TWENTY QUESTIONS
Chapter 5: Of virinity, bickering, and….??
A/n: I don't own Card Captor Sakura. Duh. :)
Summary: It's been a tradition in their group that a guy and a girl would be locked up in a room for 7 days. This year, it's Sakura and Syaoran's turn. Syaoran suggests that they play Twenty Questions. A fanfic full of playfulness, bickering, friendship, kisses and maybe even…LOVE? SxS. R&R please!
Main Characters:
Li Syaoran - Fresh graduate, an heir of the Li Clan and is in the same group of friends as that of Sakura.
Kinomoto Sakura - Commercial Model, 2 years ahead of Syaoran.
They both belong to the same group of friends, which comprises of Eriol, Tomoyo, Chiharu, Naoko, Yamasaki, Mei Ling, Yukito, Touya, and Misuki.
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NOTE: Re: My story being a little bit fast-paced
This is going to be a bit of a spoiler, but what the heck. This story was intended to be short. And I already have an ending in mind. The whole fanfic is going to happen in ONE NIGHT only. It is entitled "Twenty Questions" after all. Hehehehh… I'm ending this in the 6th or maybe the 7th chapter… Please don't hate me for planning this to be a short fanfic. I just don't like to make a long fanfic just for the sake of making it long. Hope you guys can get what I'm trying to say here. Hehehehh…
Note part 2: Re: WHAT QUESTION ARE THEY ON?!?!?
I know most of you are asking this… I'm sorry I didn't quite dwell on that.. kkkkkk…. As for the number of questions, they've got 10 questions each… I didn't count their follow-up questions.. Why? Because they were both too preoccupied with their train of conversation that they totally forgot about the game rules… kkkk… but really, that's my purpose! ;) As a quick recap, here are the questions they've asked so far: (hope you guys remember the part where Sakura didn't want to ask the first question because she wanted to ask the LAST one.):::::
1. What was the biggest regret you've had in your life? - Syao
2. Did you ever have doubts about your sexuality? - Sak
3. How do you see yourself five to ten years from now? - Syao
4. Who was your first crush in our group? - Sak
5. ho is your crush in the group right NOW? - Syao
6. How was your first kiss? - Sak
7. What was the most naughty thing you ever did? - Syao
8. Are you still a virgin? – Sak; and that was the last hanging question. wink.wink.nudge.nudge.
Like what I said before, don't hesitate to message me if ever you guys don't understand some parts on my story… hehehh… Here's the 5th chapter: "Of virginity, bickering and….????"
And uh…. sorry for the effin' long A/N… :(
Anyway, ENJOY:)
AND YEAH, THIS CHAPTER HAVE A SERIOUS FLOW OF CONVERSATION… BUT I HOPE YOU GUYS WOULD STILL FIND IT INTERESTING:)
Sakura stepped back and looked up to face Syaoran,
Then asked, "Are you still a virgin?" she said, stopping herself from snickering.
Syaoran sweatdropped and asked, "Whoa! Where did that come from?"
"That's my fourth question." She smiled and sat on the railing, waiting for Syaoran to do the same.
"….You don't think I completely forgot about the game now, do you?" she smirked at him, while he was still getting back his composure.
'Boy, she really IS unpredictable…but that's why I love her even more…' he smiles then sat down – this time, not in front of her, but beside her.
'Maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me, Syaoran… just maybe…' Sakura said, staring at those hypnotizing amber orbs.
(End of Chapter 4 – I've omitted the song part for this chapter's sake. :p)
Syaoran poured some wine on both of their glasses and asked, "Well, what do you think?" he smirked at Sakura, just looking at her.
"Wait, wait, wait.. Don't tell me that nothing still happened between you and Yumi until now?! How long have you been together?!?"
"Supposedly 2 years next week…"
'Ouch.' Sakura can't help but feel his hurt. I mean two years, man. TWO YEARS!!! "So you're STILL a virgin??? I can't believe it!"
"Do I look like some horny bastard?" he smirked at her.
