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Seifer stopped the car in front of his apartment for the fifth time that night just to check if Squall had come home...but again the house was empty and again he climbed into the car and started the engine.
How long has it been? Five hours?
Seifer felt weak and exhausted. His body was heavy, his heart was heavy, and his mind was fogged up. Every now and then he would give an occasional shudder from the cold and run a hand through his hair to drive away the rainwater that had soaked his shirt.
The blonde didn't know where to look anymore, he had searched his neighborhood, checked the college, drove over to the restaurants and café's they have gone to together, even stopped at the harbor to check if the brunet was looking out at the sea, but Squall was nowhere in sight.
Frowning slightly, Seifer moaned and rested his head back against the chair.
What was he doing? He had run out of places to search and it was too dark to see anything. Covering his eyes with his arm, he took a moment to think, but gradually sleep overcame him, and he was lulled to sleep by the sound of the rain on his windshield and the slow beating of his heart.
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Caine looked at the watch...it's been almost seven hours since he had found the brunet, and still no sign of Seifer.
Was the blonde really that angry? Did he care now that Squall was gone?
It was almost 4 in the morning and Squall woke up, walking into the living room, feeling disoriented and lost, "Caine?"
Caine shot off his sofa, "Squall."
The older brunet forced a smile on his face.
Squall sat on the sofa, the towel around his hips, but it was dry now. The rain had slowed into a light drizzle, and Squall looked out the window, "I'm going back."
"Where? Back to Seifer?"
"No, back to my house. This was a big mistake...my father is such a fool."
Caine sat beside Squall, "No...Don't go."
Squall took a deep breath to calm his frayed nerves and try to stop the bout of tears threatening to burst his throat. "I...there is no reason for me to stay."
Caine put a hand on Squall's thigh, "Please Squall...it's not the end of the world. Everyone makes mistakes...besides I'm here now. It's gonna be alright."
Squall whimpered and turned to Cane, "I can't do this anymore...I'm dying here...I can't"
Caine's lips stole away the rest of the phrase. The older brunet's eyes were open, boring into Squall's as he kissed him.
Squall's eyes filled with tears and he closed them, giving in, letting the older brunet take control. Caine deepened the kiss as Squall relaxed in his hold, bringing his arms around the younger brunet's back and pulled him closer to warm him up. Caine's tongue begged entrance to Squall's mouth and he was overjoyed as well as wary when Squall parted his lips for him to invade. Moaning, Caine pulled Squall onto his laps, not leaving the brunet's mouth, his hands caressing Squall's shoulders and torso. Caine pulled away finally for a breath but he tilted Squall's head up, pressing his lips to Squall's beating jugular.
The younger brunet was empty now...he didn't care what was going on. All he could think about was wiping away some of the loneliness inside...he was using Caine...
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Seifer woke up with a start, his breaths coming out in gasps. Where was he? Looking around with bloodshot eyes, Seifer moaned. His back hurt from sleeping on the front seat of his car and his head was pounding.
Something was telling him Squall was in need of his help. Where was he though? Seifer's car was still running and he stepped on the gas...resuming his search of his loved one. Light was beginning to show beyond the horizon as Seifer methodically searched one alleyway then the other...walking into hotels and motels to check if the brunet had booked a room for himself that night.
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Caine was over Squall, pressing kisses to his chest, his hands caressing Squall's thighs.
"Squall?" Caine stopped for a minute, his eyes clouded with passion.
Squall moaned slightly, more from shame of what he was doing than what was being done to his body.
Opening his grey eyes, Squall looked into the blue ones.
"What's wrong, Squall...don't you want this?"
Squall looked hesitant, his eyes again filling up with tears, "Don't stop, Caine...don't leave me alone."
Caine bent and blew hot air into Squall's ears, and whispered, "You're never alone you know."
Squall burst into tears.
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Seifer was literally going to cry. The last time he had cried was when his mother died and here he was now, full of frustration and anger. He kicked the wheel of his car as he walked out of the last hotel in the area. His foot hurt and he growled, kicking and punching his car now to vent his anger, calling out the brunet's name. the rain stopped and Seifer looked up to the sky as his own tears started to fall. Where are you Squall? Why are you doing this to me? Don't leave me alone! I can't live like this without you!
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Caine was ashamed of himself; he was actually taking advantage of the hurt he caused. Sitting up, Caine put Squall's head onto his laps and stroked his hair, all the passion he had been exercising dimming away as Squall cried in his laps.
"Lullaby
Hush
my love now don't you cry
Everything will be all right
Close
your eyes and drift in dream
Rest in peaceful sleep
If there's one thing
I
hope I showed you
Hope I showed you
Just give love to all
Oh
my love…in my arms tight
Every day you give me life
As I
drift off to your world
We'll rest in peaceful sleep
I know there's one thing
that
you showed me
That you showed me
Just
give love to all
Let's give love to all"
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okay? so how do you like this chapter? firstly i wanna thank Deception613 for the amazing poem...what? you though i wrote that...no way! it was really nice and i love it...i think it even fits the occasion...lols...anyway...i hope i positioned it just right too...anyway thanks alot...