Pasts

pinkyblue-ice - Jamie: We'll try to keep the chapters good.

radiofreegirl- Jamie: We all jst love Spike so much.

(JAMIE'S POV)

The instant the four of us were sent into trances, I felt myself get thrown back in time to way more then twenty years.

"So…how do you know where the Master's going?" Xander asked.

"I know." I said, feeling very strong and determined. A vampire jumped out of no where, trying to block me, Xander and Angel "Oh look…a bad guy." I knocked him over easily.

Flash

"You're supposed to be dead." The Master said. "It was written."

"What can I say? I failed the written." I said

Flash

"Fe, fi, fo fum." Spike said. "I smell the blood of a nice ripe…" He turned and looked at me. I had an axe in my hands. "girl."

"Do we really need weapons for this?" I asked.

"I just like them." Spike said. He was vamped. "They make me feel all manly."

Flash

"Cause Buffy…the other, not so pleasant Buffy…" Spike said. I looked at him. He was pretty beat up. "Anything happen to Dawn, it'd destroy her. I couldn't live, her being in that much pain. Let Glory kill me first. Nearly bloody well did."

I frowned before leaning in kissing him softly. He started to kiss back but frowned himself and pulled away. I looked at him for a while before turning and heading to the crypt door.

"And my robot?" Spike asked.

"The robot is gone." I said, turning around. "The robot was gross and obscene."

Flash

"There was no pain." I said…well…sang actually, looking at my friends and little sister and this demon. "No fear, no doubt. Till they pulled me out, of heaven. So that's my refrain…I live in hell, cause I've been expelled, from heaven. I think I was in heaven." There was a moment where I noticed Willow looked scared beyond belief. All I felt was pain and hurt.

Flash

"A 100+ years and there's only one thing I've ever been sure of: you." Spike said He was kneeling in front of me. I couldn't take it. God…he was way too sweet to someone like me. I looked away but he put his hand on my cheek and turned my head to look at him again. "Hey, look at me. I'm not asking you for anything. When I say, 'I love you' it's not because I want you or because I can't have you. It has nothing to do with me." I felt a tear roll down my cheek. GOD! "I love what you are, what you do, how you try. I've seen your kindness and your strength. I've seen the best and worse of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what you are."

Flash

"At Least you could tell me you're glad to see me." Angel said. I dropped the Scythe before walking up to Angel and kissing him deeply. He pulled away first. "Well, I guess that qualifies as 'happy to see me."

"Angel what are you…" I said, smiling. I shook my head. "Don't even. I just want to bask." I stared at him for a while before my smile dropped. "OK, I'm basked. What are you doing here?"

"Not saving the damsel in distress. That's for sure." Angel said.

"Oh, you know me." I said, picking up the Scythe. "Not much for the damseling."

Flash

"I can feel it." Spike said. I stared at him. A weird light was coming from the amulet that was doing its job by dusting all the Turok-Han.

"What?" I asked.

"My soul. It's really there." Spike said. "Kinda stings." I would have laughed…if not for the seriousness of the problem. The whole cave was coming down on and we had to get out just like Faith and the potentials…no…slayers, did. As if reading my mind… "Go on then."

"No, no. You've done enough. You can still…" I said.

"No, you beat them back" Spike said. "It's for me to do the cleaning."

"Buffy, come on!" Faith shouted. More of the walls were falling down around Spike and I.

"Gotta move lamb." Spike said. "I think it's fair to say school's out for bloody summer."

"Spike!" I said, worried beyond belief. I didn't want to lose him.

"I mean it! I gotta do this." Spike said, holding out his hand. I laced my fingers through his and the hands burst into flames.

"I love you." I said.

"No you don't." Spike said. "But thanks for saying it." The ground shook and I let go of Spike's hand. "Now go!"

Flash

"YOU KNEW HE WAS ALIVE AND NEVER TOLD ME!" I shouted, hardly believing what Angel said. Spike was standing between Angel and I. It was pissing down rain and I had just helped them finish off the demon parade and found out that Spike was alive.

"Pet…it really wasn't Peaches' fault." Spike said.

"You're taking his side? You hate him." I said. "Unless five fucking months of being here without me knowing did something." I smacked Spike in the back of the head.

"OW! Bloody hell." Spike said.

Flash

"It's the only way, Buffy." Willow said. "If we do this, then either way, she's dead."

"So we merge ourselves together?" I asked. Willow nodded. "Worth a shot." I looked down at the basement door.

"Tell him." Willow said.

"Tell him what?" I asked. "What do I tell him Willow? I'm merging with my best friends and hoping that we don't get killed in this fight? There's like a 60 chance that we're gonna die but on the plus side Sehkmet dies too?"

"Tell him you love him?" Willow suggested. I sighed then headed down to the basement where we had set Spike to do the laundry while we talked this out. I knew he wouldn't agree to me doing this, that's why I didn't want him up there arguing against the only chance we had.

