Disclaimer: Do I have to repeat myself? sigh I don't own GS/D blah blah blah…
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Dearka- Letting go
He was a Coordinator, and he was a superior race compared to that of the Naturals. He beat them in everything in terms of speed, intelligent, skill and thinking. He was an excellent mobile suit pilot, in which he felt the Naturals couldn't even handle a Gundam without getting it blown up. Instead, they used mobile armors, which he found pathetic.
Didn't all these facts prove that he was superior?
Didn't all these facts show the Naturals that they were worthless?
Didn't it knock some sense into their heads and show them that they should be the one groveling at their feet?
Unfortunately, they decided to start a war, letting him think that Naturals were just a bunch of brainless fools who thought who was their fastest solution out.
Pathetic was the word for them.
Or maybe…morons would be better. Yes, that was it. The Naturals were a bunch of brain- washed, mindless, idiotic morons that had to ever exist in this universe.
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Pathetic they may be, but you are no different. Besides, who are you to question Fate?
You are no better, with your only thinking that Coordinators are superior.
Oh yes…how could I have forgotten? Coordinators you may be…
But don't forget…the Ultimate Coordinator.
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Dearka's POV
Damn pilot of Strike, I just want to aim my blasters and shoot him right out of existence! First Rusty, then Miguel! Why must you take them from me? They were my good friends! Rusty should have been the rightful pilot of the Strike! Not you!
But I've to admit…for a rookie…you are pretty good at piloting the jinxed Gundam…
The jinxed Gundam that has caused us a load of trouble over the weeks…
Damn you, if you were on our side…I would have welcomed you…
But why won't you listen to Athrun and join us?
Why?
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Buster was an EA unit, not one of ZAFT's, but it was a pretty cool Gundam. So it seemed that the moronic Naturals indeed were pretty smart. But currently, this wasn't his concern. Recently, they had been given orders to shoot down the Strike or destroy the Archangel. But weirdly, as if there was some sort of magic at work, both were only damaged or easily could escape from them. Not just the freaking Strike, but the Archangel seemed to be pretty jinxed as well; any ships or Gundams near that area; always never got away in time; they always were either blown up or had to retreat. He swore silently; this ship was really a jinx.
He hated to face the war; it was something like his nemesis.
But he didn't have a choice.
This war was not his to command, had he been the one commanding it, he would try to stop it.
But now it wasn't time to think all of these; he still had a war to fight.
The realities of war were harsh, and he intended to make sure he was strong enough to fight it.
But fate didn't think so.
In Buster, he saw Miguel fall.
In Buster, he saw Yzak scarred by him.
In Buster, he saw Nicol die.
In Buster, he watched himself surrender.
In Buster, he saw Athrun and him clash.
He never imagined he had to see himself surrender. It should have been the other way round! But Fate was cruel, and he could do nothing but just wait.
Then he saw her.
A young pretty Natural weeping, her EA uniform showing off her slim figure. Sure, most of Coordinator women were pretty, but they could not match up to some of the Natural women, two examples being the captain of the ship and the girl he had seen. He had made fun at her, and she could only glare at him, tears still clinging in her eyes.
When he saw her later in the infirmary, he made some jokes before insulting her. She had in turn tried to kill him, only to be restrained by a friend.
Then he realized what an idiot he had been. She was weeping over the death of her boyfriend, who had been killed by Aegis's shield. But as time grew by, he found himself liking her more and more. He began to look forward to her coming to give him food.
He wanted to know whether she had feelings for him, but he knew better than to ask.
Then came the day he hoped would never happen; he had to fight against Yzak.
Yzak. His best friend from the academy. Pointing a gun at him.
Fighting him in their Gundams.
Buster versus Duel.
But they were soon fighting on the side of the Clyne Faction, before going back to ZAFT.
Now Yzak's subordinate, he served onboard the Voltaire.
Now they were fighting another war, the Second Bloody Valentine.
Now that they were on different sides once more, he had no intention on hurting the Archangel.
But still in his heart, he pined for someone he knew deemed impossible between them.
He would not show it outwardly.
But each night, as he went to sleep, he would see her.
I don't want to fight anymore,
I want feel you against me.
I wish that I could always be by your side.
I know you still need time to recover.
But still I hope and wished daily…
That I won't hurt you anymore.
Because I want to protect our future.
That you will never become my enemy.
Because…
I still care for you.
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A/N: YES! Finished with chappie five! At last, thank god. breathes sigh of relief.
Oh yes, I know I promised to update last sat, but I somehow my cousins came to my house, and became quite a playground…--''…but now, I can't guarantee to update by sat, coz the only time for me to update are on Fridays as I'm down with schoolwork and activities…anyway, I'll like to thank these people for their last reviews!
Star-Moon-Angel: Thanks for your frequent reviews! I hope you will continue the story!
i Mel- Chan i: I think no doubt in my opinion, Dearka's isn't quite angsty…but you'll have to admit, Athrun's past does seem quite dark though…hmmm…did I over react a bit?
Mew Tatsu: Dearka doesn't really have much nightmares…maybe save for the time Mirillia tried to kill him and when Yzak aimed a gun at him.
Well, next victim…sorry…ahem character…Mr angsty…Shinn Asuka! I promise you, his is going to be quite long and angsty…XD