Well, I'm so sorry that I couldn't update faster. You see, fanfiction isn't working at my house, so it took me forever to find another computer and post this chapter. I had is done for so long and I really wanted to post it. I had to re-space the whole thing over again! *sighs*
Well, this isn't the great chapter that i was talking about, I'm pretty sure I can fit it in the next chapter. Now this is a song fic, by the group Good Charlotte, it's their new cd and the song is called "Hold On" (off their new cd song 8) and I think it goes well with this chapter, I hope you think so too.
I don't own Dragonball Z or "Hold On"
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Hidden Bars
"Hold On"
It started to rain
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This world, this world is cold
But you don't have to go
You're feeling sad You're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mother's gone
And your father hits you
This pain that you cannot bare
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AJ flew over to the young saiyan. It was her fault that Gohan beat the living shit out of her. She felt so bad, just image how he felt right now. She could feel his pain flowing threw her veins.
In some weird way, she felt mad at herself. Now why should she go around helping this young soul when she had her own problems? AJ has been beaten, put against her will, been shamed, and other forms of abuse after her mother died, Gohan and AJ were just the same.
She hissed at herself, feeling this way made her feel like crap. Gohan had it ten times worst, she knew it, though she couldn't help to complain. Though, there had to be a reason. Why is Gohan in her life, she had to find the answer to that. Maybe after all these years of her life meaning nothing, it meant something. In some weird twist of fate.
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But we all bleed the same
Way as you do
We all have the same things
To go though
Hold on
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Gohan sighed, calming himself down after the cry he just had. It was sickening, the way he beat on her, the way he hit her, the way she begged for him to stop, but he didn't listen. He was this demon, that he didn't even know about.
Gohan shouldn't have tested himself. Like he could ever fight in a play full way anymore. Why would he want to any ways? That was the question that stuck in his mind for as long as he could remember. He saw the way Vanlash and the others "played". Was he slowly becoming them? Will his eyes be fulled with hate and blood? Was he starting to become the villain of the story? The one who will grab fate from the ones who have it and rip it into a million pieces.
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If you feel like letting go
Hold on
It gets better than you know
Your days you say
They're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all
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The thing about Gohan though, that he couldn't move on. Sure AJ herself has been in some binds, but she still forms a smile some of the time. Well, only around her sister. Maybe that is who she had, her little sister.
Mikia was the only person that she could ever trust. And the only one who could have a form of link with her. Other then Gohan.
Why was Gohan able to break her? AJ found herself weak against the half-breed. She never knew such a person lived in this world.
A person who could make her smile, yet, the person who can make her cry the most.
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And you're no sure what
You're looking for
But you don't want to no more
And you're not sure What you're waiting for
But you don't want it no more
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Gohan looked at his scar across his wrist again. Maybe it would be a good idea to try that again, before he hurts someone dear to him.
Like AJ.
Gohan couldn't look at AJ without his heart beating with great speed. AJ just had that way to make him stronger. Every time AJ touched him. He felt something inside of him.
That he liked.
That he could not understand one bit.
Gohan wished that he was able to control this force that was inside of him. He wished that he could touch AJ with his two hands, without pain or fear. And he wasn't able to hide that feeling inside of him.
The feeling that he didn't know could come out of his painful heart
He loved AJ.
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But we all bleed the
Same way as you do
We all have the same things
To go thought
Hold on
If you feel like letting go
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AJ landed, she could sense Gohan right ahead. She wanted to walk, so she can think about this. About Gohan, about that fight, about herself.
Everyone who had eyes could see it. That something about Gohan made her not able to control herself. Something about Gohan that she just wanted to keep on touching, keep on searching for that mystery.
AJ thought if over many times, it wasn't love, it couldn't be. AJ couldn't love, it wasn't in her nature. And how could it be in Gohan's? Not even Mikia knew the whole story of her older sister. The future queen had suffered far more then that. Everything that Mikia knew would only be a joy ride.
