Sorry for the wait. I am sick and retardedly busy. And I have to get up in 5 hours. Go Team.

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"I don't know what to tell you," Addison told Meredith, "I am absolutely stumped." She sighed, "I guess... " she shook her head and stared at the chart, "Do everything. Order every test you can think of. If we haven't already done it, do it. We have to figure out what is going on by the end of the..."

"Adda!"

Addison turned in confusion.

"Adda! Adda! Addaaaaa!"

Addison's face lit up, "Caleb!"

Meredith watched as Addison embraced a petite brunette and happily took a squirming little boy out of her arms.

"Jenny, what are you doing here?"

"Well all our doctors moved to Seattle. By the way, thank you, two screaming kids on a plane with popping ears..."

"Two?"

Jenny smiled, "A little girl, Meggie. Delivered by the second best, I might add."

"Dr. Shepherd," Meredith interrupted.

"Meredith, I'm sorry, this is Jenny Matthew's." she introduced, "And this is her son Caleb," Caleb's face was buried in Addison shoulder, "Caleb is a patient of Derek, so you might be working with him later on. Jenny this is Dr. Meredith Grey. She's..." Addison paused, "... interested inn neuro-surgery."

Meredith nodded to Jenny, "Dr. Shepherd, I need your signature so I can order those tests."

Addison quickly scrawled her name and turned back to the little boy,"Now Caleb," Addison said once Meredith had left, "Let me take a look at you."

"He knew your voice as soon as he heard you, I hadn't even seen you yet. I think he missed visiting you."

Addison smiled and coaxed the little boy to look at her. She gasped slightly when her turned his face to her for the first time. He was blind.

"He lost his eyesight about 3 months ago. Just over the course of a few weeks and it was completely gone. Now his hearing is starting to go, his organs are failing..." Jenny smiled sadly at her son, "The doctors in New York say they can't do anything."

"Jenny, I'm sorry."

"We came to see Derek. He's our last hope"

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Derek stood at the window looking into the small pediatric waiting room.

"Hey," Meredith said joining him, "Bad news?"

Derek sighed, "Nothing they don't know. His brain is shutting down. It's barely even sending even the most basic signals to the rest of his body. He's motor functions have decreased dramatically since the last time I saw him, his speech is slurred. The part of his brain that tells him to cough or sneeze has almost no brain activity... There is nothing I can do."

"You can't operate?"

"I can if they want. Put there is almost no chance to him surviving."

"That's to bad."

"Do you want on the case?" Derek offered, "Caleb is a very special little boy."

"Thanks. But I am pretty swamped with Addison's case," Meredith looked through the glass, "Do you know when she will be available?"

Derek watched Addison for a moment. She was sitting cross legged on the floor, her shoes kicked to the side. She was holding a toddler on her lap and playing with Caleb while chatting with his parents who sat nearby.

"Caleb's mother was a patient of Addison's," Derek told Meredith, "Addison delivered Caleb, she's been his doctor longer then I have. She isn't anymore, but she is still close with them."

Meredith nodded, "Well when you are done could you tell her I need to speak with her?"

Derek nodded and turned back to the window.

"Derek?"

Derek turned back to her.

"Do you want to have dinner tonight?"

Derek smiled, "Ya, sure."

Meredith smiled back, "Great."

Derek entered the room and knelt down by Addison, "And who is this?" he asked, placing a hand gently on the little girls head.

"This is Meggie," Addison introduced, noticing the strain on his face.

"De, De, De," Caleb stammered, moving wildly in Derek's direction.

"Hey! Little Man!" Derek swung Caleb up into his arms, "Let's go talk to Mom and Dad."

"We know what you are going to say Derek," Jenny said before Derek could even sit down, "We know the risks but," she exchanged looks with her husband, "We want him to have the surgery. And we want you to do it."

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"Derek?" Addison said softly closing the door behind her.

"I can't do this Add." Derek paced up and down the room. "He will not survive another surgery, I can't do it. I can't."

"Derek you can. He won't survive without it."

Derek shook his head, "I can't be responsible for killing that little boy."

"Derek," Addison soothed. stepping close and running her hands softly over his arms, "They just want you to try."

