Ch.12 When I'm With You

"Hey…don't feel that way." He said softly, then leaned his head forward so that his lips were mere inches from her ear. "I want to, you know that…but the question is…do you?" he whispered before pulling away from her.

He watched her head lower again, he knew…she didn't know the answer to his question. He leaned forward once again and planted a light sweet kiss on her lips.

"Now go." he urged her softly. She nodded her head, she was feeling so many things right now, all she could do was what he told her to do. As if in a daze she walked passed him, to his door, and out of his apartment. Sasuke released the breath he was holding until he had heard his door close.

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Hinata looked down on the ground, not knowing where she was going, just watching her feet moving, taking her somewhere. The sun had already set and the stars were coming out. Hinata wrapped her arms around herself as she felt a cool breeze brush along her skin, making her shiver. She didn't really know what the think right now, what to feel, how to react. Her mind drifted back to only minutes before.

Her body was on fire, throbbing with pleasure, and trembling with anticipation. He had stripped her of her clothing so that she was only in her bra and panties, but for some reason she couldn't summon up enough sense to care, the only thing that seemed important was the incredible sensations he was making her feel. When he had pulled back, she didn't even feel uncomfortable or self-conscious like usual. It was the look in his eyes, that look that made her feel that she was the most beautiful creature he has ever seen. That admiration in his eyes, eyes that made her feel…sexy. It made her smile. Never before had anyone else made her feel that way…not even Naruto.

When he lowered himself back down to her, her heart thrilled. His body was magnificent, so sculpted and define. She had wrapped her arms around his strong shoulders, the touch of his skin against hers was like electricity and very addictive. He was so amazing, she didn't understand him. This man could have any woman he wanted, yet he wanted her. It was like one of those things you dream about, but never really think that it's ever going to happen…and then it does. She couldn't help but speak her mind as it was filled with wonder, how could such a man want a woman like her?

"Do you…want me?" she had asked with a giggle. She didn't even notice that he had frozen in his arms, when he suddenly started to pull away from her. It was like she was suddenly dunked in ice cold water. What was going on? Why was he pulling away from her? Did he really NOT want her? Did she offend him when she asked that?

"S-Sasuke…what's wrong?" she whined, her body cold, missing the heat from his. He was making her feel such incredible things, and now he was pulling away from her. She couldn't help but feel a little selfish…she enjoyed feeling like the way he made her feel. She missed feeling happy, she missed not worrying about things, she missed feeling like the strong woman that she was before the wedding. And he made her feel like that again. He made her feel like she was back to her normal self.

She watched him with shocked and hurt eyes as he picked up his shirt and pulled it back over his head and onto his body. Her jaw even dropped a little at watching him walk away from her without a word. Her bottom lip started to tremble and she could feel the sting in her eyes. 'Oh no please…don't cry…don't cry in front of him.' She begged herself as she started to sit up.

"Go home Hinata." She could hear the coldness in his voice. She suddenly felt like the fun time that they had had earlier was just an illusion…that it wasn't real. How could he do this to her? How can make her feel so hot then act so cold? She searched for her clothes frantically, she needed to get dressed and leave. She should have known that no one would ever really desire her or ever really want her. Naruto didn't, Sasuke didn't…her heart dropped, something must really be wrong with her.

Once dressed she looked up briefly to see him watching her from the bathroom doorway. Feeling insecure again and unwanted, she murmured a soft goodbye, unable to bring herself to just say his name without the honorific anymore. Wanting to get as far away from this uncomfortable and disappointing situation she quickly tried to scurry around him, surprised when he stopped her. Whispering in her ear again, it was as if he was torturing her, his breath so warm on her ear, making her heart race again. But what he said…made her drop her head. He was right, why was she always the one that was wrong?

"I want to, you know that…but the question is…do you?" it was if suddenly reality stopped. Time, space, life itself seemed to freeze when he asked her that question. It was then she was beginning to realize just what he was going through. He did want her, he made it seem like he's always wanted her…but he was waiting for her. He kissed her sweetly on the lips before sending her away, her mind too preoccupied to say otherwise.

