Ashley felt like she had been hit in the stomach. She couldn´t believe in what she was hearing, she couldn´t loose Spencer, not now, not ever, not like this.

Ashley (eyebrows arching in concern): "What? What are you telling me?"

Spencer (still crying): " I can´t take this anymore, people judging me, disrespecting me for who I am, for who I love. I could even stand that with other people, but not with the ones I thought that liked me, from the people that I might need to spend some time with. I can´t Ashley, I wouldn't know how to deal with it, I need to have a quiet life, or at least a normal one, I just, I just want a normal life Ashley, I just want that…"

Ashley was hurting so badly in that moment, but trying not to cry, she felt it was so unfair, it wasn't her fault, she had planned it with all the love she could give, with all the attention with Spencer needs, and desires, and this was how she treated her? How she thanked her? She simply couldn't say anything with everything all messed up inside her head, so she just simply stayed quiet and in silence.

Spencer: "Won´t you say anything to me?"

Ashley lift up from the floor, and started to speak, without controlling anymore the tears that now started to fall from her eyes.

Ashley: "What do you want me to say ! That I'm going to start some sort of metamorphose and I'm going to magically transform into a man so you could have a normal life!"

Spencer: "No…I don´t want that!"

Ashley: "So what do you want Spencer? I was preparing this for weeks, I tried to make everything perfect for you, I brought the musicians from the other side of the ocean, only for this night, do you know that! I tried to collect everything you had been telling me in the last seven years, of how a perfect evening would be like and I tried to transform this one in that night you had dreamed of. I went to New York to buy you this ring because every time we went there, you stayed there, just watching him, loving him. And that, without speaking of the hours I spend in the cell phone with Mrs Lewis until she couldn´t stand me anymore."

While she said the ring thing, she pulled the black box from her pocket and showed the ring inside it. It was a solitaire, in white gold with one little diamond rock. It was apparently simple, but it was a rare diamond, and so, not a very cheap one. Spencer was speechless, and Ashley continued to speak.

Ashley: "And you know why I did that? I did that, because I love you so very much that I was going to do everything I could just to make you happy, just to see your smile. In the last few years I had been trying to be a better person for you, just you, because I really wanted to be the person you expect me to be, and because I wanted to be better for you. Why? Because I love you, I love every single thing about the way you talk, about the way you move your hair, the way you smile, the way you sleep and the way you kiss my shoulder when you wake up…I love everything, from the way you think and your kindness, to the way you cry or the way you look when you´re mad at me. And that´s why I did that…because I want to spend the rest of my life with you, loving you, caring you…" She stopped, and then, whispering "But all I can give you it´s this, just me, a girl, a women and this life. I can´t change the world Spencer, but I could try to make it a better place for you, for us, together, if you let me. But I guess…you don´t want that, you´ll just ran of, because of this stupid ignorant and drunken guy who doesn´t even belong to my family said. Do you think I liked that? I would had kicked his ass, if I could, but I was just to surprised to do anything, and you didn´t even gave me time to react, you just…leaved! Which is exactly what i´m going to do now"

Ashley started to walk away from Spencer, who stayed there, looking at her girlfriend leaving from her, from her life and realising how stupid she was for letting that happen, she stand up, and just when the brunette was already far enough for Spencer need to yell, so she could hear her, she started to run towards her.

Spencer: "Ashley!"

Ashley turns back and watched Spencer running in her direction, until she stopped, only a few centimetres from her.

Spencer: "I´m so sorry, I didn´t mean to be unfair, I just…"

She stopped speaking, caught her breath, and slowly changed the focus of her eyes to Ashley's hands, that she grabbed and pulled against her chest.

Spencer (crying, but smiling at the same time): "Yes…"

Ashley: "Yes?"

Spencer: "Yes, my answer is yes, I want to marry you, only you, exactly the way you are, the only person I had ever loved…the woman I want to wake up and see every morning, for the rest of my life"

Ashley had never felt so worm and happy inside, and so did Spencer. It might had not be the way they both predicted it would be, but it was perfect at that time anyway.

Both girls kissed gently at first, but then with passion, while the rain pulled her bodies closer to one another. And after a few moments, Ashley pulled a little bit away from Spencer, grabbed her hand, and gently placed the ring in her girlfriend finger.

Ashley: "Now, that you are officially my darling fiancé, lets go back, take of these wet cloths, and re-start things from where we left them back home."

The girls smiled and went back home and into the night that was still a child for both of the lovers.

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"Ever tried? Ever failed? No matter. Try Again. Fail Again. Fail better"

Samuel Beckett