I didn't tell him anything. But I did wind up rushing straight into his arms and kissing him over and over, telling how much I loved him until he actually believed it. I knew he was curious and worried…but he couldn't know…he just couldn't find out.

I gasped at the same time Spike did. I stared at him but, seeing as how Jackie and Angel were still trance like, I had to wait. When they came out of it and the candles went out, I went straight to Spike and hugged him as if, were I to let go, then everything would fall apart. My mind was still getting flooded with information from my last life…all the stuff in between of what had stood out the most.

"It's alright, pet. Everything will be ok." Spike muttered, holding me close to him. I could tell a similar thing was happening between Jackie and Angel. I finally lifted my head from Spike's shoulder so that I could look over at my sister.

(SPIKE'S POV)

What I saw after the girls did the spell, was nothing from what happened over twenty years ago, although I guessed that's what Jamie saw. No…what I saw was some higher power making it so that Buffy and…damn it…what was the cheerleader's name again? Cordelia. Some power was making it so that those two were reborn…in the two girls that now stood in front of me. I saw all the parts of Jamie's life that made things pretty clear that she was Buffy…or at least…the reincarnation of her.

At the end of all the visions, I gasped in unison with Jamie. I looked at her and took to staring at her while her sister and Peaches were still in the trance. Then instant they came out of it and the candles went out, Jamie went straight into my arms and hugged me as if the world would fall away if she did. I didn't mind…I felt the exact same. My arms wrapped around her instantly.

"It's alright, pet. Everything will be ok." I muttered. I glanced over at Angel to see him and Jacklyn in a similar embrace. Jamie lifted her head from my shoulder and I looked down at her to see her cheeks were wet. I kept my arms around her and she did the same.

"Oh god…" Jamie said. "I feel so sorry for Buffy…all that lose…dying twice."

"I feel sorry for Cordelia." Jackie said. There was silence and I looked at Angel. He saw the same thing I saw, I could tell from the look he gave me.

"Oh shit…it's 5:30." Jamie said.

"So?" I asked.

"So…the sun comes up in under half an hour, and me and Jackie have school." Jamie said.

"You two are twenty." Angel said.

"College sweetie." Jackie said. Jamie giggled then sighed. "What's up?"

"Buffy." Jamie said.

"What about her?" Jackie asked.

"She and Angel were a couple." Jamie said. "Kinda getting the emotional roller coaster of her life right now."

"That's the best description of her life I've ever heard." I said. Jamie looked up at me and smiled before winking.

(JAMIE'S POV)

"Oh shit…it's 5:30." I said, suddenly looking at my watch.

"So?" Spike asked.

"So…the sun comes up in under half an hour, and me and Jackie have school." I said. Spike was cute, but sometimes he was clueless.

"You two are twenty." Angel said.

"College sweetie." Jackie said. I giggled then sighed, thinking about Buffy's life. "What's up?"

"Buffy." I said.

"What about her?" Jackie asked.

"She and Angel were a couple." I said, looking away from Angel's gaze. "Kinda getting the emotional roller coaster of her life right now."

"That's the best description of her life I've ever heard." Spike said. I looked up at him and smiled. God he was adorable. I winked Spike for no reason really.

"So…what are we gonna do?" Angel asked. I finally moved away from Spike. Not much though. I moved so that each of us had an arm still around the others' waist.

"Well we can't leave you guys here." I said, waving my hand at the walls, indicating all the holes that were made to be windows. "Got nothing to cover those up."

"We could always leave them in our dorm room." Jackie said.

"True." I said. "Ok…we'll take you guys with us…stay in our dorm room. The curtains we have for the window are pretty thick because we like doing spells and we need the darkness."

"Yeah…do not touch anything." Jackie warned.

"There goes that idea." Spike whispered into my ear. I giggled.

We decided that Jackie should drive and the guys kinda…hide…in the back seat. By the time we got to the college, the sun was up. Spike came up with the idea that he and Angel take their jackets back and put them over their heads. We ran across the campus to our dorm house. Luckily people weren't out yet so they didn't find it odd that four people had just run across campus and into a building.

"Bloody hell…that campus is huge." Spike said.

"Yeah…we know." I said. "Have to run across it a lot." We got to our dorm room, it had our names on it, and I tried opening it but remembered it was locked. "Jackie…you got your key?"

"No…I thought you had yours." Jackie said.

"Great…" I said.

"Why not just use magic?" Angel asked.

"Shh." I said, nodding at the door next to ours. Someone had just come out of it. "Hey Clara."

"Hey Jamie…who are these two?" Clara asked.

"Oh this is umm…"I said.

"Spike." Spike said. I rolled my eyes.

"Angel." Angel said.

"Odd names." Clara said. She looked at me again." You gonna be in class today? Or are you gonna skip it to kick the crap outta some guys again?"

"Ok…it was a cloudy day…those guys were v…very pushy." I said.