And now here she was, wandering around the village, thinking about his words, about that question. He was waiting for her, for some reason, she just couldn't get passed that. She felt ashamed to admit it, but he probably would have been about to get her to sleep with him tonight…but he didn't. He could have…but he didn't. And then, what about her? Hinata winced, what about her? What was she doing for him? Teaching him how to cook? She could hardly count that. All she did was mope around about what Naruto did to her, all she did was push him away while she dwelled in the past.

Hinata hugged herself a little bit more tightly as the wind blew gently against her. Then a constant throbbing pain in her hand snapped her back to reality…she was at Ino's apartment…knocking on the door for goodness know's how long…probably looking like an idiot. Where's Ino? It's…ten at night. Did she go out? Then Hinata gasped as she remember than Ino had said that she was going to spend the weekend with Choji since they had recently made up from their fight. I guess I'll just go back home, Hinata thought a little sadly.

"…I'm having a girl's night with Ino…"

Hinata almost smacked herself, she had told Neji that she was spending the night with Ino, she can't go home! Hinata stared to panic, not sure where to go now. She couldn't go to Shino's or Kiba's…they were both away on missions, she couldn't go to Tenten's she would only tell Neji, she definitely wasn't going to Naruto's she didn't think she could see him yet without crying…so that left only on person…Sasuke. Hinata groaned out loud, she couldn't go back to his place…it was obvious he didn't want her around right now. But she very well couldn't go home, not after it took so much work to tell Neji that little lie and actually have him believe it. Besides, how could she face Sasuke after he asked her a question like that? How could she go back when she didn't have the answer? Plus, she didn't want to impose on him anymore than she already was…but when left with no where else to go…

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Sasuke was staring up at his ceiling, his arms folded behind his head, resting in his bed. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath…he could still smell her sweet sent, it clung to his sheets, his pillow. It tortured him, it teased him…and he loved it. It was like she was there with him, next to him, laying in his arms with him. He would never forget when she had spent the night on top of him and he woke up with the sun lightly shining on her hair as she stared down at his lips. It was as if heaven had sent an angel down to him for reasons unknown to him. But he was grateful and he would never forget the miracle of falling asleep with her and then waking up to see that she was still with him. Her gentle light shining on all his dark days, her loving smile fighting away all the monsters in his past.

He turned on his side and stroked the empty space next to him, wishing that she was there. Closing his eyes again, ready to fall asleep, he suddenly heard someone knocking at his door. Sighing with frustration, he slowly got up. It better not be Sakura. Opening his door, he stared at the woman before him…it was as if his thoughts had summoned her, his wish coming true.

"Sasuke." Hinata said softly as she gazed at him from under her lashes, still embarrassed about what had happened between them only a couple of hours before hand. Sasuke just continued to look at her, silent, knowing that she would eventually say what was on her mind.

"I…umm…I…can I spend the night here…please?" she asked him hesitantly. Sasuke gave her a questioning look.

"I uhh…told Neji that I was…spending the night at Ino's…but…I forgot that she's not there…this weekend." She said slowly, an embarrassed blush coloring her cheeks. Sasuke narrowed his eyes at her.

"Is there a particular reason why you don't want anyone to know that you're with me?" he asked her with an emotionless voice and leaned against the doorframe, remembering the last time she had spent the night with him. Hinata's head snapped up with her eyes wide, that was the last thing she would have guessed him to say.

"Well I…ah I…I…" she stumbled over herself, only making Sasuke more and more angry.

"What is it, Hinata, ashamed to be with me?" he asked her a little harshly.

"N-no." she said quickly, surprised that he would even ask that.

"So then I'm just not good enough to be with you in public." He shot at her. She lowered her head so he wouldn't see her eyes, but he could had better eyesight than most, seeing the slowly single tear trail down her cheek.

