Ch.5 It Was You?
He buried his face in her hair, smelling her sweet scent, letting it soothe his nerves. Hinata closed her eyes in relief when he hugged her back, she wanted to help him, but wasn't sure if he would let her. Her own grief forgotten as she tried to free Sasuke of his.
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An hour later, they were sitting on his floor and leaning against the bed. After a while, he had opened up to her a little, telling her that he would sometimes still get nightmares of that terrible day. Hinata nodded her head in understanding as she gently touched his hand.
"I know what you mean…I still have nightmares of the…the wedding day." She said softly. Her eyes filled with sadness as she remembered her nightmares, always playing over and over again. Sasuke looked at her, he didn't like seeing her looking so sad; he lightly squeezed her fingers, shaking her out of her depressing thoughts. She smiled softly at him.
"But it's getting better…lately I've been dreaming about…uuhh well…" he watched her starting to fidget and guessed that if there was more light she'd probably be blushing too.
"There…there was this guy who rescued me…not long ago…I…I sometimes dream of that moment." She continued, she could feel her face flame up and thanked the darkness for masking her blush. Sasuke squirmed a little on the inside, feeling slightly guilty for not telling her that he was the one who rescued her. But then he suddenly remembered why he left her with such a rage…he didn't feel so guilty anymore.
"So who is this guy you dream about?" he asked her, curious as to what she would say. Hinata lowered her red face to stare at her lap.
"I…I don't know." She whispered, feeling even more embarrassed that she had done such sensual things with some man she couldn't even name. Someone she couldn't even remembered what he looked like.
"Was it Naruto?" Sasuke nearly spat at her, but was able to make it sound less venomous than he originally intended. He remembered that night too, he had dreams, she wasn't the only one. She had it easy. Every night he was tortured with dreams of making love to her, and she didn't even know it was him.
"No, it wasn't him." She said sadly, making Sasuke fill with jealousy. Even now, even now she wants him!
"Then why did you say his name?" he shot at her without thinking. Hinata's bottom lip quivered as she tried to stop the tears from coming. But then she frowned, why was he mad at her?
"Well I was going to marry the man that day. Of course I would think it was him, or want it to be him! I…wait a minute…" she said suddenly as she remembered what Sasuke had asked.
"How did you know I said Naruto's name?" she asked as she turned her head to look at him. Sasuke cursed himself inwardly; shit! Now she knows! Wait…why the hell would it matter anyways. He didn't say anything, when Hinata's eyes widened as everything began to sink in.
"It was you?" she breathed quietly, astonished. Sasuke remained silent but nodded his head once, confirming her assumption. Her shocked expression soon faded into anger as her open hand suddenly connected with his face.
"You jerk!" she screamed as she quickly stood up. "How could you do that to me! How could you do that to me and not tell me!"
Sasuke was frozen for a few seconds, his cheek stinging with pain from her slap, before her loud voice shook him from his shocked state. He too started to get angry at having all the blame being put on him and started to stand up to tower over her small frame that only reached the middle of his chest.
"It is NOT my fault for reacting the way any man would act if a beaut—if a woman threw herself at him." He shot back at her. However, undaunted, Hinata just tilted her head to look him in the eye.
"If I recall correctly, YOU kissed me first!" she accused him, poking her finger into his chest for emphasis.
"But it's not like you wanted me to stop. I wasn't the only one participating in that! If I remember correctly, YOU kissed me BACK!" he informed her quite loudly.
"Yeah but—"
"AND more. And all the while wishing it was HIM!" he vented, letting out the in anger the pain he had felt when she said his name. She stayed silent, her pale eyes still locked onto his black ones yet he could see the tears beginning to form in her eyes. Suddenly she collapsed onto his bed, coving her face as she cried, her body racking with sobs.
