So this is love – Chapter 2: The key to all heaven is mine
---
A/N: Konnichi-waaaaa:D I'm glad I got more hits and alerts on this piece here and thanks to all the people who reviewed in the last chapter! This chapter's for you :3 …here's the 2nd chapter of my fanfic. Hope you like it! R&R please! ♥
I'm sorry about the long update. ;;) My darn computer was broken for a little while, but now it's fixed! Yay! claps
Thanks to all the people who alerted and reviewed in the earlier chapter. I really appreciate it :D
Summary: Ritsuka and Soubi have been in love with each other for a long time, each passing event holding their bond together even stronger. But something disturbs Ritsuka that makes him suspicious… SxR, Yaoi, Shounen-ai
!DISCLAIMER!
Loveless© does not belong to me! (Too bad xD)
!WARNINGS!
Yaoi, shounen-ai, male pairings, homosexuality, etc… need I say more:3
….oO0Oo….
…Soubi-kun…
Ritsuka thought to himself sheepishly. He couldn't get much sleep after that night. He received very few messages from him. And yet, he still loved him… too much.
…Damn it, Soubi. I hate this, I hate hating you… And yet I hate the idea of you actually… Damn it… I hate it all!
The young boy placed his hand over his mouth and yawned and drooped back to his desk. He couldn't even concentrate on staring at the board, yet if ever he'd look outside, a certain pink-haired nosy seatmate would ask what's wrong.
He'd yawn every now and then; he'd see from the corner of his eye that Yuiko would take a small glance at Ritsuka, he knows that she thinks something. He'd fall asleep every now and then, jerking his head back up when he's awake or even half-awake.
"…Ritsuka-kun… Ritsuka-kun…" heard Ritsuka, I must be thinking too much again… I think I'm hearing my own name…
"RITSUKA-KUN!" said Shinonome-sensei, snapping Ritsuka back to his senses; a sudden shock ran through his spine and his teacher's eyes filled with long-termed irritation, "I've been calling you for the 15th time now… Are you feeling ok? You might faint like that other time…"
"…I'm fine, sensei. I'll listen to the lecture this time, I'm sorry…" Ritsuka said his head set down. Shinonome-sensei heard the sadness in his voice and sighed gently, "…Ritsuka-kun" she said "…don't let me catch you again okay?" She then smiled and went back to the board.
Ritsuka then sat down on his seat and rested his chin on his hand. "Ritsuka-kun" Yuiko whispered at his side "…you sure you're okay?"
"…I am. Don't worry…" he told her, Yuiko still had some disbeliefs but she still went back to listening to the lecture. I guess it's something personal she thought.
Dismissal.
Everyone seems happy. All elementary students are out running freely with their friends, either to go out to have some fun or just hang out at some diner. All the boys were talking of either sports or games. The girls were just talking of… you know, girly stuff.
Ritsuka quietly placed his text books and note books inside his bag. Yuiko, while turning her head from the forever-desperate Yayoi every now and then, still has some suspicions ringing inside her head.
"…Ritsuka-kun" Yuiko said as she calmly walked towards Ritsuka, Yayoi in the background, thinking 'Notice me, Yuiko! I'm sad!'
"…What's wrong?" Ritsuka replied.
"O-oh nothing, I was just wondering if you would like to err…" Yuiko looked around, trying to find an excuse or something to cheer the love of her life up "…H-hang out with Yayoi-kun and me! You see, there's this new ice cream shop and--"
"Its okay, Yuiko-chan, I have to help mom at home anyways…" Ritsuka quickly lied. He didn't like lying to his friends, but what other choice does he really have? Another fighting pair or Soubi might appear wherever he might go, there's always a possibility. Ritsuka then hauled his bag over his shoulder then walked away from the odd couple, "…have fun, though, both of you"
"…Ritsuka-kun…" escaped from the pink-haired girl's mouth. Ritsuka had left the room.
"…Uh, Yuiko-chan, so where's this new ice cream place you were talking about?" Yayoi said with a very, very happy and wide smile, beaming with happiness. Yuiko turned around to see the shorter person with high hopes of actually going. '…Oh, great how am I supposed to…?'
Ritsuka walked out of the school buildings as calm as he could, but he couldn't shake that feeling that… he missed someone and he wanted to see him badly. Was it because of Soubi?
Whatever it is, he ran faster and faster with every heart beat he felt against his chest. He reached outside the school gates soon to find out that… No one was really there.
"Heh… Why was I even running…? It's not like…" Ritsuka whispered to himself and started walking towards the direction of his house with his head down.
Just as soon as Ritsuka was as far as his eyes could see, Soubi emerged from his hiding place and whispered to himself, "Ritsuka-kun…"
"Soubi-kun?" he heard. He turned his head quickly to the voice of a tall, young woman with pink hair and a shorter one tailing right behind her. "It is you!" she smiled, "…Ritsuka-kun just left a little while ago, something must be wrong with him…"
Soubi's expression changed to an even more depressing mood, a gloomy aura surrounded him greatly. Yuiko tilted her head slightly "…Do you uhh… know what's wrong with… Ritsuka-kun…?"
She then felt a light tug at her shirt, she turned to see Yayoi make a puppy-face "…The ice-cream place…"
"—Yayoi-kun! I was talking to Soubi! Ne, Sou--" she turned her head back to see that he was gone "—bi? …Where'd he go?"