AJ wanted to take her time, for her, she needed to think what to say to Gohan. She knew, nothing in the world could make him feel better.
And she didn't know how she knew that, she could just feel it.
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Hold on
It gets better
Then you know
Don't stop looking
You're one step closer.
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As the rain kept on pouring, Gohan just sat where he was. Against the wall, and it felt like each drop was falling on the teenager. Gohan cried again, he couldn't win her heart. She couldn't look at him more then this thing. This freak that just happen to drop by at the right time to become a baby sitter for the youngest Princess.
Gohan then, sensed AJ coming up to him, his head shot right up, looking at where he would see this Princess.
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Don't stop searching
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Out of the trees and bushes came AJ. She was wet just as much as Gohan. She looked like she was just fine after the fight between the two. She stood there, staring at the redden Gohan. Not able to speak, not able to move, she didn't know what she could say to have the soulless soul in front of her feel better.
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It's not over
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Gohan was still bleeding, but only a little bit. He was shaking all over, as he bit his lip, holding himself from crying in front of her. His face was red and puffy from crying so much. But his eyes, they almost seemed lifeless, full of fear and pity, full of pain from all the years, of the guilt and none self worth, and he wasn't even looking up at her. AJ knew, that more sadness would come out if he looked up.
AJ in the other hand, she looked worried. She stood there, with her helpless eyes upon Gohan. Her face was also a little red, her hair covering up her sadden face. AJ saw how Gohan wasn't trying to look at her, they both sighed, still not able to move.
"I'm sorry!"
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Hold on
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Both Gohan and AJ yelled at the same time, each moving a little closer to each other. Both nervous, both scared, both couldn't take their eyes off each other. AJ started walking out of the bushes as Gohan still sat down, looking at the ground. Flashbacks started to fill his mind, he tired to push them back but failed.
********Flashback*******
"Gohan get back here!"
Chi-chi yelled as Gohan was running away into the forest. It was raining, the 11 year Gohan didn't care. He couldn't handle it, another fight with his mother, it was starting to get out of hand. He kept on running, not looking back, although Chi-chi voice ran in his ears to turn around. Tears running down his cheeks, not understanding what was going on. Feelings of lost and betrayal fell over this saiyan.
Gohan kept on running, and he couldn't stop, nor did he want to. He came up to a hill, yet, that didn't stop him one bit. He started running down, faster then he was before. He had to run, from this monster behind him, chasing him, trying to clam him. And that monster was slowly winning.
Gohan tripped, rolling down what seemed an endless hill. Gohan didn't try to stop himself. He kept on falling, having every rock hit him on his way down. The saiyan could feel blood dripping from his body, though he didn't care. Tears flew along with the blood, as Gohan closed his eyes. Hoping that his fall would end soon. The cuts were getting dirty and infected. He seemed to getting new cuts every time he fell.
Then, Gohan hit a tree, and hard. Gohan hissed in pain, trying not to scream. That is when Gohan let all his tears fall, the tears that were inside of him right when the fighting started.
"What are you doing brat?"
Gohan looked up to see Vegeta, arms crossed as he looked down at the boy.
"I know damn well that you could have stopped yourself."
Gohan didn't answer back as he tired to get back up. He hissed again, trying to hide his pain as he sat back down. He was bleeding a lot, and his right leg had a very deep cut, he couldn't get up, not did he want to. Vegeta let out his hand.
"Get up."
Gohan stared at Vegeta's hand, not sure what the Prince was trying to get at. Why would Vegeta be here, why would Vegeta help Gohan?
"Why are you here?"
Gohan asked, looking up at Vegeta. Vegeta rolled his eyes, and kneed down at the boy.
"You saved my life, as the Prince of the Saiyans, I must thank you for that. For my race."
Gohan smiled, grabbing Vegeta's hand as he started standing up. Yet the lost of blood made him weak, and almost fell right over. Vegeta then carried Gohan and started walking away.
