Hey everybody! just to let you know, this chapter is not for the light hearted, and contains language. Don't say I didn't warn you.
disclaimer: I didn't write Twilight. but I did write this.
Oh God.
"y…you…your going to change me?" I squealed, half excited, half scared.
"of coarse Bella. What did you think? That I would leave you human?" hate spewed from Lestat's luscious marble lips as he emphasized his deep hate for humanity.
"I don't know what I thought. I'm sorry…I was naive." I choked. "When?"
"Actually I was thinking…tonight. After I've ravished your body." He took a step closer, the thump of this footstep reverberated in my ears. His eyes shone ruby, wild desperation and hunger only a vicious predator could posses. Blood from the left over snack, trickled from the corner of his lip, down his chin, landing on the purity of the white carpet. I soon realized, that there is no hope for me. I would forever be under Lestat's spell, bound by the force of his will, as long as he wanted me, which he made clear, was forever. He was to change me, I was to be bound to him, not just by his powers, but by the venom of his bite. That venom would flow within me for eternity, he would always be with me. I shuddered, feeling the full force of my epiphany, tears stinging my eyes, and let go of my control. I also mistakenly let go of the ivory cordless phone, the key to the shackles around my heart. I had hardly noticed it slipping through my fingertips, for it only made a small thump on the carpet. But sensitive vampire ears caught the sound.
Lestat looked down to the phone against the carpet, and howled with black rage from the depths of hell. A monstrous sneer caught his upper lip, fangs glowing white, but in his eyes I saw sadness. For the first time I saw the lonely soul behind the fair mask. The dead human heart inside him may have beat with pain, fear, and longing, but only for a moment. And then the mask was on again. The monster took control.
"What the fuck is this Bella? You betrayed me?" in one lithe movement he had picked up the phone off the ground and clamped it in his steel grip, causing the weak plastic to crush beneath his inhuman strength. His French accent now thick…was he crying dry tears?
"I…I'm not going to say I'm sorry!" I screamed through the salt tears blurring my vision.
"Who did you call?….Who?"
Lestat advanced closer, until in a flash I was pinned up against the wall, his hands clenched tight around my weak wrists. The force at which I slammed against the wall was unbearable. My head cracked under the wall, if possible, making me even more dizzy than I already was. A haze threatened to fog my eyes, but I pushed it back.
Somehow I have to make it to the Meadow.
"Answer me!" the snarled, volume at top notch.
"I called Edward!" I spat. Nothing can kill a vampire, but I knew those three words would crush him.
An expression of confusion and anger crossed his cold, menacing features, crinkling his nose, furrowing his beautiful brow.
"How do you remember…" he marveled.
"Because I love him! I remember because he means more to me than anyone. And I will never forget him again, your powers won't work anymore Lestat! Your useless….you pathetic excuse for a man." Unyielding confidence filled me, causing my heart to race, my palms to sweat, the tears to stop.
"Is that why you wanted to go to the Meadow? To ambush me?" realization dawning upon him, and then something I did not expect. The most frightening thing I ever heard.
Lestat laughed deeply, loudly, his whole body shaking with unbridled cruelty. I leaned against the wall, transfixed at his dangerous beauty. Everything inside me was screaming, yearning to strangle him. I felt free. It was as if in that moment, what was left of his ominous powers had lifted from my body, making me feel revived. My unwanted love for Lestat vanished, my love for Edward replenished, hit me like a brick wall of built up emotion.
I swallowed hard, the saliva cooling my dry throat. Lestat had figured out my plan. How was I going to get to the Meadow now? How was I going to be saved? A single tear escaped my hate filled orbs. I would not be saved this time. This is it.
A feral growth echoed in Lestat's throat, beckoning me to answer. He knew, and I am not going to survive, so why not tell the truth?
"Yes. The Cullen's were to ambush and kill you once we reached the Meadow."
"That's not going to happen my love." cruelty ringing in my ears.
"I know."
Lestat gripped my hands harder, stepping forward, forcing his body against mine. I could feel the coolness of his skin radiating from under his clothes. The skin that I once wanted to touch, now I wanted to slice, gouge, rip apart.
He breathed bitter air into my fear stricken face…it had once been a sweet smell to me. Now I was revolted by the stench.
Lestat talked deliberately slow, pronouncing every syllable, growls between the tormenting words,
"I will have your body, I will change you, and you will love me."
My lip quavered with pent up anger, fear, loathing, pure and utter hatred.
"Never!" I growled back.
"Now!" he argued. But it was no use. He was too strong.
