9. Truth is not always nice
When she came out the bathroom Logan was gone. She went down and found him in the living room watching cartoons with her brother. They looked really cute sitting together and she liked wathing them but the silence was killing her.
˝Where´s Meg?˝, she asked walking towards them.
Neither one reacted, they just kept staring at TV. She walked around couch and stood in front TV so they had to look at her. Michael glared at her the best he knew and Logan checked her out like he sees her the first time. After few moments he looked at her eyes smirking.
Rory didn´t find it funny. She was already late and she didn´t want to be even more late. And it was going to happen if Logan keeps playing with her.
˝Will someone answer me, please? Do I have to search the house?˝, she glared at Logan who just winked at her.
Mike decided to talk but not and to help.
˝If you move I´ll tell you that I don´t know where she is.˝, he said it seriously and they couldn´t help but to laugh.
Rory walked to him, picked him up and carred him up the stairs.
˝Thanks for help honey. Now go get dressed and then I´ll take you with me. And I´ll have a chat with our sister when I find her.˝, she kissed his head putting him down when they got to his room.
˝Can I draw with you?˝, he asked her with excitement in his voice.
Rory smiled, ˝I´m sure my clients would love that, but no. I´ll give you a paper and you can draw by youself. Is that good?˝
˝But that´s not fun!˝, he whined.
˝But you have no choice!˝, she whined too, ˝Take it or leave it.˝
He was thinking and then smile appeared on his small lips, ˝Can Logan draw with me?˝
˝I don´t think it would be interesting to Logan. Besides there´s probably something that he has to do too.˝, she hoped that he wont be too disappointed.
She helped him to change and then they went back to living room where Logan was still sitting and watching TV.
˝What were you doing in your room?˝, Michael asked it looking at his sister.
Rory froze in place and Logan turned to look at little boy and then at her. He saw that she has no idea what to say so he got up, took Mike´s hand and went to other room with him.
Rory looked after them not moving. And she realized what just happened. She told to herself that it was really stupid to leave Logan alone with her brother. Only God knew what he could tell to that kid. She decided that it´s the best to go after them. She took barely two steps when phone started ringing. She didn´t want to answer but then she remembered that it could be someone calling from her office and she picked it up. As soon as she heard voice on the other end she regreted her decision. She tried to be polite just like her grandma always thought her but it was getting harder to remember it with every second of that conversation. She thought about hanging up but she knew that her grandma would find out if she did so and wouldn´t let her live. After 20 minutes Logan walked in and sat on the couch. When she didn´t hang up even after 5 more minutes he walked to her and started kissing her neck. She tried to push him away but he grabed her arm and pulled her closer to him. She was doing her best to sound normal on the phone but when he started kissing her ear it became impossible. As soon as she could she apologized to the person she was talking to saying that she has to go to work. When she finally hung up she leaned onto Logan and gave a sigh of relief. They just stood like that for some time before they moved to sit on couch.
˝Who did you talk to?˝, Logan spoke first.
She turned to him with evil smile on her lips. He returned her smile not noticing the evil part of it.
˝To your mommy babe.˝, she watched as his smile disappeared and laughed at the look on his face. It was good price for half of hour spent talking to that woman.
˝What did she want?˝
˝A lunch. It seems that we haven´t finished planning our wedding. I think I´ll be able to talk her into letting you to tag along. I know you wouldn´t want to miss anything.˝, her voice was too sweet for his liking.
˝No! Don´t do that to me! Come on, you can´t hate me that much. I´ve known my mother my entire life and the less I see her my life is nicer.˝, he was begging her even he knew that it want work. But still, he had to try.
˝Right, and I have to listen to my grandmother? Forget about it. If I have to spend time with them so do you. After we get married we can go live somewhere else. Away from here. Africa would be good choice. My grandma hates summer. Something about sweating and changing clothes 20 times a day.˝, she had dreamy look on her face mixed with regret.
˝Why not Australia? There is hot too but they are not as poor. Besides, my friend lives there. We could be close to him.˝, he played along.
