Yes, yes, I know it has been since July that I have updated.
I'm sorry though, I had this chapter written so long ago, yet
I couldn't update, and that chapter sucked, so I made this
one. Don't get mad at me please!
My A-drive sometimes works now, but now the space button on my computer wouldn't work, so I can't even type. So when I have free time at school or at a friends house I'll type, like I have been doing today. I didn't' forget about this story, it's just so hard to update since I don't a good working computer.
I'm back now okay, just it will take a while to update, and I'm sorry for all you who have wait, and forgive me for waiting so long.
I made the chapter a little longer then I did before, so hopefully that will make it up.
Yet again, I'm sorry I haven't updated in so long, it's hard. And I have another life away from ff.net, but I'm going to try hard to update. I missed writing my stories so much.
I changed my name to Son Akito, but if you still want to call me SSM, feel free, or just call me Aki for short.
I don't own Dragonball Z. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hidden Bars
Homesick
Gohan sat there, watching the suns set, and what a beautiful thing it was. How the blue suns blended with the night sky so well, before it turned black and stars appeared.
He loved to gaze up at the stars once the night fell, it was better then the suns, and the sky, the clouds, and everything there was about this planet, or any planet he was on. The stars were the same, everywhere, and he felt like he was more on Earth then any other part of the day. The stars were also a great mystery to him, because it seemed like a pattern, that he could never figure out.
Yet, in ways, Gohan felt lonely, looking up at the stars. There was no reason why, the stars are wonderful go look at, yet it made is heart ace that no one was there to enjoy them with him.
It had been two months since Gohan had been freed and lived on this planet. Two months, this in some ways flew by him. It was amazing that his life could change so fast, after 4 years of being nothing, and now, a caretaker for young Mikia.
It had been a month though, that AJ and Gohan have not seen each other. AJ being busy with her duty of being the princess, and Gohan with running around with Mikia everywhere, they haven't seen each other since. It hurt his heart, because he couldn't be with the one he loved, they were too busy for each other. Yet he knew that when they would see each other, it would be worth it.
As Gohan been watching the night sky, he was thinking of the legend. And although he didn't understand how he could become a part of it, something inside of him hopped he was this "Warrior's Spirit". Some of it was it impress AJ, of being this wonderful God person and help her make this planet at peace for once and for all.
Gohan found out later why this planet had such a thing, and why it wasn't "peaceful" before. Because of the hot suns, and the moons, this planet can't stay together, over time it will break and die, and everything on it will die. It was suppose to happen around the time the 3rd pair, Dream and Vishzu, can release their beam into the sky, and the planet will be able to feed energy off the suns and the moons, and be able to give it back the planet. Another reason is that this planet is very popular threw out the universe, and have been in many wars before for takeover, and when these beams are released, will shield the planet forever.
Another reason, the main true reason that Gohan wanted to be this "Warrior's Spirit" was so that he could feel like he was worth something. All these years of pain and lost, death and blood, everything that made him cry at night, not able to really show how he truly feels would be worth something in the very end. Gohan longed to have meaning, and if he was this God, then maybe he would live his life, happy for once.
Gohan gave out a long sigh, still feeling hurt inside. Although it had been two months on this planet, he still feels the pain that covered his heart before he was taken. He didn't know why, but now that he was alone, the thought of the Cell's Game, for the first real time in his life. He closed his eyes, and played his whole battle against Cell in his mind. Down to every kick and punch, his technique, Cell's technique. He remembered it all, and that in total was 5 years ago, such a long time to Gohan, yet he remembered. And then, as he got to the last part of his battle, he realized that he was too young to fight such a demon. That maybe, his dad shouldn't of made him fight, he knew this all along but still felt pain because of it. He felt hurt that he was weak, that it was his fault that everything that day went down hill, and now into this pit that he was slowly crawling out of. He hated being young a weak, and feeling so empty now.
Gohan shed one tear down his eyes, it seemed like forever since he last cried. He hated the looks he got from everyone as he cried, he hated their pity, and now, no matter how painful, he promised himself to never get that look again. Gohan sighed again, letting that tear drop from his face, knowing that no one was around, and there was no reason to hid it any longer.
