Controlling emotions

FreyA-wings

Chapter10: A difference in my life

Hey you guys!!! Sorry for the mixed up story. I was just sooo much into the story that I forgot about numbers and stuff that I've said in the past. Well... you guys have been great!!!!!! Sooooo great I want to cry myself to tears. But why I wonder why there wasn't as many as I expected? Where are you guys??? I'm also sorry I haven't updated this for quite some time.

First days at school were chaotic. I was just finishing the last touches for my art exhibition and man, I felt so exhausted. But I'm never exhausted for a piece of chappie!!! I was so sad when we had the bombing at the Australian embassy. Before the bombing I went to parties and got drunk (glug glug) I only drank two vodka s, one kahlua and one bailey. Phew.... Then I had a party at a hotel and got smashed with some champagne.... Indonesia is such a good place for partying; you can be 15 to drink...

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Kenshin stopped short in front of me, but when I looked up to meet his face, his eyes had softened and he neared me in such a seductive way that I gave in to the moment. He took my hand and wrapped one arm around my waist, and pressed his lips against mine.

Everybody was shocked but not as shocked as me. Because his lips were so soft and full, other people seemed oblivious at the moment. My eyes closed and my mind was intensively crowded as I was so surprise that kenshin, kissed me, right then and there. There with a crowd of stunned students, and then, when I needed him so desperately.

Kaoru's POV

He kissed me

OMG

He kissed me

OMG

He kissed me

After thousands of repeated 'he kissed me,' his lips separated from mine. It was not even a minute kiss. It was more like a peck if you asked me. But long enough for me to respond and deepened the kiss. Oh my god, his lips are nothing like I ever imagined. Sweet and minty, kind of like after taste of licked candy... woops... I didn't think that was an appropriate thing to say. I meant to say, his lips are so full and soft, sweet seductive, and intoxicating mint.

But it was all over, because by the time I opened my eyes, all I can see were his luminous eyes. So filled with emotions I couldn't count. He resembled an angel as he passed his hands down my arms. But he let go and I felt quite disappointed. However, the part where I come back to reality is offset unimpressive.

Everybody was quiet and I could hear the buzz and some chattering of the students outside the classroom. But inside the classroom was dead silent. I couldn't move. I was speechless. I had no words to say. And worst, neither does he.

Eventually someone would speak up right? Right? Well, apparently, no! I had the clumsiest situation of having to stand solidly still for a couple of minutes. But after that guess who spoke?

"She's my girlfriend," Kenshin turned upon Megumi and she shuddered at the anger that is flowing around him. "I cannot believe someone like you would do something like that. Megumi, I'm disappointed at you."

Kenshin took my arms and oh my, I felt like I was going to drop down right there because his heat pressurized my knees to weaken. But I let myself get dragged. Megumi had to stumble aside for Kenshin and me to pass through. But then he stopped at the doorsill and turned his head towards the whole class, "if anyone tried to hurt my Kaoru, you will have to face me."

Kenshin's POV

I had been angry before, and when I do, it is a sight that nobody should see. I may have uncontrollable anger that just runs through the family. Many people had to be careful when they say things and they know not to mess with me. One time they called me 'battosai,' which applies to the supreme and terrifying swordsman who will kill anybody that gets in his way. He was coldhearted and for some reason, that shouldn't be applied to me. Well, not in my opinion anyway.

If I was cold hearted, why did I save a girl that is being cornered by a group of girls? I was so in deep with her that unconsciously, my mind races my pulse and an urge to protect her spread through my veins. She was always in my head, no matter what I do; she will always be in my mind.

That is why I saved her. Something deep within me stirred like the night awakens. My urge to keep her in my company made my body tingle. Just like her... Tomoe... but now I don't feel that way anymore for her. She was long gone from my head. And thank GOD for that because if she is still on my brain I would die to pieces.

And now, I have a different woman to approach to. I have set my task to protect this woman and I am not going to back down. I would not pass down an offer to protect someone that I have strong feelings for. No matter how much it hurts not to tell her.