"I just…" she whispered softly, "didn't want…people to think that…I ditched Naruto for you…or that…you stole me away from him…because that's not why I left him…I'm…I'm sorry." She said softly, fighting back the other tears that desperately wanted to fall and join the one that escaped her. She could hear him sigh deeply, sounding exasperated. Biting her bottom lip with shame, she was surprised to feel his warm fingers beneath her chin, lifting her face up.

Sasuke could see the tears in her eyes that she was trying to hold in. With his other hand, he gently wiped away the single tear on her face. Why do I always seem to make her cry?

"Don't cry." He told her softly, "I'm sorry…but it's hard Hinata…" he started off slowly, she wanted him to open up to her, and though it was difficult, he would do it…for her.

"…it's hard, wanting to…be with you…but…not knowing what I…what I…" he couldn't seem to get the words out right, and damned if he wasn't blushing too, as if this wasn't hard enough as it is.

"mean to you." he mumble quietly, half hoping she heard and half hoping she didn't. Hinata looked at him with wide eyes, perplexed and feeling a little guilty.

"Oh Sasuke," Hinata's eyes lowered to the ground, "I…I don't know what to feel." She whined softly. Nodding his head with defeat, Sasuke dropped his hand from her face, feeling unworthy to touch her anymore…she didn't want him. But Hinata caught his hand, and slowly brought it back up to her face, brushing her cheek softly against his palm, a dark pink on her cheeks.

"But…for some reason, it gets darker, sadder…when you're not with me. I…I'm happier when…when I'm with you." she said softly, slowly trailing her pale eyes up to his black ones, her vulnerability shining in her eyes making Sasuke's heart squeeze in his chest. She was holding his hand to her small lovely face, looking up at him with such sweetness in her eyes. Moving forward, he wrapped his other arm around her shoulders, bringing her closer to him. She lifted her hands and gently laid them on his chest, and leaned up, closing her eyes and kissing him softly.

Sasuke lowered his head and closed his eyes to receive her kiss, feeling that all was right in the world again…she was back in his arms. Touching his forehead with hers, he smiled.

"Come on in."

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She was in an endless field of flowers, their lovely scent filling her nose and easing her mind. She could feel strong arms slowly wrap around her from behind and gently pull her close. Closing her eyes briefly, the sense of love and contentment washing over her and filling her body, she turned around to see the man behind her. She smiled widely as she gazed into cheerfully deep blue eyes.

"Naruto." She said his name on a light sigh. He smiled widely at her, his whiskered scars on his face making her heart squeeze, he was just so cute.

"Hinata…I love you." his beloved voice said.

"I love you too Naruto." She answered, her love shining in her pearly eyes.

"You mean more to me than life itself." He told her, his eyes serious.

"You are my life." She told him honestly, she lived for him, breathed for him, would die for him. She closed her eyes as she leaned up on her toes, wanting to kiss him.

"Hinata?" she heard another voice say. Opening her eyes up, it was suddenly Sasuke holding her in his arms. She started to shake her head as she struggled against him…she didn't want him…she wanted Naruto!

"Oooohhhh Naruto…aahhh….ooohhhh…" passionate moans and sighs reached her ears, making her stop her struggling against Sasuke. They were coming from behind him.

"No Hinta don't look!" Sasuke cried as she tried to look over his shoulder, but it was too late. She already saw. Naruto, making love to Sakura…caressing her ivory skin, his mouth on her chest, her legs wrapped around his waist while he thrusted his hips into her over and over and over again.

The field of flowers disappeared as everything began to fade and turn black so that now the only thing she could see was Naruto pumping himself into her.

"Sakura…oohhh Sakura." He moaned out loud. Suddenly a chest blocked her view as strong hands gripped her shoulders tightly.

"I told you not to look." She could hear Sasuke say softly to her. But she didn't respond, she couldn't move, couldn't breath, couldn't think. She could feel her body beginning to tremble violently as the shock of what she just saw started to wear off. Her cheeks were soaked before she even realized that she was crying. Taking a deep breath, she let out a heart wrenching cry, covering her face with her hands as her legs buckled from under her. But Sasuke held her up, wrapping his arms around her and holding her close. Her hands gripped the front of his shirt as she let the tears fall from her eyes, and he just held her, he held her close.