"It's been so long since you cried."
Gohan glanced up to find AJ behind him, it to a minute for him to realize who it was standing before him, and quickly turned away, whipping that tear.
"Before you cried, a lot, and I was worried, but now since you don't, I'm even more worried Gohan."
"You're never around, how do you know?"
Gohan hissed, leading on his knees, looking up at the sky. AJ sighed, sitting down behind him, looking the other way.
"I'm sorry, it's just hard to see you, after all this duty stuff."
Gohan sighed again, looking away from the stars. AJ leaded against Gohan's back, just relaxing, after not being able to for so long. Gohan leaded on her, happy that he was able to feel her after so long.
"Gohan, how are you?"
Gohan turned his head as AJ turned hers, waiting for the answer.
"Alright I suppose, it's nice to sit down and breathe for once you know."
AJ laughed and shook her head. Gohan once again, looked up at the starry night.
"And you?"
"Too busy to give you an answer."
Gohan and AJ laughed again. And after that, they sat there, looking up at the night sky, thoughts about everything in both of their minds, about life, their past, and each other right now, enjoying the view. The sky tickled back and forth at each other, and both of the teenagers smiled.
"AJ?"
"Yes?"
Gohan sighed, turning to look at her again.
"Do you know.Who killed your mother?"
AJ closed her eyes, and leaded farther back. Gohan blinked, waiting for an answer.
"I never saw his face, it happened so fast you know. It was like.I blinked, and she hit the ground and he vanished. I wish I knew, because then, he would die for what he had done."
Gohan shook his head.
"Why," She asked, turning her head away from Gohan and into the sky.
Gohan didn't answer.
AJ sighed, tried from her day's work.
And they both grew silence again, and listening to the stars. Trying to answer all their questions about life. Wondering what will happen ahead on their journey, and when it will finally end.
"You know Gohan, after Mikia turns 15, you could go back to Earth. Are you?"
Gohan turned around and looked over at AJ, but her back was turned to him, as the wind started picking up, making everything chilly.
"I've never thought of it."
"I know you have Gohan, would you, leave here, and return to Earth and be with your family again?"
Gohan got up and sat down next to her, and looked at her face. She seemed like a stone, just looking up into the sky, waiting for Gohan's answer, trying not to look at him in the eyes. Gohan grabbed her hand.
"I'm not sure, I don't want to leave you AJ, yet, I want to see my family again."
"So you really aren't sure?"
Gohan shook his head and AJ looked over at him. They both smiled at each other, really looking at each other's face the first time in a month. AJ leaded closer to Gohan's face, and kissed him on the cheek. Gohan blushed, looking away.
****Next Day****
Mikia walked into Gohan's room, finding him looking out the window. Mikia smiled, and ran up to Gohan.
"What are you looking at?"
Gohan looked down and touched Mikia's head, and turned back into the window.
Mikia looked out to find AJ and her father, walking threw the yard. Gohan looked down at the young princess.
"Should we get something to eat?"
Mikia smiled.
"You bet!"
And both of them ran out of the room to grab their meal.
^^^
"The day is wonderful, isn't honey?"
"It is."
AJ and her father have been spending so much time together. They both got up early this morning, ate, talked of today's plans, and took their walk around the yard before they had to leave.
"How are you holding up?"
AJ asked her father, she knew that he was getting old and tired of everything, and although he was strong and would live a great while, that he would give up his crown to her.
"I'm fine. How is your studying going, your not going to be able to go back to your classes anymore, not for a great while. There is too much to be done before you become queen."
"Father, about that."
Yet the King walked on, as AJ stopped, waiting for her father to turn around, but he didn't. He kept on walking, until he was out of her sight. AJ growled and sat down, that was the one chance she had to tell him that she didn't want to take the test, but she failed.
***
Gohan and Mikia, after done eating, went to their classes, afterwards went to meetings, and dinners, and parties, and taking care of all kinds of business. This was their schedule for another 3 months, there was so much going on in Gohan and Mikia lives that they never saw any of their family or friends. They would get to bed late at night and get up early in the morning to leave.
Yet every mourning, just before Mikia would come into Gohan's room, he would be at the window, looking down at AJ and her father, walking threw the yard.