His shoulders slumped, immediately regretting his outburst. He admitted to himself that he did want to hurt her, making her feel the pain he was going through, but now that it happened, he felt bad. Her tears wasn't what he really wanted from her. Sasuke sighed tiredly before sitting down next to her, he didn't face her, he didn't touch her.
"Hinata…I'm…" he hesitated; apologizing wasn't one of his greatest strengths.
"How could he do that to me? Why did he do that to me?" she whispered, cutting him off. He looked away and remained silent.
"Am I a fool?" she asked aloud, more to herself than to him.
"Yes." His curt response surprised her enough to stop her tears, as she looked up at him, shocked.
"What? Why?" she asked, once over her perplexity, offended. This time he did turn around to look at her, his face unsympathetic.
"Because you dwell in the past, Hinata. Move on. Either get back with him, or move on." He told her, sounding impatient and angry. She looked at him with disbelief in her eyes.
"I am not the only one who dwells in the past, Mr. Avenger." Hinata replied, reminding them both of how he acted as a boy.
"But I've made my peace with my past." He countered.
"Yes, but look how long it took you." she said softly. She sighed and looked down at her hands for a moment before returning her gaze back to him.
"I'm sorry, I just…need more time. I've loved him for a long time." She told him sadly.
"I know." He said, his voice softening a fraction. Silence began to fill the room between them, each not wanting to hurt the other anymore, and both lost in their own thoughts. Till Hinata looked back up at him, a small confused frown knitting her face.
"What?" he asked, wondering what her look was about.
"Why…why did you kiss me…in the first place?" she slowly asked, a blush staining her cheeks. His eyes turned away with his body soon following its action, he shrugged slightly, unwilling to tell her the truth. He tried telling her once, that night they were together, but she didn't want to hear it. And apparently it wasn't important enough for her to remember; he'd rather not remind her.
Feeling uncomfortable with the way their conversation was heading, he stood up suddenly and started leaving the bedroom. Hinata watched him get up, and she felt ashamed, she didn't mean to pry. She didn't mean a lot of things she had said tonight; I should apologize to him. Standing up, she started to walk after him.
"Sasuke-kun, wait—ahhh!" she cried softly as her feet got tangled in the sheets on the floor. Her arms waving about, trying to desperately grab at anything to keep her up, unfortunately all she grabbed was air. Feeling her body falling, she closed her eyes tight, waiting for the hit of the floor. Surprised, when instead she felt strong arms catch her and instinctively held her close.
Sasuke turned at her cry to see her falling forward; he had rushed to catch her, only just in time. Pulling her to him.
"Hinata, are you…" he was going to say 'alright' but his voice caught in his throat when she lifted her head up and revealed just how close her lips were to his. He could feel her warm breath on his face, his eyes trailing down to stare at her lips; how they called to him, begged him to kiss them again. He could remember how soft they felt, how good they tasted. His heart started pounding in his chest; how he desperately wanted to kiss her again…but he didn't move to kiss her, not wanting to repeat that night.
Hinata's face suddenly got very warm with her red blush as she realized just how close their faces were. Her arms were around his neck and their bodies were pressed closely together. She could feel his heart pounding against her breast. Her mind started to wander to that night, all the incredible things she had felt…they were from him. And when he didn't move to kiss her, without thinking, she closed her eyes and her lips reached out to his.
As soon as her lips lightly brushed across his, his hesitation vanished. He roughly claimed her mouth, his lips demanding, his kiss desperate. He opened his mouth slightly to lick his tongue across the seam of her lips. Feeling her lips part, he darted his tongue into her mouth to explore the sweet treasure there. Hinata moaned softly at the feel of his seeking hot tongue in her mouth, shivering slightly in his arms. All the pleasure and excitement of that night came rushing back to her as he kissed her deeply, passionately.
She was hesitant kissing him back, for some reason it was easier when she didn't know who he was. But his hands started stroking her back and his tongue caressed hers, urging her to partake of their sensual kiss. Her arms around his neck tightened, as she pressed herself closer to him, hesitantly kissing him back, curling her tongue around his and sucking gently.