Finally when there were no more tears left to cry, she could feel him lightly press his lips to her forehead.

"I may not be Naruto…but that doesn't mean that I don't care for you." lifting her head up, Hinata could see the sincerity in his dark eyes.

"S-Sasuke." She whispered, as she closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around him as well, holding him tightly and pressing her face into his chest.

"Hinata." He said, but his voice sounded distant. Opening her eyes again, she looked up only to find him fading in her arms, as if he was disappearing from her life forever.

"S-Sasuke? D-don't leave me! Please don't leave me! I don't want to be alone! PLEASE! SASUKE!"

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"Hinata…Hinata!" Hinata gasped sharply as her eyes shot open and she quickly sat up in bed. Her eye sight was blurry and she felt disoriented, her skin was dotted with sweat and her heart was racing in her chest.

"Hinata!" blinking a few times, Sasuke's familiar face started to come into focus. With the nightmare still fresh in her mind, Hinata's bottom lip trembled as she looked at Sasuke' concerned face.

"Oh Sasuke!" she cried as she threw her arms around him. "Please don't ever leave me! Please! I don't want to be alone! Please Sasuke! Don't leave me!" she cried as she held him tightly, her face buried in his shoulder. Sasuke wrapped his arms around her shivering body.

"Ssshhh…it's okay now…I'm not going anywhere…it was only a bad dream." He whispered to her, gently rocking her in his arms.

"You knew…you knew didn't you?" she asked him softly, feeling him stiffen. Raising her head up she looked at him. "You knew about Naruto and Sakura."

Sasuke's eyes were blank as he looked back at her, not exactly sure how she would react. But he nodded his head once all the same, there's no point in lying to her. He could see the sadness in her eyes as she lowered her head back down to his shoulder and felt her tighten her grip around him.

"Hinata…look…I'm sorry…I'm sorry, I should have told you." he said with a little bit of difficulty, still not really use to apologizing. But he could feel her head shake on his shoulder.

"Just don't leave me like he did." She begged him, burying her face deeper into his shoulder. He smiled and almost laughed.

"Hinata, I was never as stupid as him." He told her as he gently kissed her hair. "I would never leave you." he said to her solemnly. She was still for a moment before slowly nodding her head.

"You okay now?" he asked her softly. Nodding her head again, Sasuke slowly withdrew his arms from her, but kissed her cheek.

"Go back to sleep Hinata." He said, as he got up from the bed to lie back down on the floor where his make-shift bed was. But Hinata quickly grabbed his hand to stop him.

"Sasuke…would you…would you…sleep with me? Please." She asked him, still a little scared to go back to sleep, still a little scared of being alone…without him. Nodding his head in understanding, Sasuke lifted the covers and slid into the bed next to her. Shifting so that he was on his side, her gathered her into his arms and kissed her forehead again. Hinata also wrapped an arm around him, wanting to be as close to him as possible, wanting to be engulfed in his warmth, wanting to be close to his heart.

"Good night Sasuke…and thank you." she murmured, her eyelids starting to feel heavy and his warmth and comforting embrace beginning to make her drowsy.

"Good night Hinata…and remember…your not alone…not any more." He said softly, repeating her words when she held him after his nightmare. Hinata closed her eyes and snuggled a little closer to him, a small smile on her face as she drifted off to sleep.

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AN: Okay I know that this is kind of a boring chapter, especially compared to the last one, but I just felt the need to have Hinata's character grow a little bit, to the point where she finally recognizes that she needs him…to be happy. I'm not sure yet, but I'm thinking that the long awaited lemon will be in the next chapter…I have see how everything will flow first. And no this is not what I meant about bringing Sakura's character back into the story…we'll see her in later chapters. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed this, please keep reviewing and giving me you love…it makes me get to writing chapters faster. So till the next chapter…ja ne!