"Well you look like you make EVERY GIRL cry. Hahahah… after all, I've heard that you've been one hell of a heartthrob ever since Yukito graduated two years ago. I heard you even have a fans club! What's up with that?!? Hahahahhh…"
"Was that some kind of an insult?" he cocked his eyebrow. Sakura looked at him in a weird way and said,
"That was a compliment, stupid."
"Oh…okay. Thanks, I guess…"
"But I mean, you never felt the urge to do it?"
He smirked and looked at her, and then said, "What? Sex?"
"Wow! He finally said it! Praise the Lord! Hahahah…" while doing the "praise-the-lord" gesture with her hands.
He shook his head then looked away. He really didn't expect this kind of question. But after all, when conversing with Sakura, you certainly wouldn't expect what will happen. "Of course I always feel it." He started, "That's human nature!! But…it's up to you how you're gonna react to that urge."
"You said it yourself. It's human nature. Then why hold it in? I mean, when you need to pee, you pee. When you get hungry, you eat. That's pretty much the same thing, right?"
Syaoran looked at her. She pretty much made sense. But he had the perfect answer.
"If you pee, you do it because you have to. And not anywhere else, coz you go to the CR. whenever you get hungry, you eat because you have to. And you don't just eat whatever is handed over to you. If you're not hungry, you don't eat. If you don't like the food, you don't eat it. A dog, if it sees any food in front of him, he'll immediately eat it, no questions asked."
Sakura looked at him in cynicism. "….And sex is the same?" she cocked her eyebrow.
He smirked at her. He felt as if he was lecturing a child about sex. And he's no sex teacher, darn it, he hasn't even experienced one! But he has a strong belief about it. He figured he'd tell that to Sakura if she still won't be able to understand his point.
"We all place things in order. There's a context. At least, that's the difference of us humans from dogs."
Sakura raised her eyebrow again. She couldn't believe what she just heard. She can't help but drop her jaw, then told Syaoran in a slightly raised voice, "So are you saying that everyone who does sex are like dogs?!?"
"….I'm just saying….that if it's not in the context,,,, it's wrong…."
"And what IS that context? Hhmmm?" she looked away from him, crossing her arms.
He smirked. "We're old enough to know that, Sakura… I don't want to be preachy. We all know what that context is."
Yes, Sakura knew that contex. Suddenly, all that excitement in their dance is starting to diminish. She just feels that…. she's too…DIRTY for him.
Silence…
Sakura saw two young couples walking along the beach, holding each other's hands. How she envied them. How she envied true love.
Syaoran continues, "…. but even though we know that context, sometimes, we still don't follow it…."
Still, there was silence. Syaoran could feel the awkwardness between them. He figured that he might have offended her in some point. So he tried to lighten her up by saying, "Sex is ……" 'how do I say this?' "…Delightful. Who wouldn't want that?" he smirked at her.
Still, there was silence. Then Sakura turned to him and said in an irritated way, "So you think you're an effin' saint and you have to be congratulated for being a virgin?!?!?"
Syaoran stared at her. He could see hatred in her eyes. Did he cause that hatred? One talk about sex wouldn't cause so much hatred. Maybe she's hiding something from him…..….
"I'm just saying here what I believe in. I'm just explaining why I don't do it. We both have different beliefs. I'm not telling you to agree with me… No need to get so cross about it, Sakura…"
And there was that silence again. None of them wanted that kind of silence. But Sakura couldn't do anything about it. She didn't know what to respond to that remark. Maybe if she tells him what she's so mad about…. 'No. I can't. Not now. This isn't the right time….' She closed her eyes.
Syaoran noticed her uneasiness, so he said, "…It's not about being a virgin or not. It's about putting things into their proper places."
"I'm not arguing with you." She finally broke her thoughts and spoke to him again.
"Me neither. I'm just answering your questions."
Syaoran turned to where she was staring. There were two innocent and young couples that were having the time of their life on the beach. He could sense the love the couples are feeling. It was so strong that it was like………
Syaoran smiled and looked at Sakura who was still a little bit frustrated in their last train of conversation. He then poured some wine for Sakura.
"I think you've had too much wine. Hahahahahh… You still want to go with the game? We're still on question number 9… Eleven more to go." He smiled at her. It made Sakura lighten up. That rare smile of his, though he might not know it, can brighten up anybody in a room.