********End of Flashback******
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What are you looking for
What are you waiting for
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"Gohan?"
AJ asked as Gohan looked up at AJ, holding back the tears from that flashback. Gohan sighed, remembering that raining night, and he had a feeling, he would remember this one. AJ sat down next to Gohan, looking in front of her.
"I shouldn't have pressured you into that fight. I shouldn't have got you mad like that."
Gohan shook his head, looking away.
"You have no right to say you're sorry. It's my fault, and you know it."
Gohan hissed between his teeth. AJ bowed her head, feeling even more guilt then before.
"I shouldn't have tried... "
AJ shot her head up, looking at Gohan, who was looking ahead of him.
"I know better then that, the only way I can be controlled is threw the collar."
"Don't say that Gohan."
Gohan didn't look up, it didn't even seem like he hear her. AJ hissed, grabbing Gohan's shirt and pulling him to her.
"Why are you making me like this?"
AJ yelled, not letting go and staring straight into Gohan's eyes. Gohan looked back into hers, shocked by the question. Both seemed to be lost for a minute, looking into ones eyes, seeing the pain, happiness, their past, future, hopes, dreams. AJ shut her eyes, looking away from Gohan's. When all Gohan wanted to do is to look deeper into hers.
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Do you know what you are doing to me
Go ahead What are you looking for.
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"Tell me Gohan, why are you doing this to me. I've only known you more then a week. I feel weak around you! And I hate it."
Gohan didn't know what to say, AJ didn't let go of Gohan. She held him, closer to her face, waiting Gohan to answer her.
"I love you."
Gohan whispered, knowing that he shouldn't have said that, knowing the answer to what he just said. He had a better chance of hiding any emotions but this, this feeling, he couldn't control.
AJ eyes widen, she wasn't expecting that answer, though, she had to admit it made her feel good...
NO! AJ knew what would happened if she loved, he would just run away. Not taking her, breaking her heart. No one loved her, everyone hated her! If she was "loved" no one would be throwing rocks at her, calling her a bitch, beating her, teasing her, killing her slowly inside.
And if Gohan did love her, he wouldn't of done what he had done that day. Now that fight hurt her most inside. If Gohan did love her, he wouldn't of done that. He would be holding her, whispering those words into her ear, kissing her, knowing her. Everything that lovers did. Love and AJ didn't go together. AJ and hope crashed to the ground along with her mother's dying body. AJ felt pain flowing threw her, by that answer that Gohan gave her, made her want to cry. Made her want to run.
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Hold on If you feel like letting go
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AJ let go of Gohan, moving a little ways from him. Gohan looked at her, now it was her turn to answer him. The Princess slapped Gohan across the face. As AJ slapped him, all his hopes, dreams, a chance flew away. Gohan turned his head back to AJ, holding his cheek.
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Hold on
It gets better then you know
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AJ was shaking, red in the face, and angry. How could Gohan make fun of her like that?
"Fuck you Gohan. How can you play such a trick."
AJ started walking away, when Gohan got up and grabbed her wrist.
The funny thing about that, Gohan's wrist with his scar, caught AJ's wrist with her own scar. Each saw this, and were shocked. Surprised that the other tired the same cruel fate. They couldn't say anything, both sides could feel the pain of each cut running to them.
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Don't stop looking
Your once step closer
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Gohan though, was the first to let go, tears running down his soft cheeks. At the same time, both ran. Both couldn't take the feeling that they felt deep within themselves. Both couldn't handle their eyes, their past, their scars. They were scared of the out come, scared if both could truly love each other.
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Don't stop searching it's not over
Hold on
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I really like that one line I wrote in the beginning
"...Was he slowly becoming them? Will his eyes be fulled with hate and blood? Was he starting to become the villain of the story? The one who will grab fate from the ones who have it and rip it into a million pieces."
I don't know what is up with that line, but I love the meaning of it! I'm so proud of that quote! Well, sorry for the long update, but please review.
