Controlling emotions

FreyA-wings

Chapter 15: Mood swings in Da Capo

Say hurray, I have continued with the story. Before I start, I want to give a big round of applause for you for being the greatest reader's of all…

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Truthfully, I got stuck in chapter 14… as if I had no idea how I will continue with the story… seriously…

Author's notes: I do read other people's stories and I notice there were some similarities in the writing. I was always fascinated at the first chapter but as it continued on, I never really prolonged with the story, only because they are agonizingly tedious, As if the writer had no opportunity to think the plot through and hurriedly added unnecessary lines in there. I also admit I had that same problem but I have tried to deter from it. I have always thought the story line was puzzling and not up to scratch because they fail to describe the situation or scene that I lose interest in it. I know… because I had never continued on with the story until half way, then I stop. I am just hoping I don't have that problem with you guys… if you do, please tell me what made it so insufficient or poor.

I have my own style of writing and I like it. Cheers to you all.

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Sano smacked his hands together and smiled wickedly, 'I guess now, I will be living here. And don't worry I will also take care of the electricity bills and water bills and definitely split the rent in half. And also, I will be going to the same school as you and don't worry; I will definitely take care of myself. Besides, I have already positioned myself in your class… and I think the girl next door's too. And also…' Sano was saying these things so fast that I barely have time to interrupt, so I just sighed and let him continue. '… also, I will be with you all the way and take care of this Yukimura guy. It's about time both of us kick some ass. The hell with pain, I will be enjoying one soon.'

That is the thing about guys like Sano. He can sometimes be very obnoxious but nevertheless dependable. People cannot live without one another; it is just the fact of life. This brotherhood that we have, are complements in our lives. We complete each other, for better or for worse, and with his high spirited attitude, it lifted my heart. I will be enjoying our new life, here, in a new country.

As I glanced back at the door to Kaoru's sleeping figure, I noticed that I have changed hearts. No matter how dangerous love can be, no sooner will I realize that I too… have already fallen in love.

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Kaoru's POV

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I spent two days in bed… in Kenshin's bed more accurately. I had given to the plan before any of this ever happened. I was to be protected by Kenshin. The thought of being in his house, protected by someone so beguilingly handsome, would probably be the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. I was still a bit vigilant about the whole thing. But then I remembered the dream… the red headed man… it appeared in my head those vivid dreams and it reminded me of Kenshin, the man of my dreams.

I shook my head to release the contemplation. Now it's Wednesday, and I was getting ready to go to school. No matter what had happened last week, I still have to move on. In this case, I still had to go to school. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I mused that my face looked a lot different. I had bags under my eyes, it seemed like my face has gone white as a ghost and my lips are dry (the symptoms that you get when you are really ill.) my only response was to sigh every now and then. So many things have happened in less than one night and I was traumatized at the whole occurrence. The only thing keeping the light up my head is the special moment Kenshin and I shared a few days back.

I touched my lips and smiled weakly. Sure, that incident did lighten my spirits up. After those two kisses that I had, I have not yet talked to Kenshin about it. I wanted too, but I didn't want to make things awkward and discomfited between us. Since that kiss and the arrival of Sanosuke into the house, it was not viable to ask what Kenshin was thinking. Sano kept smiling and laughing here and there. I also thought it was because of Sano that my sickness expired quickly. His presence is pacifying and soothing. It also brought smiles to my face. I have to give him that credit.

There was a knock on the door and Kenshin's morning voice made my smile bigger. And so starts a new day like nothing has ever happened… oops… not really. I am spending this new day as Kenshin's girlfriend. Now I know I will be in deep trouble.

Later that day

It's just like the day when Kenshin arrived in this school. Newcomers were always the hot topic of this school. No matter cute or not, everyone hanging out in this school would always jump in and immediately arbiter those newcomers into groups. There are the intelligent ones, cute ones, nerdy ones, classic ones, bitchy ones, and it's always one of those. I was neither, because I always considered myself neutral. Kenshin was part of the obviously hot hunky type… and so was Sano.

When he came in our class, hair jelled and had a cool white cloth around his head, showing some punk in his looks, I immediately gaped at him. Sano is damn tall, the height of a perfect model. His abs shines right through his pleaded white shirt. He had a messy kind of look, which made him peculiar in his own way: messy, but still damn good looking.

When he walked in that door, sighs, gasps, murmurs went through all the class. The girls were whispering excitedly to each other and the guys sighed in desperation, knowing another hunk had joined their school and so it concludes there will be less chance for them to catch a girl. And just like in the movies, in slow movement, where the wind blows his hair even though the room has closed windows and he would smile sexily and so heart meltingly that I began to wonder whether those effects on films did happen.

I was sitting at the middle row, near the window and Kenshin sat way behind in the last row. When Sano came in, he waved at two of us and the girls immediately looked over at Kenshin in excited tones and looked at me in disgust. Michi was sitting in front of me and she saw the interaction that she looked behind and gleefully stared at me. I only rolled my eyes and said, 'I'll fill in for you later.' She responded by giggling to herself and stared at the newcomer.