"Shoot me."
"Who was your first lay?"
Sakura's jaw dropped. She couldn't believe what he just asked her. She hit Syaoran slightly on his arm and said, "You really ARE a perv, aren't you?!? So, you're assuming that I'm not anymore a virgin?!?"
Syaoran smirked at her. He was relieved that she was on her old self again. "Well, you said there wouldn't be a thrill in this game if noone wins. So I guess I'm winning. Hehehh… And I'm not implying anything there! I'm just hitting two birds with one stone. Coz if you were a virgin, then there would be a simple answer: NONE. If not, then who?" He grinned his wolf smile.
"You're cheating!!!" She kept on hitting Syaoran's arm.
"Hahahahh… Well you said you don't want corny questions!!" He said, covering himself and avoiding to fall from the balcony.
"You think I'll answer that after giving your sermon, Father Syaoran?" She crossed her arms and looked away, closing her eyes.
"What are you saying?! I was just explaing my personal reasons. Whatever your reason is, I'll respect them as well as I know you respect mine. I'm no saint. I'm just trying to get to know you better." And for the nth time that evening, he smiled.
"How do you do that?"
"What?" he asked, really not knowing what she's referring to.
"I should have walked out on you a while ago but the way you say things... it all turned out the opposite...It makes you more...charming. I think if you were somebody else, I won't talk to you anymore."
Syaoran blushed at her comment. Turns out she isn't sober yet. The wine made her even more blunt than usual.
"…You can't walk out. We're locked here for a week except for meals." He said, trying hard to ignore her compliment about him.
"So I guess I'm forced to like you to enjoy my vacation, huh?" She teased him, smiling.
'Now that's the Sakura I know.' He smirked.
"…You don't have to answer my question if you don't want to."
Sakura drank some wine.
"You don't know him. His name was Peter. He was my first boyfriend. It was Senior Prom Night. You know...typical senior prom story. Everyone wants to lose it on prom night. Everyone thinks that if it's prom night, it was something special. We went out of the hall early,.,. Then we made out in his car. One thing led to the other. Then….that happened. We went back just in time for the awarding of the prom queen. Guess what, I even won as the Prom Queen." She tried to laugh, but failed. She couldn't look at him. She feels so unworthy for him.
"….What was it like?" Sakura hesitated to answer for a second, but continued,
"Now that I look back, it isn't as special as I thought it was. But it was different then. Back then, we were just led by our passions. You know what I mean? You're already there. Hormones raging wild. Passions and Ideals are confused. You thought that that was love, only to find out that it was just plain curiosity. You thought that that was it. You thought that you were so in-love, that everything you do is right. That everything you do is perfect. Everything was magical…well, almost."
"Almost...?" repeating Sakura's choice of words.
Sakura was still feeling uneasy. "Let that be your next question. It's my turn." She then fakely smiled.
Syaoran teased her saying, "More wine? I think you need more. Hahahah…"
Sakura found herself sincerely smiling. Having Syaoran beside her, she just can't help herself do anything but smile. She can't even stay mad at him for 5 friggin' minutes. "You're trying to get me drunk, aren't you?" She grinned at him, "…You're planning something to me, aren't you?" She leaned closer then started to laugh.
Syaoran grinned. "Is that your question? I'll answer it. Hahahahahh…"
"Crazy ass. That's not it. Here's something that I'm so curious about. Coz I've been hearing things…and you've hinted on it a while ago…So…Are you still with Yumi?"
Syaoran froze at the question. Since his dance with Sakura, he hasn't thought about Yumi at all. He totally forgot about her. "Not anymore."
"Since when?"
"Two, maybe three weeks ago?"
Hearing the sad voice out of Syaoran, she asked, "Who broke up with whom?" She weakly laughed, trying to still be cheerful and perky.
"…Both of us."
"Why?"
Syaoran drank some wine and wiped some of his sweats. Is it just him or is it getting hotter out there in the balcony? "There were many reasons, actually… We just thought that it wouldn't work out… One reason is that we both wanted different things to happen in our lives…"
She noticed that Syaoran now was back to his serious tone. She figured that she must have really loved that Yumi person. 'Wait, loved? I think he STILL loves her.' "Like what?"