I fought, scratched, bit, as he threw me down on the bed. I screamed for Edward as he tore at my clothes, revealing my frail, fragile, virgin skin. I cried as I felt his eyes bore into the nakedness of my body. Every time I tried to get away, his iron grip was there, pushing me down. My sobs grew louder as he felt his lips against the skin on my neck. "Not yet.." he whispered more than once, torturing me, making me anticipate a stinging bite, but moving back on to my exposed skin. I was all but numb as I felt him shove his way inside me. Screaming, I kept screaming for Edward…I never stopped. The pain was too much to handle, the burning, tearing of soft flesh. He was rough, he didn't care if he killed me, as long as he got his moment of pleasure. And it was over. The familiar smell of copper filled my lungs, tears stung my puffy red eyes, my whole body ached. I felt grimy, dirty, like I had just rolled around in a vat filled with mud. Lestat rolled off me, sighing in content, his hands behind his head, staring at the ceiling.
I ran into the bathroom, grabbing my underwear and a shirt, locking the door behind me. I stared at myself in the mirror. My hair was disheveled, my eyes had deep red circles around them, my skin bore hand shaped bruises…all over. I screamed….cried once more. I stepped into a scalding hot shower, scrubbing at my skin fiercely, making scratches.
I was impure. I was used. Edward wouldn't want me now.
The water rolled down the tensed muscles of my back…still not soothing the pain. I stepped out and stared once more into the mirror. My eyes were different. Filled with sorrow…regret…hatred of myself.
I pulled the underwear on, and the shirt I grabbed, not caring that my hair was soaking wet, and stepped into the bedroom once more. It would be a blessing if I died from the flew because of a wet head.
Lestat was clothed, and sat at the edge of the bed, a priceless smirk upon his merciless features. He chuckled, and pushed a renegade lock of pale blonde hair behind his ear.
"Was it good for you?" his tone reflected amusement. I didn't answer. I couldn't find my voice. I did not want to answer him. I never wanted to speak again.
"Come here." he ordered. I obeyed, knowing full well that I would not be able to escape. I was a slave.
I sauntered towards him, lowered myself to my knees to be eyelevel, only inches away.
He looked almost worried now, fake innocence crossing his face, eyes widened so seem sincere.
"Don't worry… it gets better." he assured. I nodded, numbed to the core, a blank expression on my face, eyes vacant.
"I love you." he spoke.
Fury, fire, revulsion piqued inside of me. My hand flew up to his face and slapped him with all my might.
"I hate you." I whispered, voice shaking.
He looked steadily at me for a moment, studying my face. He slowly nodded.
"I believe you. But it doesn't matter. You are mine."
His hand flew to my hair, pulling back, exposing the skin at my neck, the pulsing vein of life, and lowered his head.
A few seconds later I felt the coolness of his breath, and then the puncture of his fangs. I closed my eyes, ready for the fire to consume me. I heard him moan. Then I heard a desperate cry.
Lestat dropped my limp body to the floor. My eyes barely open, all I saw was light…bright light.
I heard shouts. I fought to stay conscious. Why is Lestat shouting?
I closed my eyes in an attempt to block out the noise, but the fire kept pulling me back to consciousness. The voices were getting louder…
"Carlisile!"
"Damn you! What did you do to her!"
"It's too late for your precious Bella, I've bitten her!"
Boisterous growls, feral snarls, loud crashes.
And then I saw an angel. He was crying, sobbing, dry tears.
The light glowed around his perfect face, his skin sparkled. He spoke to me urgently, his voice quavering, making his words almost in audible.
"oh god, Bella. Stay with me Bella!" screams of anger, hurt, exploding from his body.
I was in his arms, in his cool iron grip. His loving grip. His smooth voice.
"Edward?" I whispered.
"oh Jesus Bella, oh god, I love you, I love you, stay with me!"
"Edward…the fire's back…" hearing myself I sounded like a scared toddler, frightened and hurt.
"I know love, just hang on." the desperation in his voice becoming more apparent.
"Carlisile!"
"We cannot stop the venom Edward, not this time." a resigned pained voice appeared beside me, "You must bite her Edward, to tame Lestat's venom. If you don't, who knows how she will turn out."
An agonized growl blared in my ears.
"There is no other way Edward, you must do it know." I recognized that soft, motherly tone, Esme.
I managed to squeak out one word, "Lestat?" I questioned.
"He's gone Bella, he can't hurt you anymore." Emmet's confident growl sounded.
"Edward now!" Alice cautioned.
"Edward, I love you. Bite me." I rasped. The pain writhing inside, consuming me.
"I love you for eternity." his soft voice cooed.
And once more I felt a puncture in my neck, setting the fire ablaze, my vision darkening, pulse subsiding.
I'm dying.
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Hi again! you didn't think i was going to let Lestat keep her did you? tisk tisk! i love Edward as much as all yall, i had to bring him back! I know this chap was a little depressing, but it will get better i promise! Sorry i haven't updated in a while, school's been kicking my butt lately! so if i don't update for a couple of weeks, don't get upset! i didn't forget my story.