Yet one day, Gohan just saw the King, walking by himself, and thankfully, Gohan had the day off the first time in three months, and went to search for AJ.
Gohan walked around the whole castle yet there was no sign of her. After an hour of looking, he sat down to take a break.
He stared to think of Earth again, that seemed like all he did in his free time. He would remember the days of fun and play, and helping his mom. He remembered smiling so brightly, and everyone who was sad and to grin.
It had been another 3 months since he cried, and another tear dropped from his black eyes.
He was homesick, he missed his home so much, that he couldn't bear it sometimes.
Yet, he believed that this was payment, the pain, that everything he had done, everyone that he has killed. Yet, he didn't think, that he should be here, that he should be suffering under Vanlash for the rest of his days.
Vanlash, he hated that name, he was always in his nightmares, and Gohan knew that he would keep staying in there. Laughing at him, forever.
More tears fell from his face, all this was too much to bear. He hated thinking of his past, and being so busy he never really did think of his past, yet he still remained to have flashbacks, time and time again. Yet, when he was around everyone, no one would know. He was getting well at hiding himself around others, yet when he sat alone, remembering everything once again, he cried.
"Gohan."
Gohan looked up to find AJ, crying as well.
"What's wrong?"
He asked, trying to get rid of his tears, yet it didn't work. He hated crying, he hated seeing her cry, yet his tears had a mind of there own, and spilled even more.
"I.told.him."
AJ tried to say, yet more tears ran down her eyes. Gohan got up and walked next to her.
"About.the test.He yelled.I'm not sure.what to do."
AJ hiccuped, and Gohan hugged her.
"Gohan.Why is it so hard?"
"I don't know."
They both stood there, hugging each other, trying to get the tears to stop. Yet they both knew, nothing would work. That they were always in pain, that no matter what, they thought of themselves as nothing. Their past was filled with pain, and they will always remember why, and blamed themselves, never to get over it.
That night, Gohan and AJ talked, really talked, after 5 months of being away from each other. AJ told Gohan that her father said that he greatly disappointed, and will fix her attitude, and one day, will take the test no matter what. That her dishonor would never leave this place, and no matter how much she cried for him to wait, he refused to let her make up her own choice.
AJ cried and cried, just wanting warmth from Gohan. Gohan held her close, saying nothing as she cried, just wishing that somehow she could stop. Yet she couldn't stop. Gohan could understand though, he felt, that she was crying for everything her father did to her. And Gohan wished he was able to just cry like that, because after a great cry such as this, a great weight will be lifted from your shoulders.
AJ cried herself to sleep on Gohan, and Gohan watched her sleep, stroking her hair. He felt more relaxed, that it was quieter in the room. Yet while he was sitting there, alone, a flashback entered his mind, of his mother.
That was the most flashbacks he had since he's been away from Earth, of his mother. How he missed her so much, he thought she would always be there, and threw his dreams, she missed him the most. Gohan though, held back his tears, because although AJ was sleeping, with his luck she would wake up, and watch him cry again.
After his flashback of his sweet mother, Gohan closed his eyes, an fell asleep, to just dream about the pain under the collar, and the blood that was on his hands, and the laughing of Vanlash, over and over again.
***
Mikia watched Gohan sleeping, 2 more months have passed and this was the first time Gohan has slept in like this. Mikia didn't mind though, because he was her best friend, and needed a break just as badly as she did. Lucky for the both, Mikia didn't have anything to do until the afternoon, and sat down to watch Gohan sleep.
She missed the old Gohan, they way he looked at her, the way he cried, the way he use to be when he would should his feelings. After AJ told Gohan about the legend, he stopped showing everything about him. It made her worry, because she still knew that Gohan cried, he would shed tears in his sleep.
Gohan's tail moved as he would sleep. He was so good at keeping it hidden around everyone that he even would forget that he had it. So sometimes he would sit on it, still trying to fight the weakness on the sharp pain he got after someone had touched it. He trained so hard to be strong when his tail would get touched, yet it still caused him some pain. Sometimes Mikia wished she had a tail like him and her sister, it was almost like a 3rd hand. Sometimes Gohan would hand Mikia something threw his tail, like some food or a pen, while his hands were full. She would laugh each time Gohan would do that, and Gohan would smile.
