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Chapter five

Tommy: well now that I just basically poured my heart out, aren't going to say anything? He asked sighing, and running his fingers through his her.

Jude stood there, mouth agape, did Tom Quincy just say that?

Jude: umm...I uuumm... what? She was at a lost for words,

Tommy: Jude, you know what I said, now do you have anything to say? He asked getting frustrated

Jude: why would you say something like that? She asked, feeling her anger rise.

Tommy: what do you mean, why would I say that? He asked, confused by her anger.

Jude: oh come on Tommy, you know your incapable of loving anyone but yourself, so why would you say that to me, is it because you feel bad that my " dad" beats me, or do you just like messing with my head? She yelled.

Tommy: I know what I feel, and I'm not trying to mess with your head, do you honestly think I would do that to you Jude? He screamed

Jude: oh yea? How about when YOU kissed ME on my 16th birthday, and told me to forget it? And then when I show a bit of interest in a guy you get all jealous, and when I call you on it, you say that your just trying to look out for me, and that you have No interest in me THAT WAY, because I'm just your Artist, and how about when you hooked up with MY SISTER, you had the nerve to get all angry with me because I started dating Speid, huh? So don't stand there and tell me you would never mess with my head, because that's all you ever do. She yelled, tears starting to form in her eyes.

Tommy just stood there not knowing what to say, she was right, he did have the tendency to mess with her head, he didn't mean to, it was all so complicating, he's felt this way for a long time now, but there were to many things standing in the way for him to actually tell her, there was the fact that he was her producer, and Darius and Liam would not approve, he would get fired, and he would no longer be working with Jude, he couldn't stand the idea of not making music with her, he thrived off of it. And the fact that she wasn't exactly legal was another obstacle, he was torn, and when he saw Jude with other guys, he got angry, hurt, and jealous, yea it was wrong to mess with her head like that, but what choice did he have, he couldn't have her and he didn't want anyone else to have her, is that so wrong? Well maybe it is wrong but he can't help himself.

Tommy: your right...I do mess with your head, but I don't do it on intentionally, he said almost in a whisper, with his head hung low in shame.

Jude: what do you mean you don't do it intentionally? She said as her voice began to crack.

Tommy: look Jude...lets not talk about this anymore...ok? I think you should some ice on your eye, it's really swollen, and I think I have something for your lip, it'll help the cut heal. He said desperately trying to change the subject.

Jude: no Tom, you started something, and now we're going to finish it, you can't just change the subject. She said walking right up to his face, and searching his eyes for any truth, what she saw was a mixture of, pain, confusion, and longing.

Tommy: Jude please, lets just skip this, ok? You obviously don't feel the same way. He said, feeling a lump in his throat.

Jude: Tommy are you really that clueless? I have loved you since I was 15, I've never stopped loving, even after all the times you've hurt me, I am still so in-love with you that it's pathetic, why do you think you're the first person I called to come help me, you're the first person that pops into my head when I need anything, it's always you I've tried so hard to stop loving you, but it's a battle I always lose. She didn't mean for all of that to be said, but it needed to be said, she knows her feelings for Tommy are true, but she couldn't believe in Tommy's feelings, how could he be in-love with someone who is so fucked up, how could he be in-love with a teenager.

It was Tommy's turn to stand there mouth agape, he was speechless, he always new Jude had a thing for him, he just never thought of it as love, he was so used to his feelings being one-sided, he couldn't believe it, she loved him back, but she doesn't believe he feels that way for her.

Jude: well now that I just basically poured my heart, aren't you going to say anything? She asked, mimicking the same question he had asked her, just minutes ago.

Tommy: you really love me? He asked, in a childlike manner, grinning from ear to ear. Jude rolled her eyes at him.

Jude: yes Quincy, now I feel like such an ass, because you don't love me back, she said making her way out of the kitchen and into the living room, sitting down on the couch.

Tommy stared at her retreading form in frustration, then soon followed, he spotted her sitting on the couch, hugging her knees to her chest, with her chin resting on her knees, with unshed tears in her eyes, he made his way over to her, she looked up at him then turned her head, not wanting to look at him, he sat down next to her, and placed a hand on knee, she then turned her gaze to his, with tears streaming down her face, he brought his hand up to her face and wiped her tears away with the back of his hand, she tried to move, but she couldn't , it's like she was paralyzed by his gaze.

Tommy: Jude... I told you I loved you, why can't you believe me? He asked tears once again threatening to fall.

Jude: Tommy, your always sending me mixed signals, she said, her voice horsed from crying.

Tommy: I know Jude, and I'm so sorry for it, it's just that there are so many reasons why I could never tell you how I truly felt, and to tell you the truth I was scared, he said, feeling like a loser for admitting he was scared.

Jude: of what? She whispered

Tommy: I was scared because...I've never felt this way, it scared the hell out of me to feel so powerless over my own emotions. He said, while looking intently into her eyes.

Jude: but Tommy, you were married...you had to have loved Portia, to marry her, she asked confused by what he just said.

Tommy: it's true I did love Portia, but I wasn't in-love with her, and I was young and stupid, I was just trying to rebel, and with the rep I had when I was with Boyz Attack, that's what I was known for, being a bad ass, and doing things to get attention. He couldn't believe how opened and honest he was being, he never let anyone in, he never shared so much of himself with anyone.

Jude: Tommy...why...how could you be in-love with someone like me? I'm an ugly teenage girl, who's father beats her, I'm so freaking screwed up. She said putting her head down in shame, Tommy quickly brought his hands to Jude's face, turning her head so she could look at him.

Tommy: Jude you are the most beautiful person I know inside and out, you have the voice of an angle, you see me better than I see myself, you're the most amazing person, you have the most kindest heart, your everything I'm not, and everything I hope to be, I'm better when I'm around you, you make me feel like I can do anything, you're the one who encourages me to do things I'm to afraid to do, even things I'm afraid to feel. He spoke sincerely, tears streaming down his face.

Jude looked at him through tears, they were tears of joy, fear, and love, she couldn't believe he said all of that, Tom Quincy was not the kind of man that spoke with his whole heart, he always kept a lot buried deep.

Tommy: I am so in-love with Jude Harrison, he said while taking one of her hands, and lacing it with his, his eyes pleading with her to say it back.

Jude: and I am so in-love with you Tom Quincy, she said, while she put her hand to his face and gently wiped his tears away.

A wide smile spread across his face, and he began to lean closer to her, and she began leaning closer to him, they could both feel each other's hot breath on their lips, they were only inches apart, all of the sudden there was a loud banging on the door, Jude look at Tommy with fear in her eyes.

Hey, I'm not so sure I like this chapter, but hey I'll let you be the judge of that, so please review.