~*~super-saiyan-monkey~*~
Well, this isn't the great chapter that i was talking about, I'm pretty sure I can fit it in the next chapter. Now this is a song fic, by the group Good Charlotte, it's their new cd and the song is called "Hold On" (off their new cd song 8) and I think it goes well with this chapter, I hope you think so too.
I don't own Dragonball Z or "Hold On"
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Hidden Bars
"Hold On"
It started to rain
------------------------------------------
This world, this world is cold
But you don't have to go
You're feeling sad You're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mother's gone
And your father hits you
This pain that you cannot bare
--------------------------------------------
AJ flew over to the young saiyan. It was her fault that Gohan beat the living shit out of her. She felt so bad, just image how he felt right now. She could feel his pain flowing threw her veins.
In some weird way, she felt mad at herself. Now why should she go around helping this young soul when she had her own problems? AJ has been beaten, put against her will, been shamed, and other forms of abuse after her mother died, Gohan and AJ were just the same.
She hissed at herself, feeling this way made her feel like crap. Gohan had it ten times worst, she knew it, though she couldn't help to complain. Though, there had to be a reason. Why is Gohan in her life, she had to find the answer to that. Maybe after all these years of her life meaning nothing, it meant something. In some weird twist of fate.
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But we all bleed the same
Way as you do
We all have the same things
To go though
Hold on
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Gohan sighed, calming himself down after the cry he just had. It was sickening, the way he beat on her, the way he hit her, the way she begged for him to stop, but he didn't listen. He was this demon, that he didn't even know about.
Gohan shouldn't have tested himself. Like he could ever fight in a play full way anymore. Why would he want to any ways? That was the question that stuck in his mind for as long as he could remember. He saw the way Vanlash and the others "played". Was he slowly becoming them? Will his eyes be fulled with hate and blood? Was he starting to become the villain of the story? The one who will grab fate from the ones who have it and rip it into a million pieces.
-------------------------------------------------
If you feel like letting go
Hold on
It gets better than you know
Your days you say
They're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all
--------------------------------------------------
The thing about Gohan though, that he couldn't move on. Sure AJ herself has been in some binds, but she still forms a smile some of the time. Well, only around her sister. Maybe that is who she had, her little sister.
Mikia was the only person that she could ever trust. And the only one who could have a form of link with her. Other then Gohan.
Why was Gohan able to break her? AJ found herself weak against the half-breed. She never knew such a person lived in this world.
A person who could make her smile, yet, the person who can make her cry the most.
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And you're no sure what
You're looking for
But you don't want to no more
And you're not sure What you're waiting for
But you don't want it no more
-----------------------------------------
Gohan looked at his scar across his wrist again. Maybe it would be a good idea to try that again, before he hurts someone dear to him.
Like AJ.
Gohan couldn't look at AJ without his heart beating with great speed. AJ just had that way to make him stronger. Every time AJ touched him. He felt something inside of him.
That he liked.
That he could not understand one bit.
Gohan wished that he was able to control this force that was inside of him. He wished that he could touch AJ with his two hands, without pain or fear. And he wasn't able to hide that feeling inside of him.
The feeling that he didn't know could come out of his painful heart
He loved AJ.
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But we all bleed the
Same way as you do
We all have the same things
To go thought
Hold on
If you feel like letting go
------------------------------------
AJ landed, she could sense Gohan right ahead. She wanted to walk, so she can think about this. About Gohan, about that fight, about herself.
Everyone who had eyes could see it. That something about Gohan made her not able to control herself. Something about Gohan that she just wanted to keep on touching, keep on searching for that mystery.
AJ thought if over many times, it wasn't love, it couldn't be. AJ couldn't love, it wasn't in her nature. And how could it be in Gohan's? Not even Mikia knew the whole story of her older sister. The future queen had suffered far more then that. Everything that Mikia knew would only be a joy ride.
AJ wanted to take her time, for her, she needed to think what to say to Gohan. She knew, nothing in the world could make him feel better.
