CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Martha let out a huge sigh. It was the next morning and she was sitting down on the beach; looking out over the water. It was beautiful. She had hoped that going for a walk along the beach would take her mind off Jack. But it only made her think about him more. And she'd had a really restless night because all she could think about was him.
She kept thinking about how she had ruined their relationship. She still couldn't believe that she had broken up with him. Everytime she closed her eyes she would see the look of hurt and sadness on his face. And it would always make her cry. She just wanted to run back to him and pretend like it never happened.
Martha looked at her watch and realised that it was nearly eleven o'clock. She stood up and started walking up the beach. She was having her first ultrasound at Twelve o'clock, and Tasha was taking the day off school just so she could go with her. Martha was actually pretty excited about it. She was going to see her baby for the first time.
Martha was in such a deep thought that she didn't even realise that Jack was coming towards her. But when she did see him, she noticed that he looked like crap, and he looked as though he hadn't slept much.
"Hey," Jack said when he reached her.
"Hi," Martha said back in a small voice.
They just stood and looked at each other for a little while, but Jack was the one who broke the silence.
"This is so stupid. Why can't we just be together?" he said to her.
"Jack, we went through this yesterday," Martha groaned.
"Yeah, and the reason you gave me for wanting to break-up is absolute crap," Jack started. "I can be a part of Grace's life and still be with you at the same time. So I don't understand what the problem is," he continued.
"Please don't do this Jack. I've made up my mind, and you need to except that," Martha cried.
"I'm sorry, but I can't except it. I couldn't even get any sleep last night because all I could think about was you," Jack practically yelled. "Look at me. I look like total crap. I'm going crazy," he explained.
"This is hard for me too, okay. I want nothing more than for us to be together. Because I love; I really do," Martha started to sob. "But at the moment we just can't be together. I've made my decision, so just leave it," she finished before running off.
"Martha, wait," Jack called out.
But she ignored him and kept going.
Megan smiled to herself. From what she just saw; Jack and Martha were no longer together. What a shame, she laughed to herself sarcastically.
"This is so exciting," Tasha exclaimed. She was sitting next to Martha, who was lying up on a hospital bed, having gel spread over her stomach.
"Good god, that's cold," Martha gasped, refering to the gel.
"Sorry about that," Dr Morgan laughed. Martha smiled at her Doctor. She seemed like a nice lady.
"Ok Martha, are you ready to see your baby?" Doctor Morgan asked.
"Yep," Martha nodded as she looked at Tasha.
"Let's get going then," the Doctor said, reaching over and turning the screen on. "Ok, so i've just spread the gel over your stomach. The gel allows the ultrasound waves to pass from the probe into the body," she explained.
Dr Morgan then gently placed the probe onto Martha's stomach and started gliding it across her skin. Martha kept her eyes glued to the screen. She didn't want to miss a thing.
"And there it is," the Doctor announced as an image appeared on the screen.
"Oh my god," Martha said in a hushed voice.
Seeing the baby on the screen made everything seem so real now. There was another human being growing inside of her.
"That's amazing," Tasha sighed from beside Martha. "Look Mac, it's your baby," she said, holding onto Martha's hand.
"Seeing that makes me realise that this actually happening. I'm having a baby," Martha exclaimed.
"It can be pretty overwhelming, can't it?" Doctor Morgan grinned.
Martha suddenly thought of Jack. She wished he was here to see it. To see their child. Of course, she was the one to blame for him not being there. She was the one who decided not to tell him.
"Now, you're only twelve weeks into the pregnancy, so it's not very big. But its' still there," the Doctor started to speak. "And I'm very happy to say that everything looks fine. I don't see any problems whatsoever," she told Martha.
"Are you sure?" Martha asked her. "Yes, i'm positive. But just make sure you take care of yourself," the Doctor reassured her.
"Thank you," Martha smiled at her. This baby was her whole world now, and she just wanted to make sure that everything was running smoothly.
Martha stood down at the waters edge; letting the water lap around her feet. She looked at the ultrasound photo in her hand and smiled. She still couldn't believe that the tiny image on the photo was a baby, and that it was growing inside of her.
She had a sudden urge to just run to Jack's and show him the life that they had created together. But she couldn't do it. Not right now anyway.
"Looks like it's just going to be me and you for a while, little baby," she cried a bit, as she rubbed her stomach.
"You're pregnant?" a voice sounded directly from behind her. Martha paused on the spot. Oh crap, she thought to herself.
Martha spun around and came face to face with Lucas. "Hey," she smiled lightly at him.
"You're pregnant?" Lucas asked again.
Martha just looked at him. She had just been busted big time, and she didn't know what to say to him.
"I'll take the silence as a yes. Of course, there is also the fact that I just saw you talking to your stomach, and you refered to it as a baby," Lucas exclaimed.
"Yes. Fine, I'm pregnant," Martha confessed.
"Oh my god. Does Jack know?" Lucas asked.
Martha shook her head. "No, not yet," she told him.
"I'm guessing you only just found out today. I doubt you would have broken up with Jack if you already knew," Lucas presumed.
Martha looked away from him; feeling a little ashamed. "Actually, i've known for a while," she said.
"How long?" Lucas demanded.
"Nearly two months," she said softly.
"Two months? How far along are? Does anybody else know?" Lucas fired questions at her.
"I'm three months along. And the only people who know are Flynn and Tasha," Martha explained to him.
"We need to tell Jack," Lucas stated.
"No, we can't. I'm not ready to yet," Martha started to panic a little bit.
"He's my brother Martha. I can't hide something like this from him," Lucas said.
"Please," Martha begged. "I just need some more time. And besides, he doesn't need this to worry about right now. He has Grace to worry about. And you know how stressed he's been about that lately. I don't want to make it worse. Luc, i'm begging you. Please just keep it to yourself," Martha continued
"Fine. But i don't like it one bit," Lucas sighed.
"Thank you so much," Martha pulled him into a big hug.
"Oh god, what am I getting myself into?" Lucas muttered as he hugged her back.
"I really appreciate you doing this for me. I love you and I owe you big time," Martha said.
"Yeah, yeah," Lucas mumbled.
"You wanna go for a walk?" Martha laughed.
"Yep, sure," Lucas nodded and picked up his school bag from where he had dropped it. They walked in silence for a few moments before Lucas started speaking again.
"Jack's pretty messed up, you know. He's taking the break-up really hard. I suppose he thought that the two of you were going to be together forever," he told Martha.
"I saw him this morning, and he didn't look too good," Martha said.
"I don't think he got any sleep last night and he was up for ages drinking beer. Dad kept telling him to stop but he wouldn't listen. I've ever seen him like this before," Lucas explained.
"It's really hard for me too! I love Jack so much, and it's hard having to stay away from him. I know it's only been 24 hours, but I already miss him like crazy," Martha began. "But, i'm sticking with my decision. He needs to make Grace his top priority at the moment, and I don't want to get in the way of that," she finished.
"Jack loves you," Lucas told her. "What he feels for you; he's never felt for anyone".
"Yeah, I know he does," Martha nodded. "Look, I told Jack that it wasn't going to be forever. He knows that I love him. And when the time is right; hopefully we will be together again," she kept on.
Martha hoped and prayed that that day would be soon. Because she really didn't know how much longer she could stay apart from him. It already hurt too much.
NEXT CHAPTER - It's Lucas's birthday, and Martha and Megan get a bit nippy with each other.