So after the scene in front of all my friends... well, so called friends, I took her to the garden, the place where we connected in such a way that my memory just couldn't disperse it. The sun was shining and the birds are chirping. What more would it be than to enjoy this life as it is?

We stopped underneath the tree and Kaoru was able to breathe and choke at the same time. Her face red with anticipation and I could feel her hot body even though we are only inches apart.

She started to speak, "Kenshin," but I shushed her and let a minute of peace go by. Her face becomes softer and she relaxed.

"I'm sorry about that," I said and she didn't say anything, "I'm sorry I kissed you. It was improper for me to do. And to think that men treat you this way. But you have to understand, there is just... something within me that makes me want to help you. I just couldn't back down seeing you getting hurt. It makes me angry. And when I am angry for someone... it's impossible for me not to get too close to that person. It's just the way I am."

A soft wind blew and tranquility spread the sunny day with emotions of love and hope. I was silent, waiting for her to say something. But she was in silence for the time. Her eyes were the eyes that made me weak and tense. I had to break the tension. It is too much for me to focus on.

"Kenshin," Kaoru started, "I feel like I have never felt before. Anger, pain, frustration, disappointment." I bent my head down slowly breaking our eye contact. "But at the same time," Kaoru sighed softly but I didn't tilt my head up, "I feel strong, confident and I can feel the ray of hope shining through your eyes."

At this I smiled meekly and approved her eyes with a small electrifying eye contact. Yes... I could feel this sensation passing through my entire body and center itself into my eyes, where it can only disband when my eyes meet the eyes of that special someone. It was her... and she felt it.

"I cannot believe how much a man you are. How much you want to be close to someone so much that you forget everything around you." Kaoru's eyes started to twinkle and soon I could feel my eyes burn. Something deep within me stirred and I took kaoru's hand and brought her to a passionate hug. I buried my head between her shoulders and hold her tightly. She gasped but settled down and brought her own arms to hold me. I sighed deeply and motioned her body to mingle with mine, until her body softened and felt comfortable against mine.

Kaoru's POV

Is this what happen when you break and someone put together the thousand pieces that flied around? Is this the feeling when someone cares for you? Is this the feeling when, just when you knew your life is unnecessary that you nearly made a mistake?

I think so....

Because I knew how those felt, when he pulled me into an amazing embrace. His body burned. I could feel my cheeks growing red as he pulled me even tighter. I was solidly weakened. His emotions killed whatever that's negative out of my mind. This feeling never left me even as we broke our special hug. His emotions kicked my fears and brought an everlasting hope into my heart. And I knew just then, just how much I do not deserve him.

As we walked down to his apartment, I noticed how different his hands felt as he held my hand. It felt nicer, softer. I giggled. It must be so fortunate for someone to care for you so much. Can I believe him? I hope so... because I do... I totally do... have strong feelings for him.

How many more months until he decided to unprotect me anymore? I asked myself as the gate to the apartment cleared. Will I miss him? Will I cry for him?

Those questions seemed to be oblivious to him, I think. He may not even consider this. But my heart raced and my mind blanked, the pulse around my body started to pump a lot harder. I know this feeling. I know this very well. I stopped in my tracks and Kenshin didn't need a minute to realize that something was wrong. He knew it. He could feel. He could feel his aura and presence somewhere around us. I was traumatized and quivered. My eyes focused vacantly to the ground as I adhered on his hands tighter.

We both knew this feeling

We both can feel it

I know he's here. And I know for certain, that something big is going to happen...

Cliffhanger!!!!!! HUAHUAHUAHUAHUHAUHA!!!!!! Am I evil???? YES YES YES YES YES... ho hoho

But I am so sorry for giving you only this much from two weeks of not able to write more. I had a passive week and my mind is so full with work and stuff, you know the drill.

It is mean for me to party after the bomb, but it was a once in a lifetime chance!!!!! When else can I get invitation to a birthday party that I know will be a blast!!!! I had a great time!!! Better than the one at grand Hyatt ballroom (my best friend's sweet 17)

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