Yet she knew, Gohan didn't really smile, it was all some big act to put a good front for everyone.
Because looking into Gohan's eyes, she knew he was unhappy being here with her.
And it made her heart ace, because Gohan should be at Earth, with his family.
"Mother."
Mikia looked up from her thoughts and glanced over at Gohan, he was dreaming about his family again. Whenever Gohan felt like it, he told Mikia of his dreams about his family, rarely though. Sometimes it was too much to bear for him.
Gohan woke up, and looked over at Mikia.
"You're up?"
Gohan yawned, trying to hide his sadness from her.
"Dreaming of your family Gohan?"
Gohan blinked at her for a while, wondering how long she was watching him. He turned his head.
"Yes. Mother was crying again, and Goten was getting sad. They were eating, and father wasn't there."
"Where do you think he was?"
"Training would be my guess, I wish she wouldn't cry over me anymore."
Mikia sighed and looked up at Gohan, who got off his energy bed and walked over to Mikia.
"Don't look at me like that."
Gohan said, putting his hand on her head. Mikia looked up at him, and shook her head.
"Let's eat."
The both of them slowly walked away, on to there busy day, only to find Gohan in the same way the next day, once again.
***The Yard***
And young AJ sat down, leading against the tree, reading her family history, with tears in her eyes, once she laid her eyes on her mother's picture, before feeling the pain deep inside of her again. Yet as she cried, she looked around, finding no one to cry on.
***Gohan's Room***
That night, Gohan cried of his scar, wishing deep down that he would just die, yet as he looked around to find no one to talk him out of it. He sat down and shed more tears, because he hated feeling this way. As he touched his scar, he heard to laughing of Vanlash, the jokes Tomack made, Rexter taking him over and over again, and Weller, controlling the collar.
Yet deep down, Gohan knew he could never try again, because he knew, he would fail, again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm sorry yet again for the long wait, and hope you all remember this story. I'm trying my best to write again, and sorry if it takes a while to update once again. But by god, I will finish this stoy.
~*~Son Akito~*~
My A-drive sometimes works now, but now the space button on my computer wouldn't work, so I can't even type. So when I have free time at school or at a friends house I'll type, like I have been doing today. I didn't' forget about this story, it's just so hard to update since I don't a good working computer.
I'm back now okay, just it will take a while to update, and I'm sorry for all you who have wait, and forgive me for waiting so long.
I made the chapter a little longer then I did before, so hopefully that will make it up.
Yet again, I'm sorry I haven't updated in so long, it's hard. And I have another life away from ff.net, but I'm going to try hard to update. I missed writing my stories so much.
I changed my name to Son Akito, but if you still want to call me SSM, feel free, or just call me Aki for short.
I don't own Dragonball Z. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hidden Bars
Homesick
Gohan sat there, watching the suns set, and what a beautiful thing it was. How the blue suns blended with the night sky so well, before it turned black and stars appeared.
He loved to gaze up at the stars once the night fell, it was better then the suns, and the sky, the clouds, and everything there was about this planet, or any planet he was on. The stars were the same, everywhere, and he felt like he was more on Earth then any other part of the day. The stars were also a great mystery to him, because it seemed like a pattern, that he could never figure out.
Yet, in ways, Gohan felt lonely, looking up at the stars. There was no reason why, the stars are wonderful go look at, yet it made is heart ace that no one was there to enjoy them with him.
It had been two months since Gohan had been freed and lived on this planet. Two months, this in some ways flew by him. It was amazing that his life could change so fast, after 4 years of being nothing, and now, a caretaker for young Mikia.
It had been a month though, that AJ and Gohan have not seen each other. AJ being busy with her duty of being the princess, and Gohan with running around with Mikia everywhere, they haven't seen each other since. It hurt his heart, because he couldn't be with the one he loved, they were too busy for each other. Yet he knew that when they would see each other, it would be worth it.
As Gohan been watching the night sky, he was thinking of the legend. And although he didn't understand how he could become a part of it, something inside of him hopped he was this "Warrior's Spirit". Some of it was it impress AJ, of being this wonderful God person and help her make this planet at peace for once and for all.
