Choices

By: mj0621

Disclaimer and stuff in earlier chap.

Author's Notes: Now that I'm satisfied with my oneshots and short fics, my writer's block is gone and I'm gonna start updating my WiP fics now...(Thoughts, S.C.A.R.E.D.?, A Right Mistake) :D Finally huh? lol And at long last I can write CSI(LV) fics again! Cheers peeps and buddies:P Btw, this third and fourth parts are two separate endings. Let's say it's a ride of down and up...(hint)

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Stella's POV:

Part Three: I Try (Macy Gray)

Games, changes and fears

When will they go from here

When will they stop I believe that fate has brought us here

And we should be together

But we're not

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you

I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin.

The day came and you finally chose. Your words cut me like a knife as you proclaimed who'd stay and who'd go. I know we're professionally speaking here but we both know that this is also personal.

I try to say goodbye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

Goodbye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

I pack my things and said my farewell to the gang. Tears were shed, hugs were shared but when I saw you, I stood still. No words were said, no touch was felt. So much for goodbye huh?

I may appear to be free

But I'm just a prisoner of your love

I may seem alright and smile when you leave

But my smiles are just a front

I play it off but I'm dreamin of you

I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin

I never been the same since you've transfered me. Staying in a different city's a reason but living without you around is another. I never felt so lonely in my life.

Here is my confession

May I be your possession

Boy I need your touch

Your love kisses and such

With all my might I try

But this I can't deny

I play it off but I'm dreaming of you

I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin

Pain is killing me and my mind's fighting this insanity. Tortured my soul as I realize I wasn't able to tell you... how much you mean to me... days that I wished that I was in your arms... months asking myself when will it be us... years of waititng and giving you my all. I love you Mac Taylor but I guess it's too late.

I try to say goodbye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

Now is the time I should forget . I should move on with my life and get over you. Yes, it's hard... but you know what's harder? Knowing that forever I'll think of you.

Part Four: Blessed (Christina Aguilera)

When I think how life used to be

Always walking in the shadows

Then I look at what you've given me

I feel like dancing on my tiptoes

I must say everyday I wake

And realize you're at my side

All my life, I had no one to turn to but since I met you, I know that finally I got someone who's there for me.

I know I'm truly blessed

For everything you give me

Blessed for all the tenderness you show

I'll do my best

With every breath that's in me

Blessed to make sure you never go

You backed me up always and this is no exception. I felt tons of relief as you defended me without doubting me. Your words were strong ... and everybody listened to every syllable you promounced. You believed in me and now... I'm here, standing by your side... not her.

There are times that test your faith

'Til you think you might surrender

And baby I'm, I'm not ashamed to say

That my hopes were growing slender

You walked by in the nick of time

Looking like an answered prayer

Yeah, we had our ups and downs, our misunderstandings and confrontations and I'm glad that until now, we're here standing, stronger than ever.

I'm blessed with love and understanding

Blessed when I hear you call my name

I'll do my best with faith that's never ending

Blessed to make sure you feel the same

As you call my name, my heart leaped. Starting this day, everything's gonna change. You know that's not only in our work... Was this a good decision? I don't know but I'm willing and ready to find out.

Deep inside of me

You fill me with your gentle touch...

Now that the storm has calmed, the sun shines brightly into the sky. yes, this is only the first of what we'll face, but together, we'll be ready for any obstacle this relationship will give us. Now, I can say what I've been waiting to say all of these years. Now, I can take care of you without limitations. Now, I can give you my all and you accept then without hesitations. Now, I can love you with all I got knowing that you do too.

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I'm done with oneshots/short stories now... Lemme start typing my uipdates... bet some of you are waiting for those...:P Please tell me what you guys think! Thanks!

mj(wgf)