Oh, how you are going to hate me. This is a bit from Selenity's diary talking about some pretty dark stuff. After this, I am not going to really be able to update until March sometime. I am so sorry, but my mother is in the hospital, and when she gets out, she will need somebody to watch over her 24/7 until the doctor says it's alright. I am so sorry to write this news. So I hope you like the excerpt.
And to Sere-Cosmos11, I think I will use Kelly Clarkson's song, "Since you've been gone," as soon as I can remember to find the lyrics, and figure out where they would be good. Probably somewhere in the forth chapter.
Well, here you go.
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Dearest Diary,
How I wonder if maybe this isn't my fault somehow. Maybe if I slept with him like he wanted me to. But then I look at the scars littering my body, across my back and everywhere I can hide them, and think "No, it's not my fault. I did what was right. I am not at fault." Though the doubt still niggles at me.
I think back to all the times that he hurt me is some way, mostly physically and try to remember it's a good thing that I got out of that relationship when I did. I wonder if the other suspect what he has done to me. Do they know that he has tortured me with his precious light whip? Do they know he enjoyed watching my blood seep out of the various cuts that he inflicted with my own knife, even as I struggled against the bonds that held me down? Could they even comprehend the fear and pain that I went through?
I bet, even though you are an inanimate object, you are wondering why I never left him. The reason why I never left him, was because I was terrified to. I knew that if I left him, he would come after me, and he would try to kill me, or worse, to bond me to him for the rest of my life. I can not let him do that to me.
But now that he left me, I am able to find the one that I left during the Silver Millennium. I can find the one who I had promised my heart, soul and body to, then left to protect the Moon Kingdom. I left my love on Earth. I don't even know if he is still alive. I wonder if he even knows who I am. I wonder, if maybe someday I will see him again. I hope to Serenity that I do. I do not feel complete without him. I hope Jadite does not come after me again, to tear me and my love from each other.
I wonder if he will accept me, now that I have so many scars littering my body. Will he still love me? Will he help my wounded soul heal? Will he? So many questions, no answers.
Hold on the phone is ringing.
(2 minutes later)
That was Usagi. She wants me and Haruka to come pick her up out in front of Mamo-baka's apartment building. Apparently she saw something she didn't want to see. She won't tell us over the phone. I have a feeling it's because what ever she saw will cause Haruka to want to kill Mamo-baka. Got to go. Peace.
Okay, so what did you think? Good, bad, horrid? Tell me. And the part above, about Mamo-baka will be cleared up in the next chapter. Just give me time to write and edit it, and I will put it out soon enough. And with the cutting part, you'll find out the full history later. Peace.