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"Swept away by you, now I'm feeling like a fool.
So confused, my heart's bruised, was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach, so far, I never had your heart.
Out of reach, couldn't see, we were never meant to be.
And I hope that in time you'll be out of mind and I'll be over you."

'Out of Reach', Gabrielle.

oo00oo

Doctor Camille Saroyan wrapped her arms around the neck of the one man she ever regretted letting get away, the one man she had ever really loved, and smiled wistfully in to his shoulder. When she was this close, when she could smell his aftershave and feel his heartbeat, she could never understand why she ever let him go.

But then she felt his body tense up around hers and she remembered.

The force with which he cast her aside as he charged off down the corridor hit her hard, both physically and emotionally, and she had to steady herself against the metal wall.

Forcing herself to raise her eyes to Seeley's disappearing back, she caught a glimpse of that familiar blue lab coat and a chunky necklace rushing round the corner ahead of him.

Brennan. Of course it was Brennan. It's always going to be her.

Shaking her head to herself, Cam crouched down to finish retrieving the file Booth had scattered when he ran in to her. Clutching the contents to her chest, she stared at the space he had just been.

But even when he does stay with me, he's not really there. I don't think he ever was, even in the beginning. But why does it have to be that infuriating woman that he turns to now, that he leaves me for?

Swallowing hard, she straightened up as she attempted to collect her thoughts.

The minute I first saw them together, saw the way they looked at each other, I knew. I knew that tiny bit of hope I had coming all the way out here that I might be able to reignite something was truly extinguished. He was with her. All the way.

Cam put on her professional face, trying to shake the thoughts out of her head as she strode down the corridor.

But then he came to me again… After all this time, he came back to me. And right then I knew I was never going to really stop hoping that one day he'd stop and realise I was here all along, that I'm the one he really wants. But it didn't last. It never lasts.

She sighed to herself, clutching the files to her chest in a vain attempt to keep his warmth with her, to still feel those familiar arms holding her tight.

Stop it! You can't keep thinking like this, it's totally irrational. He's just another man. There were plenty before him, there were plenty after, and there's plenty more to come. All those fish in the sea, I've got to catch a good one eventually.

She had to bite back the tears as the realisation struck her full force and as cold as night.

I already had the good one. That one perfect match. It was Seeley. It was always Seeley.

Her hands tightened around the files as her pace quickened, her head down to avoid the eyes of the others milling around the lab.

It was always him and I just let him go. This last time, I didn't even fight for him, I didn't even try.

Movement caught her eye and she lifted her gaze, staring straight through the glass in to Brennan's office and she stopped dead in her tracks.

Booth was on his knees in front of his partner, staring up at her with such a look in his eye, Cam felt like someone had just punched her in the gut.

He's never looked at me like that. Not once. All those years, not once.

Brennan was on her feet, looking hurt, but then Booth rose in front of her, his face so close to hers, his hands gripping her biceps, forcing her to look at him. Cam wanted to look away, wanted to run as far as her legs would carry her, as far away as possible from what she was witnessing.

But instead she was frozen, her feet rooted to the spot. She couldn't tear her gaze away from the turbulent storm of emotions that raged in Booth's eyes.

Emotions he never felt for me…

She watched as Brennan seemed to relax a little in to his arms before he pulled her body up against his own, his lips leaning down to reach hers.

Cam couldn't watch any more. Turning on her heel, she attempted to keep her head held high as she marched toward her office.

How could I be so stupid? How could I ever think that he might come back to me when all he's ever wanted is her?

Shutting her office door quietly, Cam fell back against it, slowly sliding down its length. The tears started before she even came close to hitting the floor.

Sitting there, her legs wound beneath her and the file scattered across the carpet, Cam gave up.

Seeley Booth wants only one woman in this world. He wants Temperance Brennan.

Her chest heaving from sobbing, she dropped her head back against the wood, closing her eyes against the thought spinning round and round her head and making her feel sick.

He'll never want me, but I still want him. I always will.