"A LOT." He emphasized too much on the word that pretty much shocked Sakura. 'Why does he sound so bitter all of a sudden? And they say I'm temperamental. Geez…'
"And now's the only time you figured it out after having a relationship of 2 years with her?"
Syaoran's fiery eyes now softened. He really loved Yumi. He gave his all to her. When a Li loves, they make it sure that they give everything they've got. EVERYTHING. He answered her by simply saying, "…. People change, Sakura…"
And there was that familiar silence again.
"Right before graduation, she asked me to move in with her." He told her.
"Really?" Having sited that Yumi girl once, she saw that she looked so innocent. Sakura even figured that her name "sakura" suited Yumi more. She never thought that Yumi could be this aggressive. 'I guess people do change…'
Syaoran looked at the moon, seeing storm clouds form around the moon and blocking some of its moonlight. It's as if his mood was starting to be acquired by the heavens… "Well she said that our relationship would end up that way anyway. Might as well practice for the real thing. After all, she's already working and I already graduated, so she figured that we should try living together so we'll know if it'll work for us."
Sakura still can't get why Syaoran is so sad with it. "So you mean you're afraid of the commitment?"
Syaoran finally looked at her. "It's not that I'm scared of it. If you love someone, what should you be scared of, right?"
"Then… why did you refuse?"
Sakura looked away from his mesmerizing gaze and felt a cold breeze pass through her skin that made her shiver. She picked up her jacket from the floor and wore it again.
"…It's just that, it's not my thing." Syaoran answered
Sakura looked at him. Their eyes finally met once again. "I knew it. You're GAY!!!! You're wasting opportunities." She laughed so hard that it echoed in the silence of the beach.
He smirked at her. Sakura isn't used to serious conversations such as these. She's always been bubbly, perky, and cheerful. Now she knows that she's in the real world. Worlds where people don't just try to smile to please you then stab you in the back. With Syaoran, she could be happy when she's happy, she could be mad when she's mad, she can be sad when she's sad. And somehow, she could feel that Syaoran feels the same way too.
"I'm not an opportunist. And most certainly NOT gay." 'Silly woman. She just never cease to make me smile…' He smirked again, and laughed along with her.
Still not stopping from her laugh, she sarcastically said, "Fine."
"I just figured that I'm still not ready to such things. I haven't even thought of it yet! Maybe I was just shocked at the reality that that was really the next step to our relationship. I mean, one year of being together and knowing each other, we're practically ready to get married, if you know what I mean. But then I realized, I'm not ready for any of these. I realized how immature I am. That my ideals two years ago were different from my ideals now. I need to mature some more to get into this thing, I mean, getting married. God, I'm only 20 for crying out loud!!" he finished, while throwing his hands up in the air.
"Maturity has nothing to do with age."
"….But it has a lot to do with time."
And there was that silence yet again. And for the nth time again that night, he had an impact at Sakura.
"So I thought, why did we need a practice mode? So does that mean that if we screwed up, we'd break up? Live like a couple minus the commitment? What if the magic suddenly goes? Adieu already?"
Sakura had nothing else to do but nod. Syaoran's deeper than she had ever suspected. Even if she did live 2 years older than him, she could even say that Syaoran knows more about life and reality than she does.
Syaoran drank some more wine and continued, "If you wanna get married, then get married! No need to practice!! I think that's the real cowardice - to try it first then see if it wouldn't work out because you are just too darn scared of the relationship not being successful as you hoped to be. Where will the excitement in your life go? Isn't that the whole reason why you're in love – so that you will both face life together, in sickness and in health, in richer or for poorer?" he lightly laughed then continued, "But not to practice about it just to experience the happy part." He then shrugged his shoulders and drank some more wine.
Sakura couldn't help but just stare at this marvelous creature in front of him.
Like a bad star, she's falling down faster into him…..
"What?" Syaoran cocked his eyebrow.
She blinked and got out from her amazement then asked, "Are you always like that?"
Syaoran was pouring some more wine onto their glasses glass then asked, "Like what?"