She pretened to be thinking about it, ˝Yeah, but I don´t think I want to be close to your friend. I´m not sure that I want to be close even to you.˝
He raised his eyebrows at her, ˝You weren´t running away from me when we were in your bed not so long time ago.˝
˝Yes, but then I was just using you for fun ´cause I was bored.˝, she gave him her sweetest smile, ˝And Australia has all that not nice animals. I hate spiders and snakes. They are ugly and they also like to bite. Not very friendly. And then when you meet them you end up dead. I don´t think so.˝, she shook her head looking like a small child who doesn´t like what he hears.
He was watching her with smile, ˝And why would they bite you of all people?˝
˝Because they have a deal with home-people to get rid of foreigners so they could live in peace without noisy people.˝, she said it like it was the most obvious thing.
He looked in her eyes, ˝You´re crazy. I think it´s going to be interesting to be married to you.˝
˝You call me crazy and then you say that you´re looking forward to marring me. And then I´m the one who´s crazy?˝, she looked at him like she thought that he has lost his mind, ˝You sure you wouldn´t have more fun with some Barbie? And be her Ken? It would be the match made in heaven. I can see the titles in newspapers, ´Logan Huntzberger, the heir of Huntzberger Publishing Company married a girl who doesn´t knows how to sign her name´. I would pay a big money to see that.˝
Logan laughed softly, ˝As nice as it sounds I think I´ll stay with you. It would be a shame to ruin all the plans by canceling our wedding.˝
˝Oh yeah. It would make more damage then tsunami did. We would have to colect donations to pay for your mother´s and my grandmother´s bills for staying in mental institution. I think those doctors who would take care for them would soon need someone to take care of theirown mental health.˝, she made a face and he started laughing. He seeded to be unable to stop laughing so she turned to look at TV till he calms down. She didn´t even notice when he stopped laughing till she felt his hand on her cheek turning her head to him. He gently placed his lips on hers not even trying to deepen the kiss. She was more then surprised. He never did that before. It was passion or it was nothing. But this kiss was just... different.
˝I thought you would be done with it by now.˝, Meg´s voice made them to jump apart.
Rory just stared at Logan trying to figure out what that kiss meant. Logan just laughed and aswered Meg still looking at Rory´s eyes.
˝You could say so, but I can also tell you that it´s hard to get enough of your sister.˝, his words brought Rory back from her thinking.
She smiled to Logan and then turned to her sister.
˝You marriage will be based on sex, won´t it?˝, Meg´s question surprised her.
They both looked at her and they realized that they don´t know the answer. They didn´t know how their marriage is going to work without love but they did know that sex won´t be enough to make them happy for whole life. Rory was afraid of her future. The only thing that made her feel a little better was the fact that her sister and brother will be with her. She could only hope that Logan won´t make their lifes even harder than they already are. She didn´t want to think about them falling in love with each other ´cause she didn´t want to get disappointed.
Logan saw on her face that she was worried. He didn´t feel much better either but he had a feeling that he needs to make her feel better. He leaned to her and whispered in her ear, ˝We´ll make it together.˝
He knew that he sounded like some guy from TV show but it was the only thing that he could think of. Rory thanked him by giving him the sincerest smile he saw on her lips.
She turned to Meg, ˝Maybe Meg, I don´t know. I guess we´ll find out in a few months. And now I have to go back to work. Grandpa´s going to kill me.˝, she glared at Logan showing him that she blames him for being soo late.
She said bye to Mike and Meg after she decided to leave Mike at home and walked out of house with Logan close behind her. They got in the car and started towards her office.
˝What did you tell to Mike?˝, she just remembered that she hasn´t asked him that before.
˝I started thinking that you have forgotten about that.˝, he was smirking and she didn´t like it.
˝That´s not answer on my question.˝, she didn´t want to look at him.
˝I told him that you were showing me something. I think that you´re forgetting that he´s just four years old.˝, he smiled at her.
She looked at him and then back at the road, ˝I´m not forgetting it, I just don´t like telling him lies. Logan if you ever sleep with someone else or if you just do something that you think I won´t like, please, just don´t lie to me.˝
He turned to her, ˝You don´t really trust me, do you?˝
She sighed, ˝I don´t think you can blame me. With your reputation and arranged marriage... And you said it yourself, a guy would do anything to get a girl in the bed.˝
˝Yes, but I also said that I was that type till last night. That should mean that I have changed. ˝
˝Yeah, but you have also almost fucked a girl at our engagement party. Be honest and tell me that you would trust me that the it was me with the other guy out there last night.˝, she sounded upset.