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Kenshin's POV

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I knew something like this would happen. Now that Sano is the new me… I wasn't much of the hot topic. The difference between me and Sano is that he is taking the pleasure in having girls crawl around him. But I knew him better than anyone else. One might see him as a playboy, but I merely see him as a guy who is scared of a relationship. He wouldn't do anything to hurt the girls, he just enjoys flirting and making them blush the deepest red. I know what Sano does because I too, do the same. I recalled the past experience with Kaoru and I would smile each time the thought sprang into my head.

In the cafeteria that day, all the school population stared at us. On our table sat Sano, Kaoru and her friend Michi, who excitedly wanted to sit next to Sano, and Sano, being the gentleman that he always was, gave in to her. Kaoru sat next to me, with blushing red cheeks and I knew what she was thinking. I kissed her in front of the whole class and pronounced her as my girlfriend. It was wrong for me to do that but there was some magnetism in Kaoru that made me shuffle all hard thoughts in my head and did what my conscience told me… I kissed her.

I pretended to be enjoying my food and not seeing the stares and giggly girls around me. But I couldn't help but notice all those cold and jealous stares for Kaoru. My only response was to stare and them and they stopped whispering and continued with their solemn lunch.

'I get them all the time now,' Kaoru said. I looked at her and ate some salad. I noted she was most probably talking about the stares.

'Hey,' I said, 'I will protect you.'

Kaoru looked at me in the eye as if searching for an answer. 'Yes,' she whispered, 'but how long will that last.' I could hear Sano laughing in the distant. I didn't intend on having this conversation right now. 'Let's not talk about it,' I said quietly and continued eating.

Kaoru said nothing, but she didn't eat. Instead, she took her tray with her and got up. I looked up at her, 'where are you going?'

Kaoru shuffled with her bag and said, 'I'm going somewhere to eat where there is peace and quiet.' Michi saw Kaoru leaving and said sorry to both of us and beckoned for us to excuse her before she left following her friend. I didn't look back after them.

'So, what happened?' Sano asked. I shook my head. 'O, it's one of those lovers quarrel isn't it.' He laughed halfheartedly.

'Sano…' I started. My voice was cold but I didn't continue. Instead, I grabbed my bag and took my tray with me, 'I'm also going to find somewhere where there is peace and quiet.'

Sano was startled, 'Hey man, I'll come with you.'

I shook my head, 'no Sano, I wish to be alone right now.' And with that I went, leaving Sano with curiosity in his mind. I guess by then, he also wished to summon peace and quiet, because when the girls have left their table, other girls were starting to fidget his way. Maybe for now he didn't want to acknowledge them. So, not long after I left, he grabbed his lunch and bag and set off, before the girls come crashing his way.

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Kaoru's POV

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'Hey Kaoru,' a voice behind me shouted, 'wait up will you!'

I stopped in my tracks and looked behind. There ran Michi, carrying her bag and tray. I didn't really want company but I also didn't want to sound so desperate myself. I just watched Michi catching her breath when she neared me.

'What's wrong kaoru?' Michi said, gasping for breath. 'By the way, you walk so fast I can barely keep up.'

My face softened and I held her arm, 'I don't know Michi. I really don't know what had happened to me lately. I just… maybe it's my sickness. I haven't yet fully recovered.'

'Well I'll say…' Michi said, taking a hold of her tray and my arms at the same time. We were outside the school's backyard. The sun was shining brilliantly and the wind blew softly. In this perfect weather condition, I was the one feeling imperfect.

We sat down under the cool Sakura tree that I had always liked to sit under. My mind was jumbled with all possible complexity and diversity. And while Michi was rambling about how the sun glistened and the wind is nonchalant and supple, I only stared into space, pretending I was hearing her.

Instead, my concentration was on Kenshin. How can there be someone so handsome and yet so mysteriously caring? It just seemed impossible in this new era. He had been such a gentleman, and the conversation he had with sano about his… ex… made me think twice about him. Something in his past made Kenshin the way he is now. He became so protective and kind. He somehow didn't like the attention from other girls because of his good looks and whether I believe it or not, he had experienced being loved and being in love. Sano and Kenshin was an amazing couple. They stand out among the crowd and still cling on to each other and support each other. For a moment, I felt a pang of jealousy. I had that with Misao, but since she disappeared out of my life, I felt a deep loss and defeat.

Then my mind spun to another intriguing and traumatized topic… it was what happened the other night at that vile shack. Somehow, God had contemplated me to disregard what ever had ensued. Why could I not remember anything?

Had he taken my virginity?

Those words were always on my mind, in sickness or in health. I proximate a sense of loss and yet I felt full of disgust. At that time at the shack, my eyes were so blurry, my skin became insensitive and voices and ringing in my ears did not help me at all. I couldn't recall what happened and every time I tried to, my head always ached.

It was a huge thing. How can I not remember? And moreover, Yukimura had been my first love. So yes, I was in love with him but we never got the chance to do it because I love him too much to do it. I know it sounds crazy but now I am very grateful I didn't do it.