Gohan found out later why this planet had such a thing, and why it wasn't "peaceful" before. Because of the hot suns, and the moons, this planet can't stay together, over time it will break and die, and everything on it will die. It was suppose to happen around the time the 3rd pair, Dream and Vishzu, can release their beam into the sky, and the planet will be able to feed energy off the suns and the moons, and be able to give it back the planet. Another reason is that this planet is very popular threw out the universe, and have been in many wars before for takeover, and when these beams are released, will shield the planet forever.
Another reason, the main true reason that Gohan wanted to be this "Warrior's Spirit" was so that he could feel like he was worth something. All these years of pain and lost, death and blood, everything that made him cry at night, not able to really show how he truly feels would be worth something in the very end. Gohan longed to have meaning, and if he was this God, then maybe he would live his life, happy for once.
Gohan gave out a long sigh, still feeling hurt inside. Although it had been two months on this planet, he still feels the pain that covered his heart before he was taken. He didn't know why, but now that he was alone, the thought of the Cell's Game, for the first real time in his life. He closed his eyes, and played his whole battle against Cell in his mind. Down to every kick and punch, his technique, Cell's technique. He remembered it all, and that in total was 5 years ago, such a long time to Gohan, yet he remembered. And then, as he got to the last part of his battle, he realized that he was too young to fight such a demon. That maybe, his dad shouldn't of made him fight, he knew this all along but still felt pain because of it. He felt hurt that he was weak, that it was his fault that everything that day went down hill, and now into this pit that he was slowly crawling out of. He hated being young a weak, and feeling so empty now.
Gohan shed one tear down his eyes, it seemed like forever since he last cried. He hated the looks he got from everyone as he cried, he hated their pity, and now, no matter how painful, he promised himself to never get that look again. Gohan sighed again, letting that tear drop from his face, knowing that no one was around, and there was no reason to hid it any longer.
"It's been so long since you cried."
Gohan glanced up to find AJ behind him, it to a minute for him to realize who it was standing before him, and quickly turned away, whipping that tear.
"Before you cried, a lot, and I was worried, but now since you don't, I'm even more worried Gohan."
"You're never around, how do you know?"
Gohan hissed, leading on his knees, looking up at the sky. AJ sighed, sitting down behind him, looking the other way.
"I'm sorry, it's just hard to see you, after all this duty stuff."
Gohan sighed again, looking away from the stars. AJ leaded against Gohan's back, just relaxing, after not being able to for so long. Gohan leaded on her, happy that he was able to feel her after so long.
"Gohan, how are you?"
Gohan turned his head as AJ turned hers, waiting for the answer.
"Alright I suppose, it's nice to sit down and breathe for once you know."
AJ laughed and shook her head. Gohan once again, looked up at the starry night.
"And you?"
"Too busy to give you an answer."
Gohan and AJ laughed again. And after that, they sat there, looking up at the night sky, thoughts about everything in both of their minds, about life, their past, and each other right now, enjoying the view. The sky tickled back and forth at each other, and both of the teenagers smiled.
"AJ?"
"Yes?"
Gohan sighed, turning to look at her again.
"Do you know.Who killed your mother?"
AJ closed her eyes, and leaded farther back. Gohan blinked, waiting for an answer.
"I never saw his face, it happened so fast you know. It was like.I blinked, and she hit the ground and he vanished. I wish I knew, because then, he would die for what he had done."
Gohan shook his head.
"Why," She asked, turning her head away from Gohan and into the sky.
Gohan didn't answer.
AJ sighed, tried from her day's work.
And they both grew silence again, and listening to the stars. Trying to answer all their questions about life. Wondering what will happen ahead on their journey, and when it will finally end.
"You know Gohan, after Mikia turns 15, you could go back to Earth. Are you?"
Gohan turned around and looked over at AJ, but her back was turned to him, as the wind started picking up, making everything chilly.
"I've never thought of it."
"I know you have Gohan, would you, leave here, and return to Earth and be with your family again?"