And she didn't know how she knew that, she could just feel it.
---------------------------------
Hold on
It gets better
Then you know
Don't stop looking
You're one step closer.
---------------------------------
As the rain kept on pouring, Gohan just sat where he was. Against the wall, and it felt like each drop was falling on the teenager. Gohan cried again, he couldn't win her heart. She couldn't look at him more then this thing. This freak that just happen to drop by at the right time to become a baby sitter for the youngest Princess.
Gohan then, sensed AJ coming up to him, his head shot right up, looking at where he would see this Princess.
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Don't stop searching
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Out of the trees and bushes came AJ. She was wet just as much as Gohan. She looked like she was just fine after the fight between the two. She stood there, staring at the redden Gohan. Not able to speak, not able to move, she didn't know what she could say to have the soulless soul in front of her feel better.
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It's not over
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Gohan was still bleeding, but only a little bit. He was shaking all over, as he bit his lip, holding himself from crying in front of her. His face was red and puffy from crying so much. But his eyes, they almost seemed lifeless, full of fear and pity, full of pain from all the years, of the guilt and none self worth, and he wasn't even looking up at her. AJ knew, that more sadness would come out if he looked up.
AJ in the other hand, she looked worried. She stood there, with her helpless eyes upon Gohan. Her face was also a little red, her hair covering up her sadden face. AJ saw how Gohan wasn't trying to look at her, they both sighed, still not able to move.
"I'm sorry!"
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Hold on
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Both Gohan and AJ yelled at the same time, each moving a little closer to each other. Both nervous, both scared, both couldn't take their eyes off each other. AJ started walking out of the bushes as Gohan still sat down, looking at the ground. Flashbacks started to fill his mind, he tired to push them back but failed.
********Flashback*******
"Gohan get back here!"
Chi-chi yelled as Gohan was running away into the forest. It was raining, the 11 year Gohan didn't care. He couldn't handle it, another fight with his mother, it was starting to get out of hand. He kept on running, not looking back, although Chi-chi voice ran in his ears to turn around. Tears running down his cheeks, not understanding what was going on. Feelings of lost and betrayal fell over this saiyan.
Gohan kept on running, and he couldn't stop, nor did he want to. He came up to a hill, yet, that didn't stop him one bit. He started running down, faster then he was before. He had to run, from this monster behind him, chasing him, trying to clam him. And that monster was slowly winning.
Gohan tripped, rolling down what seemed an endless hill. Gohan didn't try to stop himself. He kept on falling, having every rock hit him on his way down. The saiyan could feel blood dripping from his body, though he didn't care. Tears flew along with the blood, as Gohan closed his eyes. Hoping that his fall would end soon. The cuts were getting dirty and infected. He seemed to getting new cuts every time he fell.
Then, Gohan hit a tree, and hard. Gohan hissed in pain, trying not to scream. That is when Gohan let all his tears fall, the tears that were inside of him right when the fighting started.
"What are you doing brat?"
Gohan looked up to see Vegeta, arms crossed as he looked down at the boy.
"I know damn well that you could have stopped yourself."
Gohan didn't answer back as he tired to get back up. He hissed again, trying to hide his pain as he sat back down. He was bleeding a lot, and his right leg had a very deep cut, he couldn't get up, not did he want to. Vegeta let out his hand.
"Get up."
Gohan stared at Vegeta's hand, not sure what the Prince was trying to get at. Why would Vegeta be here, why would Vegeta help Gohan?
"Why are you here?"
Gohan asked, looking up at Vegeta. Vegeta rolled his eyes, and kneed down at the boy.
"You saved my life, as the Prince of the Saiyans, I must thank you for that. For my race."
Gohan smiled, grabbing Vegeta's hand as he started standing up. Yet the lost of blood made him weak, and almost fell right over. Vegeta then carried Gohan and started walking away.
********End of Flashback******
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What are you looking for
What are you waiting for
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"Gohan?"
