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Slants of bittersweet sunlight stretched their way from the window to my eyes, blinding me as I awoke. I groaned in pain as my retinas were being burned. I heard a soft chuckle to the side of me, and turned to focus on a miraculously beautiful shimmering Edward swaying back and forth in his rocking chair. I groaned again, flopping aimlessly in my covers, trying to find a comfortable spot to fall asleep again. I was unsuccessful. Without thinking twice, I fluidly ran over to sit on Edwards lap, twisting my fingers in his hair, watching even the tiny strands glitter and glow in the natural light. He peered down at me with curiosity, then changed to the soft look of content that made me oh so happy.

After what I thought was hours of rocking back and forth, holding each other in an affectionate embrace, me still twisting and twirling my adventurous fingers in his hair, him tracing every contour of my face, I broke the sanctuary of our embrace and straddled him. A playful look of surprise and wonder captured his porcelain features, as a low growl vibrated in his throat. His eyes searched mine for the answer to my random movements. The only answer I gave was a delicate kiss on his questioning brow. Then I pulled back to once again look in to his honey mirrored windows to his soul.

"so…" I prodded.

"so…?" he looked completely confused as to my actions. It was almost fun, confusing him, he always gave that look of "what did I do now?". I let myself giggle at the thought, which only confused him more, but now he was getting frustrated at my lack of words.

"please tell me what your thinking." he begged .

"I was thinking…when?"

His eyes glanced back and forth for a moment, must be the wheels turning in his head.

"wha-?" I cut him off.

"When are you going to change me?" I clarified. His expression was sorrowed and serious now, contemplating on how to answer.

"Bella… I don't like discussing on when I'm going to kill you." was all he said.

"But you said-"

"Yes, and I will…" a smile swept his lips, " I wouldn't want to ruin my reputation by being a liar, now would I?."

In an instant, a mood swing back to somber. " I just want you to be prepared first. And I think… I need a little more time with you…how you are now."

I blushed deeply, realizing what he had meant. I had never thought of how painful it would be for him to watch me become a completely different person than what I am, in a matter of speaking.

He shattered my thoughts with a booming laugh that almost sent me flying backwards off of his lap.

My iridescent blush becoming deeper by the second.

"You see, this is what I'll miss…your heat, your glow, your life essence." he stated thoughtfully.

"In other words, your going to miss embarrassing me all the time!" I slurred sarcastically.

It took a moment before he said anything, through bout of laughter he said, "Precisely!"

I scowled at him and continued, "Back to the subject soldier."

"yes ma'm!" he gave a perfectly straight solute.

"Edward!" I whined, giving him my notorious pout.

"alright, alright…how about winter break? That way you can get used to your new senses and… needs."

"Perfect!" I glowed with excitement and apprehension at the mere thought of finally being changed. Edward noticed my new found enthusiasm, and twitched into a immaculate smile, but it did not reach his eyes. I was about to question this when he spoke first.

"Bella, I need to get going."

I frowned and hugged him tightly, cuffing my hands around his waist.

"Why?" I didn't want him to leave, but I had the feeling that he couldn't be persuaded.

He heaved a unnecessary sigh and pushed a curl behind my ear, his cold fingers lingering in my hair, falling to my neck, I felt his intent stare at the blue vein pulsing beneath my pasty skin.

His expression was sorrowful and displeased as he admitted, "I'm hungry."

This startled me at first, he had never told me when he was hungry, I only had to guess my the blackness of his eyes, but they were grave and truthful as he spoke.

I plastered on a smile, swung myself off of him to stand, and motioned my hand for him to leave, almost in a bow. He lifted his brow in amusement, and turned to exit. But the second he turned his back I yelled,

"Go get 'em boy!" and smacked his marble derriere.

He turned around slowly, shock painted on his face. And in an instant he had me pinned against the wall, his hands holding mine above my head, our bodies crushed together. A low growl ripped at his throat as he kissed me hard, parting his lips, and then vanished.

I was alone then, standing around in my room, not sure of what to do. I hurriedly got showered and dressed and returned to the spot I had been standing, still as confused as before. I glanced about, looking for anything interesting to bide my time until Edward returned. My eager eyes cast their sight on another book I had gotten from the library. Interview with a Vampire. I didn't care that I was reading the series backwards, in fact, it made them more interesting to me. I skimmed through the pages, realizing I had picked yet another book in which Lestat starred in. As soon as I knew he was in the novel, I finished it in no time at all.

I found it so…interesting, what Lestat went though in his existence. He seemed arrogant, yes, but amazingly charming. It was horrible how he lost Louie, his friend, but then I wondered if that was a work of fiction or not. Edward had said that Lestat was indeed real, but not all the events in his life and people were factual throughout the novels.

I imagined him, his statue like features…dark blonde curly hair, his velvet voice with a slight French accent.

"I want to meet you." I said to the empty silence of the warm, comforting room.

"I wish I could meet you." I whispered. I wasn't sure why I had such strong feelings for someone I had never met. Feelings of interest and curiosity so strong and crushing I could barely take my jagged breaths.

Suddenly I felt weak and frail. I was suffocating, but there was nothing to choke on. Immediately I gasped for air, but being unsuccessful, my world went dark.

I felt as if I was under water, the weight of it crushing my feeble body with all it's force. I extended my hand upwards, towards the choppy surface, searching for something to pull me out. And then there was a hand. It gently glided through the piercing liquid to grasp mine and set me free.

"Bella?" I was shaking…hard. No wait, someone was shaking me. My eye lids fluttered open and focused on the figure grasping my shoulders. It was Alice.

"oh my god Bella, you look like death!" her voice cracked with concern. "Why didn't you answer me?"

"oh… sorry, I must have fallen asleep." I sat up dazed, automatically my hand clutched my head that was still spinning.

"Where's Edward?" I stated, confused.

"He's at home with Carlisle." she eyed me curiously, somewhat shocked at the expression on my face.

"Why-?"

"He didn't tell you?" she was blatantly shocked now, which made me more nervous. I'm sure she had assumed by my confused look that Edward had lied about where he was going.

"Oh. Um, I had a vision Bella. Someone very…powerful is coming."

Why didn't he tell me?

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Hey guys! Sorry this chapter was kind of short, and dragging (writer's block)! there's still a lot of stuff I need to work out in the plot, but never the less, I hope you enjoy it!