She looked at him and saw that he was thinking.
˝Maybe you´re right.˝, he said it more like a question.
˝But...˝
He sighed, ˝Let´s just say that we have differenet opinions about some things.˝
She thought about it before she answered, ˝What you are saying is that you wouldn´t mind if you cought me with some other man. You wouldn´t mind me being with someone else and then coming to your bed and making love to you?˝
He let his head fall against the seat and then he spoke, ˝This will be a bussines deal. We weren´t together before this engagement, we didn´t even meet and much less we fell in love with one another. You expect me to be jealous with someone for woman that I don´t love. For woman who I have met at the bar and then spent a night with her. The same night as I have spent with many others.˝, as soon as he said it he knew that he has made a mistake. And it was partly a lie. He looked at Rory and saw that he has hurt her. It was evident in her eyes. He put his hand over hers and gave her a little squeeze.
˝Rory...˝, he was trying to think of something to say to fix the damage but she wasn´t interested. She pulled her hand from under his and removed his hand from her leg.
She looked at him and smiled that false smile, ˝Don´t apologize. I have never thought that that night was special for you. I mean you´re a man with a lot of experience in bed. What was one more girl for you? Why would I be something special? That´s what I´m trying to say. You can´t tell me that you won´t cheat on me when you don´t feel anything for me. It´s the fact.˝, she was trying to keep her voice normal.
˝That´s not what I wanted to say but you can believe whatever you want. I´m not going to tell you something that we both know that it´s not the truth. You said that you don´t want me to lie to you so I won´t. The fact is that we have no idea how this marriage will work. Neither one of us is very happy about it and we´ll probably soon start to hate each other. But it won´t happen untill we get bored in bed. Then our lives will become hells. You´ll start working all days and spending time with Mike and Meg and I´ll be working, drinking and sleeping around. Those are the facts for our future.˝, he was talking softly but it hurted her anyways.
˝You´re very optimistic. I don´t care what you think. I´ll try to make life easier for both of us. There´s just one more thing. If you´re going to screw some whore be careful that my sister doesn´t find out. I don´t want people talking that I can´t keep you in my bed.˝, she couldn´t look at him.
˝Wouldn´t that be the truth?˝, he didn´t know why he was hurting her, he just couldn´t stop himself.
She turned to him and for a moment he thought that she´s gonna hit him. That pain and hurt that were in her eyes replaced anger, maybe even hate.
˝What do you want from me? Maybe I should think of some sick sexual games so you wouldn´t get bored? Or maybe I should cook in my underware?˝
He wanted to say something but she glared at him and he didn´t dare to say anything.
˝Come on Logan. Let´s be honest. There´s no woman in the world that could make you to be faithful.˝, she sounded almost sad.
They arrived and she got out of car and started walking to the building when he cought her arm and turned her to him. Before she managed to react his tongue was in her mouth. She kissed him back but he felt that it wasn´t one of her kisses. Kisses that he knew how they felt like. He pulled back and looked at her eyes hoping to see old Rory back. The playful and smiling Rory. But she wasn´t there. The girl in front him was sad. She couldn´t look in his eyes. She looked like she´s going to cry.
˝Rory what did I do? I like it more when you´re angry then when you´re like this.˝, he took her hand in his and she stared at there hands.
When she didn´t answer he made her to look at him. She smiled and asked him, ˝We´ll deal with all our problems this way? When I get mad you´ll kiss me or take me to bed and then I should be happy?˝
He was just staring at her not knowing what to say. Rory brought her hand to his cheek and shortly kissed his lips. Then she turned and left with the most sad smile he has ever seen. He wanted to stop her, to hug her and to tell her that everything will be Ok. He wanted to make her smile and laugh. The problems was that he didn´t know how to do that.
What he didn´t see were the tears that fell down her cheeks when she walked away. She didn´t even try to hide or stop them. She hated herself for caring so much. She just wanted him to try to understand her. She walked to her office and got to work. She hoped that it will help her to forget about him. At least for a few hours.
AN: First: I don´t want to offend blondes. I´m a blonde. Second: I really hope you´ll like this chapter. Third: Leave Review