AJ asked as Gohan looked up at AJ, holding back the tears from that flashback. Gohan sighed, remembering that raining night, and he had a feeling, he would remember this one. AJ sat down next to Gohan, looking in front of her.
"I shouldn't have pressured you into that fight. I shouldn't have got you mad like that."
Gohan shook his head, looking away.
"You have no right to say you're sorry. It's my fault, and you know it."
Gohan hissed between his teeth. AJ bowed her head, feeling even more guilt then before.
"I shouldn't have tried... "
AJ shot her head up, looking at Gohan, who was looking ahead of him.
"I know better then that, the only way I can be controlled is threw the collar."
"Don't say that Gohan."
Gohan didn't look up, it didn't even seem like he hear her. AJ hissed, grabbing Gohan's shirt and pulling him to her.
"Why are you making me like this?"
AJ yelled, not letting go and staring straight into Gohan's eyes. Gohan looked back into hers, shocked by the question. Both seemed to be lost for a minute, looking into ones eyes, seeing the pain, happiness, their past, future, hopes, dreams. AJ shut her eyes, looking away from Gohan's. When all Gohan wanted to do is to look deeper into hers.
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Do you know what you are doing to me
Go ahead What are you looking for.
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"Tell me Gohan, why are you doing this to me. I've only known you more then a week. I feel weak around you! And I hate it."
Gohan didn't know what to say, AJ didn't let go of Gohan. She held him, closer to her face, waiting Gohan to answer her.
"I love you."
Gohan whispered, knowing that he shouldn't have said that, knowing the answer to what he just said. He had a better chance of hiding any emotions but this, this feeling, he couldn't control.
AJ eyes widen, she wasn't expecting that answer, though, she had to admit it made her feel good...
NO! AJ knew what would happened if she loved, he would just run away. Not taking her, breaking her heart. No one loved her, everyone hated her! If she was "loved" no one would be throwing rocks at her, calling her a bitch, beating her, teasing her, killing her slowly inside.
And if Gohan did love her, he wouldn't of done what he had done that day. Now that fight hurt her most inside. If Gohan did love her, he wouldn't of done that. He would be holding her, whispering those words into her ear, kissing her, knowing her. Everything that lovers did. Love and AJ didn't go together. AJ and hope crashed to the ground along with her mother's dying body. AJ felt pain flowing threw her, by that answer that Gohan gave her, made her want to cry. Made her want to run.
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Hold on If you feel like letting go
------------------------------------
AJ let go of Gohan, moving a little ways from him. Gohan looked at her, now it was her turn to answer him. The Princess slapped Gohan across the face. As AJ slapped him, all his hopes, dreams, a chance flew away. Gohan turned his head back to AJ, holding his cheek.
--------------------------------------
Hold on
It gets better then you know
--------------------------------------
AJ was shaking, red in the face, and angry. How could Gohan make fun of her like that?
"Fuck you Gohan. How can you play such a trick."
AJ started walking away, when Gohan got up and grabbed her wrist.
The funny thing about that, Gohan's wrist with his scar, caught AJ's wrist with her own scar. Each saw this, and were shocked. Surprised that the other tired the same cruel fate. They couldn't say anything, both sides could feel the pain of each cut running to them.
-----------------------------------
Don't stop looking
Your once step closer
----------------------------------
Gohan though, was the first to let go, tears running down his soft cheeks. At the same time, both ran. Both couldn't take the feeling that they felt deep within themselves. Both couldn't handle their eyes, their past, their scars. They were scared of the out come, scared if both could truly love each other.
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Don't stop searching it's not over
Hold on
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I really like that one line I wrote in the beginning
"...Was he slowly becoming them? Will his eyes be fulled with hate and blood? Was he starting to become the villain of the story? The one who will grab fate from the ones who have it and rip it into a million pieces."
I don't know what is up with that line, but I love the meaning of it! I'm so proud of that quote! Well, sorry for the long update, but please review.
~*~super-saiyan-monkey~*~