"I dunno… let's go!" Yayoi then dragged her away from the school, "If you think that place is great, wait 'till you get to this place, it's got thousands and thousands of strawberry flavors!"
(Back at the Aoyagi's Residence…)
Ritsuka dug inside his pockets, trying to find the extra pair of house keys his mother left him, since she likes to lock the door a lot. He dug out lots of candy wrappers, shreds of bright and plain colors of papers, then finally, his keys.
"Finally…" he smiled to himself, as he looked at the shiny object; something on the ground caught his eye unintentionally. It was a picture of him and Soubi in the park the first day they met. The first time they kissed… it was unexpected by Ritsuka, but in truth, he liked it… Soubi's warm lips that touched his own every once in a while… his warm touch.
Ritsuka shook his head to get rid of the memories and images being processed. "Yeah right" he said to himself sarcastically as he hid the photograph in his back pocket. He unlocked the front door and walked inside, took off his shoes and walked immediately to his room and dropped onto his bed like a dead log. A few seconds afterwards, he heard a light knock on the door.
"Ritsuka-kun, are you there? You want a snack or anything?" he heard his mother say.
"No, Mom. I don't feel good…" he responded.
"Are you sick?"
"No, Mom… Just… leave me alone…"
There was a long silence. Ritsuka heard her run downstairs, shouting and breaking things again. He dug his whole head inside his pillow and gave a small chuckle, "Heh… My whole life's a living hell…" and tears stung his eyes.
"I hate you so much… I hate this feeling of confusion… I have to know…"
He got out his phone and started pressing the buttons simultaneously, a few seconds letter he pressed the button "SEND", and the message now drifting within space to… someone rather unexpected.
Beep-beep… beep-beep…
"Mm? Who could that be?" the blonde said, turning his head away from his project, his multiple earrings shining brightly in his studio. He got out his phone from his bag and opened up the message.
"What the? It's that Aoyagi brat!" Kio said, his jaw dropping, the heat tension rising up to his head, "…'meet…me…in…the…gate of the zoo… tomorrow… at noon…'…What the? Who does he think he is! I have a schedule to follo—" he then looked at his calendar, he was free that Saturday, "—ooooooow… Eh, what the heck…"
Kio then pressed on his phone's buttons, replying to the little neko, "It's probably another outing with Soubi-kun and the others anyways…"
"…Okay, with this, I'll have the answers… If not all, then most, at least…" Ritsuka said after receiving Kio's reply. He laid himself down on his bed and closed his eyes, yet it seemed like forever until he could actually get any sleep…
Ritsuka's fighter was standing outside, watching him for a little while now. Soubi slowly entered the sacrifice's room with gentle steps as to not wake his loved one. The only noise he could hear was the faint breathing of the younger one. His mouth opening and closing, sometimes mumbling words so weakly he couldn't make out what he was saying. Ritsuka's chest rising and falling to the cadence of his breathing, it made Soubi adore him ever more…
He does look like his brother... he thought …he has his attractiveness, but Ritsuka-kun is more charming than that… he's so endearing… He went closer to the younger one's face and breathed in his scent, he wanted to touch his cheek, he wanted to feel his lips… his warmth, at least… He was millimeters away from his sacrifice's cheek when he heard him mumble something…
"Soubi… kun…" he said and grumbled something else. Soubi leaned in closer, "What did you say, Ritsuka-kun?" he saw Ritsuka's eyelashes flutter and open a little bit, thinking he woke him up he moved back a little. But Ritsuka was half-asleep. Good…
"…I love you…" Ritsuka said in a low voice "…but you love Onii-san more, I can tell. You look… distant sometimes… when I talk to you… you say you love me, but you visit his grave much more than you visit me…"
Soubi's eyes widened. He opened his mouth to speak, but he couldn't say anything. There was something caught up in his throat that he couldn't utter anything at all. It was all true, when he had enough time he would go and visit his former Sacrifice's grave, he may not have shown it but he was crying… on the inside at least. He gave off a small chuckle.
"…Ritsuka…" Soubi's face went in close again to Ritsuka's, tears were starting to flow. He didn't know what to say—well, what do you say when the one you love the most denies your own love for him, do you reject his opinion or accept it. Either way, deep within Soubi's own subconscious mind, maybe he did love Aoyagi Seimei more than Ritsuka, maybe he was using the young one without him knowing, maybe in some twisted way he did miss Seimei more than anything. But he doesn't know… all he wants right now was to hug or kiss the younger version of Seimei and tell him how much he means to him and tell him that he loves him and that his brother's death was a loss to all people who knew him—especially Soubi, because he was his fighter and his sacrifice was erased from the world.
Yet he leaned closer, not saying all the strange things he was thinking. He whispered a very sincere "I love you" and kissed Ritsuka lightly, the warmth making his tears flow from his eyes even more, one drop landing upon his dear one's cheek.
"Soubi!" Ritsuka said, upon realizing he felt his fighter's presence, awakening to a somehow sweet memory, he felt Soubi's tear run down his cheek "…was I crying?", wiping the tear out, he pulled the covers over him again and tried to sleep again. I could have sworn he was here… it's probably just a dream...
"…I still hate you, Soubi…"
oO0Oo
A/N: Phew… talk about writer's block, with a broken computer and school all at the same time. :3 I'll try to update soon. ; School's been a real wreck for me. ;; Hope you liked it!