Derek shook his head,Unexpectedly he reached out and wrapped his arms around her, burying his face in her neck,

Addison tensed for a moment, he held her so tight she couldn't breath. She could feel his heart beating rapidly against her chest. As he relaxed his hold, she sighed and rested her chin against his shoulder, eventually turning her head so her face was close to his.

His hands slowly ran over her back softly down her sides to her hips and back up.

"Derek," she murmured pulling away slightly, "It's a bad idea.

"I know," he whispered, his hands never stalling.

"Your sure this is what you need?"

Derek nodded, "I need you."

"Okay," she whispered, "Okay."

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I will take care of you

the very best that I can

With all of the love here in my heart

and all of the strength in my hands

Your every joy I'll share

for every tear i'll be there

my whole life through

I will take care of you

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Addison lay on her side, staring at the call room wall. She wasn't quite sure what to think.

The past hour had not gone as she expected. She thought that Derek just needed to get out some stress and emotions. She expected that the sex would reflect that. But it hadn't. Instead it was as if Derek had needed her to take care of him and to hold him more then he had needed to, well,... Addison was expecting that Derek wanted to use her for sex.

But if he had been, he would have pulled away long ago. They wouldn't be laying here now, side by side, his arm still around her waist.

"Is it wrong that I wish they hadn't followed us here?"

Addison considered this. She rested her cheek in her palm and look down at Derek, "You love him. You watched him grow up."

Derek sighed and turned his head, staring intently at her shoulder.

"I don't know Derek. What if they had gone to someone else?" Addison kept her body propped up on her elbow but moved her hand down to smooth his hair out of her face "It's hard but, Caleb stands the best chance having you as his doctor."

"I never really minded that we didn't have kids," Derek confessed, "We had kids like Caleb. For me that was enough."

Addison smiled, "We are doctors, not parents."

Derek nodded, "I can't be responsible for letting one of our kids die."

"Then be responsible for helping him live."

Derek cracked a smile, "Add, that was corny."

"But you smiled," She eased as her pager went off. Addison rolled on to her back and reached blindly for her pager. "Richard," she read. She sighed, "He can wait."

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"Meredith," Derek approached her looking somewhat disheveled, "I'm going to have to cancel dinner."

"Okay..." Meredith turned to follow him as he walked right past her.

"Sorry," he apologized, turning around and walking backwards so he could continue talking to her, "Caleb's surgery is tonight."

"That's ok," Meredith called after him, "Did you tell Addison I'm looking for her?"

"No sorry," Derek replied, "I forgot."

"Well have you seen her? I can't find her."

"Ummm, she's around her somewhere," he replied vaguely as he turned a corner.

Meredith rolled her eyes and went back to the labs she was reviewing.

"McDreamy canceled? That sucks," Cristina commented from nearby,

Meredith shrugged, "It's okay. I'll just go to the gym."

"The gym?"

"Yes. The gym. I am taking a pilates class."

"Right. What's his name?"

"It increasing flexibility and over all good heath.:"

"I'm sure it does, What's his name?"

Meredith relented, "Mike."

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"You ready?"

Derek shook his head.

"It's what they want."

"They want a miracle."he argued.

"Maybe they'll get one."

Derek shook his head and leaned against the wall, "I don't want you to be there."

"What?" Addison asked in surprise.

"I don't want you to scrub in and I don't want you to observe."

"Why?"

"If he... when he..." Derek paused, "I don't want you to be there. I don't want you to see it..."

"Okay," Addison agreed slowly, "I'll sit with Jenny and Rick."

"Thank you."

"Hey," Addison wrapped her hand around his wrist, "Your the best."

Derek pulled away and entered the scrub room, "You better start praying for that miracle."

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Addison buried her face in her hands. It had been 4 hours. They should have heard something by now, at least gotten an update.

She looked up when she heard the soft squeak of sneakers on tile.

It was George O'Malley.

He shook his head slightly.

Damnit.

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I don't know. I really don't. I mean, this is the direction that I decided to take the character when i first started writing this fic, but sometimes I doubt my decision.

I don't think they know what they are getting themselves into.

And for the record, Derek isn't really cheating on Meredith. She told him to see other people. And he is just random;y sleeping with Addison.

This chapter depressed me. And The Sex kinda creeped me out. I was actually uncomfortable with it. But At the same time I lo ved it cause it shows how screwed up and flawed their relationship is. So mostly LOVE.

Review.