Okay, so I should be studying for the upcoming exams...
Too bad. The people in my head don't think on the same wavelength that I do.
I don't care if you don't like it. I don't care if somebody's already used this idea. I really don't. I just needed to get something out. I've been under a lot of stress lately and I respond badly to stress and aggravation. I respond very badly. I needed to get something out of my system before I imploded, so I wrote this and truned my excess emption into words.
It's probably really bad. I really don't care...
I think I'm PMSing. I'm feeling really bitchy right now.
Standard disclaimer on my bio.
EDIT : 16 JUNE 2005: Took this off my profile and added it to this collection.
Letters
Ryuu no Taiyo
November 13th, 2004
Deer Titans,
I know that you're all going to try to look for me, and I know you probably won't give up no matter what I write in this letter, and in a way that makes me feel better.
BeastBoy, you were right. Surprisingly, something other than a pointless joke left your mouth, and those words stuck to me. I'm not alone. I have four of the best friends anyone could ever have and wish for.
But that doesn't change the fact that I must leave. It is for the good of all of you and also for mine.
My powers have been growing rather dangerously as of late and I can't say as much for my control. According to my books from Azarath, this is perfectly normal for someone like me, however this normality is dangerous for those surrounding me.
I have to leave. I don't know for how long. Days, months…maybe even years.
I'm going to miss you all a whole hell of a lot.
I don't know where I'm going and I think it would be better for me not to tell you of my current destination. I have my reasons.
I'll be keeping in touch; of course, I'll be the one sending the letters.
Before you know it, I'll be back. Don't worry about me.
I hope things will go well in my absence. I'm not leaving for good, you know, so when I come back, I want things to be alright, and possibly even better.
I'm going to miss you guys.
I'm gonna miss you guys a lot…
There we go, another lamp broken. This is why I have to go; this is why I have to leave. I need to be able to go somewhere and regain my control…and maybe find a way to appease my anger…BeastBoy and Cyborg, you know what and who I'm talking about.
I'm probably going to be gone a while.
Don't worry about me. I packed my civilian clothes (that I bought with StarFire a few months ago, remember that trip? Hehehe…that was the first time I wore something pink…of course, I wore it completely against my will), my mirror, a few books and my share of the money from the bank. I'll be just fine.
Well…
StarFire, I'm gonna miss our 'girl talks', you dragging me off to go shopping and our amusing meditating sequences. Keep practising your cooking, because practice makes perfect.
Robin, take care of the team in my absence, and keep BeastBoy out of trouble.
Cyborg, don't spazz out too often over your 'baby' and keep beating everyone on the gamestation.
BeastBoy, keep out of my room and keep trying to beat Cyborg at video games, that way next time you wanna show off something, you'll have something to show off.
See you soon,
Raven.
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December 24th 2005
Dear Titans,
It's been a long year without you guys. A very long year.
I managed to get my hands on an American newspaper the other day and I read the interview between you and that journalist you made a few months back.
I hear that you're worried for me and you're still looking, and inside that makes me extremely happy. It was the best Christmas present anyone could've given me, knowing that my friend's were not going to give up on me.
I know I should've written to tell you guys I was okay, but I guess it kept on slipping my mind.
Many things have happened. Many not as great as the others.
I'm living right now in a small cabin at the bottom of an enormous mountain. It's freezing here, and if it weren't for my powers, the snow would be covering my house. Of course, I'm sure BeastBoy would think that would be a lot of fun…Well…It really isn't.
I don't know when you are going to get this, but I'm writing this about a week and a half before Christmas. I lose track of time easily in the mountains. It's so peaceful here right now. Just me and the snow and the sky. I haven't seen a human being in days. It's amazing.
I'm doing fine. Lately, there have been no storms and the cabin has been keeping warm thanks to an ongoing fire. You have no idea how lucky you guys are to have an electric automatic heater. It really is a pain in the morning to wake up freezing because the fire died while you were sleeping…
Yes I am glaring at the fireplace right now.
Being alone for exceedingly long moments at a time does things to you.
My powers are under complete control right now, thanks to practically non-stop meditation, and sometime next month I'll probably start heading home.
I miss you all incredibly.
BeastBoy, you'd have better been keeping out of my room.
And Robin, did you kiss Star yet?
See you soon,
Raven
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Cookies to all!
Ryuu no Taiyo