"…..So cerebral in everything. Even when it comes to relationships."
He smirked at her. He didn't know that he's been too serious around her. But still continued, "Life is just too precious to go with trial and error." He smiled at her. And then again, there was silence.
"……. So, No hard feelings?"
He shook his head, still smiling. He doesn't even know WHY he's smiling, but he just felt like it. "We're still friends. She still even calls me up at my place."
Sakura giggled and finally smiled sincerely, "That's nice."
"What about you? Why did you and Yukito break up?"
"That's your sixth already. You sure you want to ask that?"
"Yeah."
Sakura laughed. She drank some more wine, probably to get some more confidence to telling this to him. She then started,
"You know what, the break-up with Yukito was ironic for me... And the funny thing was, it was about...sex. Hey, this would just be between the TWO OF US, alright?"
Not knowing that the cameras were recording their very single blink of an eye. Well, at least Tomoyo and Eriol turned off the monitors. At least they won't be able to see this live. (A/N: nyahahahahh.. sorry, can't help but laugh. :p)
"Of course." He smiled.
"Like I said earlier, I was looking for that magic, right?" Syaoran nodded.
She continued, "I wanted to be in a relationship where I could say that's special. So of all the boyfriends I had, it was only with Yukito that I haven't had any sexual relationship. As in I was really abstaining myself. So that there would be a meaning with the term "making love." It's like, you don't always do it, and then you'd only do it when you are sincere with yourself and with your partner. So I was investing first emotionally. And I was actually starting to care about him. Where I didn't only think about myself… As in he was the only one I cared about… I thought everything was perfect…"
Syaoran frowned with her last choice of words… "What happened?"
"…. He told me to prove my love to him. That I should let him to….you know. Then I told him that wasn't the fact that I'm saving myself for the right moment, that special moment between us the exact proof of my love for him?!?"
Syaoran nodded.
"You know what he did?!?! HE FRIGGIN' WALKED OUT OF ME!!!" she stopped herself from sobbing. No, she's not gonna cry. She's a strong woman. 'Not gonna cry, not gonna cry…'
Syaoran gripped his hands, as if that if he sees Yukito at that exact moment, he'd punch him in the face so hard that he wouldn't be able to open his eyes. "You deserve someone better." Syaoran placed his hand over Sakura's, which was trembling. They stared at each other's eyes, drowning with each other's love, though not knowing it. Sakura broke the eye contact and whispered, "Thanks…" she smiled, then continued,
"….To think that when I finally grew tired of meaningless sex, when I'm looking for the real thing, it then suddenly goes. Life is so ironic, ne?" She looked up at him, who was staring straight at the ocean.
"That's the way we must learn."
"Well actually, I just realized that I haven't actually experienced the ACTUAL making love. You know what I mean? And I had to get through all these effed up relationships just to realize it. Well at least now, I know what I'm looking for." She then looked away and just stared at the two couples, and continued,
"How bout you? Is it important that the person you're going to marry is.,..a virgin? How do you see virginity anyway?"
"To be honest, I haven't thought about that. But now that you've mentioned it…." He looked at Sakura, "It doesn't matter if I marry a virgin or not. Of course I value virginity a lot. I treat it as the only real gift I could give to my wife to be. Just imagine that my first would be my wife. It's like the perfect wedding gift I could give to her. But if she isn't a virgin anymore, I wouldn't care. As long as I love her. Coz I don't expect her to give me the same gift. I don't do something because I expect people to do the same to me. Just to give her wholeself to me, that's enough for me. I'd be happy and contented with that." He smiled.
Sakura smiled and turned to face him, "You know, that's the nicest thing I ever heard from a guy. That's why I always enjoy talking to you. You always say the nicest things."
They stayed like that for a while, staring at each other's eyes, drowning with each other's love… If only they knew that they loved each other. If only Syaoran knew, maybe, he could be the one that saves her…..
Still not breaking their stare, he softly replied,"….Thanks." He smiled ar her.
And somehow, their bodies were closer. And then…. A boomerang flew out of nowhere and hit Sakura right on the head. Ouch.
End of Chapter 5!!!
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