Sasuke groaned softly, she tasted so sweet, she felt so divine, he could feel his head spin when she kissed him back. He pulled back slightly and smiled when he heard a small whine come from her, but he wasn't done yet. He quickly placed his lips on her neck, kissing and sucking softly at her sensitive skin. She tilted her head back to give him more access, her movements controlled by the lust flowing through her veins. Her hands dove into his hair, stroking his scalp gently, her arms tightening when she felt the soft nip of his teeth.
"S-Sasuke…" she sighed softly. He smiled again at hearing his name on her soft lips. Deciding to reward her, and himself, for getting his name right this time; he slowly brought one hand under her shirt, feeling the softness of her skin. Going slowly for her, he caressed her side, inching his way towards her breast. He could feel her shiver in anticipation; he brought his mouth back up to hers, as his fingers softly touched the underside of her breast. Her trembling response swamped his senses as his mouth dominated over hers.
Her body jumped when she suddenly felt his hand brush against her already hardened nipple, and her hips instinctively jerked against his when his fingers gently squeezed and rolled it. She could feel a dampness blossom between her legs that scared her. She suddenly pushed away from him, it was difficult for her; knowing she was doing such things with her ex-fiancé's best friend. Panting for breath she turned her back on him, trying to get sufficient air into her lungs. She felt strong arms wrap around her waist and she was once again engulfed in his warmth.
Sasuke was battling the ragging need in him, trying desperately for a certain part of his anatomy not to come alive. He was a little disappointed that she had made him stop there, but he didn't want to push her. When she would finally give herself to him, he wanted her to do it willingly. And he was determined to have her, now that she wasn't Naruto's, she will be his. As he wrapped his arms around her from behind, he could feel her stiffen in his arms. He pulled her close to him and kissed her temple.
"Shh shh…it's ok." He whispered to her softly, "We'll stop for tonight." He could feel her slowly relaxing in his arms as he continued to kiss her temple and hairline. She placed her arms over his and leaned back into him, nodding her head, not trusting herself to speak at the moment.
Sasuke slowly released her and watched as she climbed into his bed. He was just about to lay down in his, on the floor, when he heard her soft hesitant voice.
"Umm…Sasuke-kun…would you…maybe, umm…j-join me? J-just to sleep…not…not anything else." Hinata asked with a deep red blush and hoped that in the darkness, he wouldn't see it. Without saying anything, he abandoned the sheets on the floor, and slowly slid under then sheets with her.
Hinata had herself propped up on one elbow, but now that he was in with her, she wasn't sure what to do. She had never even slept with Naruto before, and didn't know how to lie down with a person so close to her. She but didn't want to be alone anymore, she wanted someone to care for her, to be with her, to help her heal her wounded heart. Maybe, just maybe…Sasuke could help her with that.
Sasuke sighed, with what sounded like impatience, as he reached up and pulled her down onto his chest. Hinata blinked with surprise, but feeling the warmth of his body and the comfort it gave her; she smiled and closed her eyes.
"Good night Sasuke-kun." She whispered into the darkness.
"Good night…Hinata." Sasuke replied. Feeling her relax on him and hearing her deep even breaths, he turned his head to see her serenely sleeping face. He trailed a finger across her smooth pale cheek, marveling in its softness.
"I love you." he whispered.
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AN: Oh God! I finally finished this chapter. Man, I'm tired…sorry it took me so long. But I was never satisfied with how I wrote it or how it came out. I must have written this chapter 12 different times! Well I hope you like this one, I like it, it's a little OOC, sorry about that…but I thought it ended cute. I know Sasuke saying he loved her is kinda OOC but it's not like she was awake to hear it…so whatever. Again, I apologize for the lateness. I'll try and update sooner, but no promises since I've started school already, but I'll update as soon as I can. Please review and tell me what you think, that'll help in me updating sooner.