison's forearm, or why she had, after a moment, put her hand over his.

But what happened next left Callie speechless.

Derek leaned back in his chair, and looked straight at his wife. His eyes were slightly bloodshot and he was clearly drunk. He leaned over and whispered something to Addison. She shook her head and took another drink. He leaned in again, but this time Addison indicated the number of glasses littering the table. A number of people smirked at Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd clearly informing her husband that a very large quantity of alcohol had been consumed.

That was the normal part. Then came the strange part.

Addison sighed heavily as her obviously drunk husband stood from the table and walked a few feet away and turned to face her again. Addison drained her glass and walked over to where her husband was standing amidst a few dancing couples. She stopped in front of him and reluctantly allowed him to wrap his arms around her. She stood there, her hands barely resting on his upper arms as he slumped against her, countless glasses of scotch and the events of the day clearly catching up with him.

"Are they dancing?" Callie demanded, staring at Joe and resisting the urge to throw her glass across the bar,

"Well, he is trying too," Joe replied, pouring her another drink, "She just looks annoyed."

"Clearly she is intoxicated," Callie murmured as Derek buried his face in Addison's shoulder and she reluctantly wrapped her arms around him and pulled him closer, running her fingers through his hair.

Joe looked at them curiously, "She's been drinking water."

Callie stared at him, "People are stupid," she exclaimed and she drained her glass again, "Stupid."

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"I got Doc right before Christmas," Meredith whispered into the darkness. She was laying in bed, on top of the covers facing Finn. Finn's position mirrored hers. They had been like that for a awhile now. Just laying silently, watching each other in the light that came from the hall, Meredith having left the door open so she could hear Izzie if she woke up, "Izzie and I went together, and as soon as we saw him we knew that he was the one. He was just perfect you know?"

Meredith pulled the throw from the bottom of the bed up around her shoulders. "We had both given up on men and thought that a dog would solve all our problems. But it didn't really work." Meredith held up the corner of the blanket, inviting Finn to move closer and share it with her, which he did, but still they did not touch, "Doc is... was... completely destructive. He's kinda like me, breaking everything that he touches."

Finn laughed gently.

"But he got to be to much and he went to Derek. And after that, he was fine. He destroyed everything while he was here, and he went there and..." Meredith voice broke,"... it's not fair." Meredith looked away, "It was just one more thing that ... I know that I am completely irrational, but," Meredith smiled slightly, "I am pretty sure he liked Addison better."

Finn smiled too at her admission, "Doc lit-up when you were around, he loved you."

"He didn't destroy her shoes."

Finn laughed, reaching over to pull her towards him.

"Thank you," Meredith whispered, forcing herself to relax in his arms and push away some of the guilt she was feeling.

"What for?"

"For not pushing the Derek issue. He was the reason that I got Doc in the first place, " Meredith felt Finn's body stiffen beside her, "So with everything that has happened, with Derek and me and with Doc, it means allot to me that your not..."

"Being nosey? Even though right now it is taking all myself control not to pester you for details."

Meredith laughed, "Exactly," she rolled back over onto her back, "But I will tell you. Someday."

"Good," Finn mumbled against her hair as he kissed her temple. "Now go to sleep."

Meredith turned her face a bit towards his and concentrated on the sound of his breathing, "Today sucked," she murmured sleepily.

"Tomorrow will be better," Finn replied, almost asleep.

"I hope so," Meredith whispered as flashes of Derek flew threw her mind as she drifted into an uneasy sleep.

"Meredith? Mer!"

Meredith shook herself awake.

"Meredith?"

"George?" Meredith propped herself up on her elbow.

"I have to go get Callie."

"Callie?"

"Ya, she is down at Joe's," George whispered, "Umm, Izzie is still sleeping but she is starting to toss and turn, so..."

"Okay," Meredith slide out of bed, and padded out into the hall, "So, umm...Callie," she said when she got in the hall, "Are you bringing her here?"

George looked at her oddly, "Probably. Why?"

"I was just thinking of Izzie."

George nodded, "It will be fine. Callie and Izzie will probably sleep most of tomorrow anyway. Oh, and Alex is asleep on our couch."

"Perfect," Meredith whispered to herself as George walked away, "Perfect."

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Addison clutched her pillow and stared at the ceiling. Derek was in the shower. He had been showering for the last 45 minutes. Addison sighed and turned on her side away from Derek's side of the bed.

She used to take long showers like that.

When he climbed in bed 10 minutes later his skin was red and she could feel the heat still radiating off of him.

"That was a long hot shower," Addison commented, bitterness creeping into her voice.

Derek ignored the comment, "Did you have a good time at the prom?"

"At first."

They were silent along time, neither of them getting any closer too sleep.

"You asked me to prom Derek. You asked me."

"I know."

Another long silence filled the trailer.

Addison sighed, "I miss Doc."

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So there is the first chapter. I am assuming that it didn't do exactly as you expected, in particular Addison and Derek. As you may have noticed, Addison hasn't killed Derek dispite having a fairly good idea of what happend, and Derek is actually sticking pretty close to her. Strange non? Well I plan on adressing that in the next two chapters, but the end of prom night seemed the logical place to stop chapter 1.

So as always, Review. If you send questions I tend to reply with answers. Cause I have no life. Maybe I'll post chapter 2 tomorrow, it's mostly written.