"Yeah ok…just don't miss today's class because Walsh is gonna kick your ass." Clara said before turning and leaving.

"Walsh? She's here?" Spike asked.

"You know professor Walsh?" I asked.

"I knew a Walsh. Worked for the initiative." Spike said. "They put a chip in my head to make it so that I got a bloody head ache if I hurt a human."

"Ooook." I said. "I'll be right back." I ran back outside.

(Third Person POV)

Jackie, Spike and Angel all stood and waited.

"Where did she go?" Angel asked.

"Around." Jackie said.

"Huh?" Spike asked.

"Just wait." Jackie said. After a few minutes they heard a thud then swearing, then the sound of something breaking and more swearing then the door opened and Jamie was standing there. "What did you break?"

"Umm…the lamp…again." Jamie said.

"Goof." Jackie said, walking into the room. Spike and Angel stood outside of it. "What are you guys doing?"

"They have to be invited remember." Jamie said. "Come on in." Spike went in first, then Angel followed. Jamie closed the door. Then went to the window and closed it before pulling the curtains across and taking a few safety pins and using them to keep the curtains closed.

"Ok…we both have classes now." Jackie said.

"Yeah…I'll be back at ten thirty." Jamie said. "Jackie will be back by eleven but I'll be gone again. My last class finishes at two."

"Gotta wait that long?" Spike asked.

"Hey…we got cable." Jamie said. She handed Spike the remote. "Enjoy." She grabbed a bag and left the room.

"What about you?" Angel asked, looking at Jackie.

"I don't have a class until six forty-five." Jackie said. "Jamie has the early classes." Spike lied down on Jamie's bed and turned on the TV.

(JAMIE'S POV)

I sat between Clara and a guy named Josh who I used to date. Professor Walsh was going on about something to do with some kind of human reaction to something.

"Miss Caisle." I jumped when Walsh spoke to me. "Perhaps you and Mr. Nichols can demonstrate for us."

"Uh…ok." I said, looking at Josh as we stood up and headed to the front of the room. "What are we demonstrating?"

"I thought you would know." Josh said. I groaned and bit my lip. The classroom phone rang and Walsh answered it.

"Yes…ok." She said. I looked at her as she hung up. "Miss Caisle…you have been spared again. Apparently there is a disturbance at your dorm room and they would like you to go open the door for them."

Spike and Angel! I thought. Stupid vampires. "Ok." I said before leaving as fast as I could without seeming suspicious. As soon as I was out of the building, I ran all the way to the dorm building, stopping outside to catch my breath then going to my room.

"Caisle." I frowned at the man who was standing there.

"Finn." I said.

"If you would please…" Finn said. I really didn't know his first name…but I hated him anyways. He nodded at the door.

"Fine. I'll open it and you can see there is nothing wrong." I said loudly. I took a lot of time in putting the key into the door and opening it. I peeked inside and saw the closet door close. "Nothing in here." I opened the door more and walked inside. Finn followed.

"Why is that lamp broken?" He asked.

"Because I forgot my key this morning and went in through the window and accidentally knocked it over." I said, crossing my arms and standing in front of the closet.

"What's in the closet?" Finn asked.

"Clothes." I said, but panicked very slightly.

"Well…let's just see about that." Finn said. "Move please." I reluctantly moved away. And he opened the door. I closed my eyes. "Well…looks like you're right." I opened my eyes and looked at the closet as the door was closed. "You and your sister are too suspicious at times. I'll be watching."

"Yeah…you do that." I said. I watched him leave and stood in the doorway, watching until Finn was out of sight. Once he was gone I closed the door and leaned against it. "Ok tweedle-dee and tweedle-dum. Come on out." The closet door slid open and Angel came out first, followed by Spike. "Spill…how'd you keep Finn from finding you?"

"I told you I recognized that voice." Spike said.

"Spike…Riley would have been dead by now…either that or really old." Angel said.

"Jamie said his name was Finn." Spike said. "Captain Cardboard is the only Finn I've heard off."

"He was also in Sunnydale last time you saw him." Angel said.

"Whoa! Time out!" I said. "What are you guys talking about?"

"She doesn't have any memories with Riley in them." Angel said.

"Riley? The guy in the camouflage suit? Totally not my kind of type." I said. "Not really sure why Buffy liked him."

"You and me both." Spike said. The door opened and I was about to push both vampires back into the closet when it saw it Jackie who was entering.

"I heard what happened. Finn really doesn't like you does he?" Jackie asked, looking at me.

"Course not. Why do you think he's always hanging out around our room. Ever since I turned him down for a date he's been trying to get me in trouble." I said. Spike laughed. "We really gotta figure out what we're gonna do with you guys."

"I think I have a plan." Jackie said. I looked at her and waited for what she had in mind.

Jamie: I'm copying Jackie and doing the cliffhanger bit.

Jackie: Copy cat.