Gohan got up and sat down next to her, and looked at her face. She seemed like a stone, just looking up into the sky, waiting for Gohan's answer, trying not to look at him in the eyes. Gohan grabbed her hand.
"I'm not sure, I don't want to leave you AJ, yet, I want to see my family again."
"So you really aren't sure?"
Gohan shook his head and AJ looked over at him. They both smiled at each other, really looking at each other's face the first time in a month. AJ leaded closer to Gohan's face, and kissed him on the cheek. Gohan blushed, looking away.
****Next Day****
Mikia walked into Gohan's room, finding him looking out the window. Mikia smiled, and ran up to Gohan.
"What are you looking at?"
Gohan looked down and touched Mikia's head, and turned back into the window.
Mikia looked out to find AJ and her father, walking threw the yard. Gohan looked down at the young princess.
"Should we get something to eat?"
Mikia smiled.
"You bet!"
And both of them ran out of the room to grab their meal.
^^^
"The day is wonderful, isn't honey?"
"It is."
AJ and her father have been spending so much time together. They both got up early this morning, ate, talked of today's plans, and took their walk around the yard before they had to leave.
"How are you holding up?"
AJ asked her father, she knew that he was getting old and tired of everything, and although he was strong and would live a great while, that he would give up his crown to her.
"I'm fine. How is your studying going, your not going to be able to go back to your classes anymore, not for a great while. There is too much to be done before you become queen."
"Father, about that."
Yet the King walked on, as AJ stopped, waiting for her father to turn around, but he didn't. He kept on walking, until he was out of her sight. AJ growled and sat down, that was the one chance she had to tell him that she didn't want to take the test, but she failed.
***
Gohan and Mikia, after done eating, went to their classes, afterwards went to meetings, and dinners, and parties, and taking care of all kinds of business. This was their schedule for another 3 months, there was so much going on in Gohan and Mikia lives that they never saw any of their family or friends. They would get to bed late at night and get up early in the morning to leave.
Yet every mourning, just before Mikia would come into Gohan's room, he would be at the window, looking down at AJ and her father, walking threw the yard.
Yet one day, Gohan just saw the King, walking by himself, and thankfully, Gohan had the day off the first time in three months, and went to search for AJ.
Gohan walked around the whole castle yet there was no sign of her. After an hour of looking, he sat down to take a break.
He stared to think of Earth again, that seemed like all he did in his free time. He would remember the days of fun and play, and helping his mom. He remembered smiling so brightly, and everyone who was sad and to grin.
It had been another 3 months since he cried, and another tear dropped from his black eyes.
He was homesick, he missed his home so much, that he couldn't bear it sometimes.
Yet, he believed that this was payment, the pain, that everything he had done, everyone that he has killed. Yet, he didn't think, that he should be here, that he should be suffering under Vanlash for the rest of his days.
Vanlash, he hated that name, he was always in his nightmares, and Gohan knew that he would keep staying in there. Laughing at him, forever.
More tears fell from his face, all this was too much to bear. He hated thinking of his past, and being so busy he never really did think of his past, yet he still remained to have flashbacks, time and time again. Yet, when he was around everyone, no one would know. He was getting well at hiding himself around others, yet when he sat alone, remembering everything once again, he cried.
"Gohan."
Gohan looked up to find AJ, crying as well.
"What's wrong?"
He asked, trying to get rid of his tears, yet it didn't work. He hated crying, he hated seeing her cry, yet his tears had a mind of there own, and spilled even more.
"I.told.him."
AJ tried to say, yet more tears ran down her eyes. Gohan got up and walked next to her.
"About.the test.He yelled.I'm not sure.what to do."
AJ hiccuped, and Gohan hugged her.
"Gohan.Why is it so hard?"
"I don't know."
They both stood there, hugging each other, trying to get the tears to stop. Yet they both knew, nothing would work. That they were always in pain, that no matter what, they thought of themselves as nothing. Their past was filled with pain, and they will always remember why, and blamed themselves, never to get over it.
That night, Gohan and AJ talked, really talked, after 5 months of being away from each other. AJ told Gohan that her father said that he greatly disappointed, and will fix her attitude, and one day, will take the test no matter what. That her dishonor would never leave this place, and no matter how much she cried for him to wait, he refused to let her make up her own choice.
