Summary: A collection of
snippets, depicting possible scenes either never taking place in
front of a camera, or ideas/thoughts/emotions hard to relay via that
media...
Warning: The tense may vary from piece to piece,
as will the length and POV. Spoilers about for each and every
episode so far released in the USA.
Disclaimer: The
Winchesterverse is completely the property of Mr Kripke and his
companions.
COGITATIONS
103:
Dead in the Water
by Sade Lyrate
His recollections are hazy, granted.
But some things survive.
Mom. Light and love, butterfly sense memories of rhyme, warmth, safety mixing with stories their Dad told, photographs painting out details of her figure from the cotton ball sensations of a child.
The fear and the fire. Heat and profound sense of loss far beyond any rational ability or possibility. The flurry of lights and sounds, half-sleep softening the impressions into dull ache.
The horror of waking up alone, the instant of pure terror when he thought the fire had taken everything, everyone from him. The breath in which his fears were condensed, strangling all sound, until the world bled back, and he saw Sammy in his crib, the safe, strong figure of his father nearby. Present, but absent. There, but gone. Not like before.
The wrongness of words, how certain he was that saying anything outloud would bring the bad things back, take Sammy and Dad from him, like they'd taken Mom. How being quiet, silently turn inside, let things 'outside' simply happen, seemed like the best choice in a world that had suddenly grown much darker and colder.
To think Lucas is trapped by similar terrors... He doesn't like to
reflect on that. Whatever haunts the kid, he will do anything to
banish it. He couldn't help himself. Not back then.
He can help
Lucas now.