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Athrun- The good life long lived
Happiness in the cradle.
Emerald green eyes and navy blue hair.
Born with the good looks and wanted by many women.
He was engaged to a famous singer who later became a traitor to him and his father.
What was it that he wanted? He had everything a normal person couldn't ask for.
Power. Wealth. Acknowledgment. Influence.
Why did he feel so empty inside? Was it because his mother, his beloved mother, had died? Or was it because he had been called to join ZAFT, when they had made a pact they would never take sides? He felt happy when they were the best of friends, happily behaving like 3- year old kids. Then he had been called away. He had nothing to remember him by, save for the memories they had spent together in the academy. He was given a mechanical bird he had made, and he had called it Tori.
He then left with a fake smile on his face, feeling hollow inside. Then he saw him again. With the EAF. In the Strike.
In Strike, he had killed Nicol.
In Strike, he had given Yzak a scar.
In Strike, he had caused him to be filled with hate.
In Strike, he had caused Dearka to surrender.
He felt so much hate and anger for the first time in his life when they were friends. Now, they were no longer friends. Now, they were enemies. For killing Nicol, he would pay.
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That's right, give yourself more hate. Let me feed on your painful memories. Hate him. Kill him. Let his crimson blood flow from your hands. Finish him. Let him be history. Show him who is stronger. Show that you can avenge Nicol. Kill him. Kill his friends. Kill him so everyone's hearts will break.
I know I'm being selfish.
To satiate my hunger, I made use of an innocent person.
But I have no choice, I'm not a human being like them. I want to be, but I cannot.
I am a darker side of the peoples conscious. I emerge whenever negative emotions rise. I make use of it and turn it to my needs. I twist it so it will become a nightmare.
A nightmare that reveals the darker sides of them.
A nightmare that may become reality if they do fall in the pit already dug for them.
A nightmare in which they start dreaming…
and will never come back…
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Athrun's POV
I heard it.
It tells me to avenge Nicol.
It tells me to see his blood.
It tells me to hate.
And I will listen to it.
Forget about reason.
I can't turn back anymore.
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In Aegis, he killed Tolle.
In Aegis, he broke the hearts of two women. On who would become his sister, the other Tolle's lover.
In Aegis, he had nearly caused Dearka to die because he had failed to help him from escaping the EA units and teasing the girl whose lover he himself had killed.
In Aegis, he had caused his supposed death.
In Aegis, he had blown up the Strike.
In Aegis, he had caused the man who looked upon him as a brother to blame himself repeatedly.
In Aegis, he had caused the captain to grieve and blame herself for allowing Tolle and him to join the EAF.
He had done it. Although he never saw the blood in his hands, he felt strangely happy. But when she appeared and told him, "Kill because somebody was killed, to kill because he killed, do you think peace would ever come like that?" He remembered telling her as both of them cried, "Nicol was only fifteen and he loved the piano! He was a kind person! He didn't deserve to die!"
They had wept over his selfishness, her desire for peace and for the people they lost.
But when he came back, and she finally accepted his love. His life was complete again.
But then the Second Bloody Valentine started. He was seeing these scenarios again.
In Saviour, he watched Shinn hate him.
In Saviour, he watched Heine die.
In Saviour, he watched Shinn bring down the Gaia only to reveal that it was the girl he liked.
In Saviour, he watched as a very angry him cut down his Saviour.
"Cagalli is crying right now, and you are fighting the very thing she is trying to protect! Why can't you understand her! Why can't you!"
Then he realized what he had been doing.
What was he fighting for? For ZAFT? For PLANTS?
Then why was he fighting her? Why did he want to hurt her? Was it because she had allowed the emirs to manipulate her? Or because he still thought that Orb was an enemy of ZAFT?
Fear suddenly seized him.
What if one day,
He had to face her in battle,
And he killed her by accident?
What would he do?
What was he fighting for?
Why was he feeling this way?
He wished he wouldn't feel this way anymore.
He only wanted to lead a normal life with her.
But it would never be true.
He wished.
He believed.
He had lived a good life too long, and it would have to end someday.
And it had to happen now when he finally realized that he had to make good use of the time given to him. But it was too late.
He pleaded with Heaven to give him a chance.
Heaven heard his prayer.
Heaven heard his regrets.
Heaven tried to help him.
But Fate coldly looked on.
And Fate left him a gift.
You are nothing but a weakling on a chessboard. You are being used and you don't even know it.
But he proved Fate wrong.
He patched up with her after months of separation.
He paid his respects to the innocents.
But Fate did not let him off.
Fate was happy for the meantime,
But he knew better.
Everytime you hurt someone, I will double your pain, Athrun Zala. You are not safe from me. You have lived to long a good life. Now I take back my words. But if you hurt anyone again, I'll take back my gifts.
For you are only a mere piece of chess in the chessboard.
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A/N: Yup! I'm finally done with Athrun. His is slightly longer due to the fact that I was writing during the GS/D eras. His is like…slight angst…I think…anyway, this time, the creature has finally revealed the kinder side of its nature…but uh oh, looks like fate is betting his life now! Well the next is on…Nicol! Nicol will short, due to the fact that he was finished in seed by Kira... kinda sad for him…oh yes before I forget..i'll like to thank these people…
Star-Moon-Angel: I'm glad to know you enjoyed it, and I'll update as soon as possible!
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