Rachel put her hand over her mouth. There he was as clear as day.His hair was still the dark brown she remembered. His eyes still had that dark puppy dog look she loved so well. There were the hands that moved her to ectasy and the lips she missed. He slowly got up from the chair and took her in his arms. Tears came to her eyes. "Oh Rosss." She moaned as he moved his lips down her neck.
Then she backed away, as if she was completely petrified. "No , you are dead. I buried you." Rachel said as she stared at the ghost.
"Yes I am Rachel, I am just a figment of your imagination. It is not the first time is it?" Rachel remembered when she found out from Chandler the night that she stood on the balcony and imagined him there.
"What are you doing here?" Rachel said as she stared at the aparation. "I can't believe you were dating that loser Rachel, I was better looking than him." Ross whined in his characteristic way.
"You are dead , I think that means that you lost your jealousy privileges." Rachel raged at the ghost. "I can date who I want." She screamed.
"Rachel , you might as well face it. You are not over me There is no shame in that . I guess the main reason I came back is because we never really did get a chance to say goodbye." Ross said earnestly. "Trust me I never wanted it to happen this way. I had planned a lifetime with you. I was going to propose and we were going to have a wedding where we were sober and Emma would be the flower girl and Ben would be our ring bearer."
Rachel started to cry and then Ross took her in his arms again. "I miss you. I never thought I would feel this way again." He wished with all his heart he could hold her again. Even though he was just a figment of her imagination, his eyes were filled with tears. His arms went through her, but she could feel the warm embrace of his love as it wrapped around her.
A song came onto the radio. Rachel shuddered at the words…
Oh my love
My darling I hunger for your touch
Alone lonely time , and time goes by so slowly
And time can do so much , are you still mine.
Almost like in a fog, he held out his hand as she took it. "May I have this dance?" with tears in her eyes she nodded. They swayed to the music as she laid her head where his shoulder would have been. Anyone who would have looked in the window, would have sworn that Rachel had lost her mind because of the death. She was a woman who was holding onto the last bit of life that held her together.
I need your love , I need your love
Godspeed my love to me….
"It's the song from that movie. The one where the man she loves returns to her after he is murdered." Rachel said. "Oh my God." Then she began to cry again. Ross held her in his invisible arms again. "Sssh it's going to be okay. Rach, I came here to tell you that soon you are going to change your life. Don't be afraid to do it. You made a huge sacrifice for me and stayed. It is time for you to move on. But do know this, I will always be in love with you. I loved you before you loved me , I loved you when you didn't love me, I probably was in love with you when we weren't even together, and we wasted so much time. My love is something that will stay with you forever. And when the good lord says your time on this earth is done, then I will be the one to greet you and take you to heaven. Au revoir Rachel." He bent down in a mock bow and kissed her hand. "Give my love to everyone." He said as the illusion faded away.
Wiping her eyes the phone rang, she ran to get it. "Hello?" she said still shaken up. "Rachel, hi, it's Mark." It dawned on her that it was the same Mark who offered her Louis Vuitton. It was also the same Mark responsible for the break in the first place. "Oh hi Mark." She said casually. "Rachel, I heard and I am so sorry." He said as he leafed through the paperwork on his desk. "I realize that this is probably the last thing on your mind right now, but I was talking to the guys in Paris , and if you would like , the job is still yours. Rachel couldn't believe what Mark was proposing. "Well Mark , it is tempting, but right now I really don't think I would be interested." Rachel said adamantly."Rachel, please think about it. I am going to give you a few days, talk to your friends or whoever, this is an incredible opportunity and a great way to get a fresh start for you and Emma." Mark then hung up the phone and Rachel plopped down on her couch and put her hands on her chin. What should she do?
The song is Unchained Melody…. From Ghost….