AJ cried and cried, just wanting warmth from Gohan. Gohan held her close, saying nothing as she cried, just wishing that somehow she could stop. Yet she couldn't stop. Gohan could understand though, he felt, that she was crying for everything her father did to her. And Gohan wished he was able to just cry like that, because after a great cry such as this, a great weight will be lifted from your shoulders.
AJ cried herself to sleep on Gohan, and Gohan watched her sleep, stroking her hair. He felt more relaxed, that it was quieter in the room. Yet while he was sitting there, alone, a flashback entered his mind, of his mother.
That was the most flashbacks he had since he's been away from Earth, of his mother. How he missed her so much, he thought she would always be there, and threw his dreams, she missed him the most. Gohan though, held back his tears, because although AJ was sleeping, with his luck she would wake up, and watch him cry again.
After his flashback of his sweet mother, Gohan closed his eyes, an fell asleep, to just dream about the pain under the collar, and the blood that was on his hands, and the laughing of Vanlash, over and over again.
***
Mikia watched Gohan sleeping, 2 more months have passed and this was the first time Gohan has slept in like this. Mikia didn't mind though, because he was her best friend, and needed a break just as badly as she did. Lucky for the both, Mikia didn't have anything to do until the afternoon, and sat down to watch Gohan sleep.
She missed the old Gohan, they way he looked at her, the way he cried, the way he use to be when he would should his feelings. After AJ told Gohan about the legend, he stopped showing everything about him. It made her worry, because she still knew that Gohan cried, he would shed tears in his sleep.
Gohan's tail moved as he would sleep. He was so good at keeping it hidden around everyone that he even would forget that he had it. So sometimes he would sit on it, still trying to fight the weakness on the sharp pain he got after someone had touched it. He trained so hard to be strong when his tail would get touched, yet it still caused him some pain. Sometimes Mikia wished she had a tail like him and her sister, it was almost like a 3rd hand. Sometimes Gohan would hand Mikia something threw his tail, like some food or a pen, while his hands were full. She would laugh each time Gohan would do that, and Gohan would smile.
Yet she knew, Gohan didn't really smile, it was all some big act to put a good front for everyone.
Because looking into Gohan's eyes, she knew he was unhappy being here with her.
And it made her heart ace, because Gohan should be at Earth, with his family.
"Mother."
Mikia looked up from her thoughts and glanced over at Gohan, he was dreaming about his family again. Whenever Gohan felt like it, he told Mikia of his dreams about his family, rarely though. Sometimes it was too much to bear for him.
Gohan woke up, and looked over at Mikia.
"You're up?"
Gohan yawned, trying to hide his sadness from her.
"Dreaming of your family Gohan?"
Gohan blinked at her for a while, wondering how long she was watching him. He turned his head.
"Yes. Mother was crying again, and Goten was getting sad. They were eating, and father wasn't there."
"Where do you think he was?"
"Training would be my guess, I wish she wouldn't cry over me anymore."
Mikia sighed and looked up at Gohan, who got off his energy bed and walked over to Mikia.
"Don't look at me like that."
Gohan said, putting his hand on her head. Mikia looked up at him, and shook her head.
"Let's eat."
The both of them slowly walked away, on to there busy day, only to find Gohan in the same way the next day, once again.
***The Yard***
And young AJ sat down, leading against the tree, reading her family history, with tears in her eyes, once she laid her eyes on her mother's picture, before feeling the pain deep inside of her again. Yet as she cried, she looked around, finding no one to cry on.
***Gohan's Room***
That night, Gohan cried of his scar, wishing deep down that he would just die, yet as he looked around to find no one to talk him out of it. He sat down and shed more tears, because he hated feeling this way. As he touched his scar, he heard to laughing of Vanlash, the jokes Tomack made, Rexter taking him over and over again, and Weller, controlling the collar.
Yet deep down, Gohan knew he could never try again, because he knew, he would fail, again. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm sorry yet again for the long wait, and hope you all remember this story. I'm trying my best to write again, and sorry if it takes a while to update once again. But by god, I will finish this stoy.
~*~Son Akito~*~