Life without love, is no life at all

My mother's words kept replaying in my head. But sooner I realized, you begin with love, overgrown it by relationship and always ends in tears. I sighed in my mind and told myself, "mother, I am sorry, but I don't think those words have not convinced me enough."

'… and so Shinta kept asking for my…'

Michi's words went by and I have yet to notice her words at all. I looked down at my food and felt nauseated. I had lost my appetite. But I was still hungry… I was still hungry for hope…

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Sano's POV

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The journey through the corridor had been unpleasant. After the incident in the cafeteria, my mood became bitter. I felt cold, I need to break something. When I walked through the corridors, many… no not many, thousands of girls went coming my way, either asking for my name, getting to know me, my phone number, or email address.

I usually put up with this but I wasn't in the disposition to confront them. I merely nodded and as rapidly as I can, went past them, leaving them with their own hectic ness.

I didn't want to look for Kenshin. He had a lot in his mind now. But what really stressed me, is the raven haired girl, who just out of nowhere, came into Kenshin's life. Kenshin had enough broken hearts to last him a life time, but now with this new commotion going on, I'm not so sure I was able to stand still.

My pace became faster, and just when I was about to turn the corner, I slammed into someone that was just passing by.

'Fuck!' a cool and yet cold voice of a woman shouted, 'Hey, watch where you're going!'

I turned to look at the person who I just bumped into, wanting to give this woman a little piece of me. Instead, I impeded my ability to be sarcastic and rude because standing in front of me was a really beautiful woman. She was wearing the same school clothes as I did. She had the most gorgeous face, comparable to an angel's. Her long dark hair flooded her well grown female body and I stood completely dead in my tracks.

She looked at me in disgust. 'Cih,' was her only response. I didn't say anything but stared at her blankly, unknown to myself that this is the most infrequent behavior I would do in front of a very fine-looking young woman. I noticed her eyes puffy and her cheeks a bit red. But she turned away quickly, waving her long hair in front of me, and all I did was to gaze at her walking away…

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It was that hollowness that completely made me… bemused. I had to run for her. And so, with no hesitation at all, I ran to look for her. My spirits went high and my heart became rapidly beating. I ignored the fact that I was too raring to go that I bumped many people along the way, hearing grunts of pain and excruciating "fuck you's."

Then I lost her. I looked right and left, here and there but there was no sign of her. I signed in frustration. Great! I banged my fist against the nearest wall, making other people look at me in confusion. I pretended to ignore her.

Well, look on the bright side. At least I know she is from this school…

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Kenshin's POV

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It's one of my mood swings again. I thought I would feel great enough to liberate my insecurities and unleash off all the stress that is lodged in my head once I sat down calmly at the top of the building, enjoying the zephyr waving my flocks in the air and the callous heat of the sun. I guess I was wrong.

Instead, the atmosphere made me think more about the vast space in my head that is filled with none other than the woman that made me think about her all the time. There had been not much talk between us and I desperately needed to straightened things out with her. Sighing, I glared at the sky, so bright, blue and smooth, as if no obstacles are in the way… any obstacles.

I stood up and walked my way to the edge of the building. I grasp the scenery of school's backyard and as I skimmed through, I focused on an individual, sitting under a sakura tree…

Yes, I needed to talk to her. So I grabbed my bag, left my tray and made my way down to the woman beneath the Sakura tree.

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Kaoru's POV

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As I continued to falsely be interested in Michi's bizarre tête-à-tête. I became mute and stared at her vacantly, smiling weakly now and then.

Suddenly, Michi's face twisted and smiled happily at something behind me. I frowned and before I turned my head to see what she was smiling at, someone embraced me from behind. I saw red…

'Hey Kenshin,' I blushed, trying to unfold the embrace, 'what are you doing?'

Kenshin tucked a flock of hair behind my ear and I turned my head slightly. I still couldn't see his eyes but his lips are daringly close. He whispered in my ear that made shivers go up and down my spine, 'you look more beautiful when you smile.'

I said nothing. I was speechless… 'Wha… what do you mean?' I giggled nervously.

'Why don't you and I take this day off?' Kenshin whispered again. Then Kenshin let go just slightly from the embrace and looked at me in the eye.

'What?' I asked confusedly.

'Let's both go somewhere, just the two of us. Let's ditch next period and get our asses out of here.'

I shook my head slightly, quite stunned by his sudden change of attitude. But then again, this is his real attitude. He had a devilish characteristic inside of him that made him so attractive. It was just like the time we ditched detention and the kissing scene. I suddenly had the urge to become devilish as well. So I slowly smiled and nod my head.

Kenshin smiled back and took my bag, lifted me off the ground and winked hotly at Michi. Michi looked at Kenshin with those bubbly eyes of hers. I only mimicked, 'bye' to Michi and waved. She just smiled and shook her head rigorously. Maybe luck really is just around the corner…

Okay, there is Kaoru's confusion with Kenshin and the past incident, change of mood in the cafeteria, Sano's eye on a hot black headed young woman, and Kenshin's hot date. What do you guys think? Reading enough already? Need more? Please review! My hope is with all of you.

It would be great to read my notes and my opinions… even though I don't really think it is necessary.

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